I've realized that I love hard In the moment I can suffocate love before it has even been born. I rush in, in fear of loosing it. And when they knock me back I fall apart. I can say that I'm strong all that I want but I'm not and even this is just playing the victim oh woe is me oh woe is I suffocating love before it can cry. oh woe is we oh woe is us... or is it just me that cant see when enough is enough
wow its been a minute hasn't it since I posted....hoped you liked it!
I feel constricted Like the buds of flowers closed at night The eyes watching me And trembling at the sight of me Because I've been worn by the chains And not the other way around My soul's been twisted and churned And ground into a fine powdered sand
The fear is crippling It consumes It devours It leaves me stripped of all I once was And of all I wanted to be Until I feel empty inside A hollow wisp Of someone I once admired
you see this little girl walking down the street you'd never know its death she's trying to beet because those kids at school will tell her she's not worth it like she's second class like she's not a person I find i kind of funny when these kids walk on they all want a friend and she could have been one this little girl she'll g home and cry call-in' out to god 'why cant I just die! everyone hates me, I'm just a waste of space, I am not loved and this time I've had enough everyone turn's as she fights depression the only way she can get someone to listen is when se go's to confession Like she had something to be ashamed of when its the kids who make her want to take off now she's sat up in her room looking out at the moon, sad that she has to go so soon but, she knows she cant take it anymore "The world the sick one" she writes in her final words all she ever wanted was to have fun now she's braking down like a little kid she cut at her wrist's she's had enough this her body hits the ground she had enough of It now she is gone d you really think that its over because she's the dead one? I find it kind of funny that you think that its over its a soldier that she needed and I failed her, but I will fight on even when she's gone for the kids who don't have one my soared is my song as this winds to an end I will never back down even when theirs no sight of an end I mad a promise to fight and I will fight till my end I just want you to know their is someone who cares and if you need I will forever be their till the vary end you don't have to be scared you dont have to be scared just take a deep breath, close your eyes I cant tell you it'll get better but for now I'll be your reason why and if I ask can you do me just one thing? just don't give up, after losing her I've had enough I know I seem tuff but I cant take it if you go if I could I would put us in hand cuffs to let you know that if you jump were both going down down,.....down
To be the only one to see is a sad understatement Its the sad truth that I'm a freak and nobody seems to see But with the powers of a freak I will stand and I will see all your grotesque atrocity's because I am a freak a freak that see's
You say that I **** up and all I do is mess up every week ever day But mommy I still love you its ok! I cry alone in my room' so you don't get angry at my tears I don't know if you even care but its ok mommy I still love you I know im a mess yes its all my fault yes I get that Im broken but you wont ever see that Mommy I love you mommy I miss you cant you see im lost without you Broken I cry out to the night It is now my time, I must say good by don't you love me mommy? I don't CARE! I loved you mommy I played your game I said my sorry I never said I loved you to your face I am not scared I am not fearful I am damd and im bringing you down to