A shallow minded boy sat down on the balcony
With his heart filled with tons of melancholy
He lights up his cigars
And let the smoke melt his cold heart
His head has been occupied by that one person
A girl. That slowly grows into a woman
The wonderful human being
The rare celestial being
The angel without wings
So prepossessing
The way she sings
Is the only way to calms his feelings

He never thought of letting her go
Because she is the only one. He thought so
Little do he know
There are still millions of stars in the galaxy
There are still millions of fish in the sea
But he can’t think of that. His mind were too shallow

3 Year’s he carried the same affection
To that same person
The same beautiful name
That if someone mentions her name, he could go insane

The shallow minded boy have been wasting his times
Those precious seconds flies
To focus only on his depression
With no action taken

Thank you for decorating my illusions
I'm blessed with the made up dreams and visions
Althou we were not meant for each other
I only wished I realised it sooner

When she wants to fly to chase the shooting stars
Or when she wants to sleep at the surface of the clouds
The chain will pull her back to the ground hard
But nobody hear her falling, even after she yelled in pain really loud

Anxiety holds the chain and life bites her neck
Crushed and cannot do anything, all of her bones starts to break
Then left wounded in this cold world
Tried to manage the pain by her own while she trembles

Confused where to cry, because she can’t find a shoulder
Stress filled inside the heart of her mother
Her father is selfish yet filled with anger
Her cousin is a *******
Her boyfriend doesn’t act like her lover
She was born to be the only daughter
Her half siblings are still a youngster
And the society doesn’t seems to care about her

She tried to heal depression with physical pain
A cutter on a right hand and tried to cut her left hand veins
Then she would use her blood as an ink
To write her poetries
Hides her scars with sleeves, and her smile hides her true feelings

Two of her besties are willing to help her when she is down
One of them stands on her side to help her stand up on the ground
And she makes her to promise never cut herself again
But the other one, got separated by the oceans
He can only listens
After he knew how dark her was experience
He was speechless because her world are far more worst then his expectations

But no matter how harsh her stories
She will never give up
Because from pain she learns to be stronger

I'm immuned from cupids
And I'm able to sense them if they are coming near
They will feel fear
When they see my eyes so deep

My life are now free from a cupids
The little creatures that makes me stupid
I uses no medicine
But phillophobia is my only poison

Putting you inside my brain systems
Are one of the best things I've ever done

I can't stop imagine
Both of us sitting at the roof under the moonlight,
Talking while drinking our favourite alcoholic beverages,
Hop in the aircraft, baby I will be the pilot and we will look down enjoying the city lights
And pressing our lips together until we could see the sunrise

Aurelia, my sweetheart
I've always hoped that those dreams comes to reality
But sadly
The real world slapped me too hard
Until I opened my eyes
Really wide

I made a cross on my body
And I shut my eyes closed
I praised the Lord
And I told him what I want and what I need

I mentioned your name and your lover's
In my everyday's prayers
With a hesitate
But tried hard to accept my faith

It's hard for me to pray
So your relationship is getting better
I could feel a scratch on my heart's surface
My tongue tasted so bitter
My lungs can't catch some oxygen
And my brain faces tremendous malfunction

But even thou my prayers drove me wild
I still can pray with a big smile
I hope both of your bondings will never be broken
I prayed for the best of both of you, the lovely diamonds

It wasn't a seed
It was the demon's egg that was buried
Deeply in my heart
The demon starts to crawl

He grows bigger and bigger
He starts to climb to my ear
The words he whispered
Become louder and louder
"**** him Peter"
"Proof your love to her"
"To hell you put her lover"
"Feel the happines of his crying in his torture"

It can't be
The demon have the control of me
All of these hate
Got me lost in faith

I can't do it
But the tendecies
Grows slowly
And it slowly killing me
But I have to bare it

Because she have the joy in him
Eternal joy it seems
Nothing could break them apart
Because their love is solid and hard

And I fear
To drop her tears
As it slowly dripping
And falls down from her chin

I won't let that happen
And I will fight the demon
Till he dies
Or my heart dies

She called my name
And gave me a bar of chocolate from her hand
The most joyful time of my life
I felt like my future will be filled with bright lights
So I ate it
But when I realized it, it was too late
The chocolate passed the expiration date

Obsession
Depression
And his wildest imagination

Slowly making him a horrible creature
A monster
A heartless killer
Or a deranged animal

He lost control of himself
His mind have gone somewhere
The jealousy got him possessed
His common sense was dead

Why does he became crazy and selfish
To hunt her lips?
Is the reason to gain joy of eternal life
Or to fulfill his lust desires?

Uncontrolled hate
The lost of faith
His hunger over love
And his thirst from the one he adore

Nothing can stop him
Until his goals is fulfilled,
The death angel cut his throat open
Or find a new prey
That one day will brighten his day

Walk away, for I stopped caring
Just go, don't look at the mirror
Go with the man with a golden ring
I'll be happy alone with the bottles

*****, wine and whiskey
Drunk, wasted and tipsy
The moon is waiting for me there
With the green fairy in her lair

If my organs can't take it
I can change it
Took me a thousand dollars just for her skin
But my alcohol only wants Benjamin Franklin

She is the light with undefeated brightness
Where it’s warm and contains happiness
But I rather stay in the darkness
For it’s misguide to the path that wasn’t chosen

Tempting and I never want to avoid
The lights calling my name wants me to stay below it
But I rather be here shove my ears and close it
In the cold darkness let my blood be frozen

So I buried myself in the shadow
Where it’s just cold and hollow
Because if I follow
It will only ends with disappointment

Her gray eyes shuts my lips close,
Tied my tongue like a rope,
Then clogged both my throat and my nose

I created hundreds of sentences,
Prepared thousands of words,
And arranged millions of letters
But I can only say one compliment

Her gray-colored eyes are extremely rare
So gorgeous, it warms my night in the early winter
I wanted to see her eyes forever
But the reality, however
I won’t be looking at those eyes again

I stayed and I waited
Behind the curtains, under the blanket
Covered myself in melancholy
Then pour my heart with whiskey

I cried then I lied
The heart beats, but my soul died
Still asking questions
About the separation

Lord oh Lord, tell me what happened
Why does love only brings depression?
Lord oh Lord, hear my prayer
For I want the best for her

Take my hand
And never let go
I will take you to the clouds
Where you can yell really loud
Without hearing any judge from your friends

Put your arms around my body
And hold it firmly
Then I will take you to the outer space
Where we could be ourselves
And live happily forever

Kiss my lips
Then I will **** out your negative feelings
I may cannot solve all your problems
But I promise
I will not let you struggle
By single handed

Tell me your new destination
And I will set it as my new mission
I'm doing this for only one reason
I want to share you my Affection

If only I can be careless
Walk in without thinking the risks
Push my way to my surroundings
And feel innocent like a baby

If only I can be reckless
Barge in with my fist
Killing all of my guilty feelings
Before I end up hurting my buddy

If only I can be thoughtless
Acting like I didn’t do any troubles I did
Closes my eyes when the ones who cares bleeding
Shut my logics and follows the word of my feelings

But is it worth it to be that
Just so you know I have burning desires for her?

Part of ‘The Shallow Minded Boy’

She puts her focus on her studies
Her family
and her lover
But little do she knew
That her relationship with her boyfriend maybe in danger

That person is waiting since long times
That person never realize
This is his the 3rd year he spends
Waiting for their relationship comes to an end

Owns a pretty eyes but she can’t use it well without the help of lenses
Once she take off her glasses, a man won’t even blink as he can’t control all his senses
Deep inside her skull, she have a brain that could solve any problems that came upon
Her full name is a definition of a beautiful genius in my own opinion
She could easily boys fell in love when she laugh or when she slicks her hair back behind her ears
Her only weakness, is a sensitive heart that could make her eyes throw out gallons of tears

Another day another night
Under my thick skull there is a light
Roaming around my mind
Everyday day she shines
Like the lights fell from heaven
Ices starts to melt and break the depression
Another day another night

The sweet voice she used to sing
All her positive vibes and her caring
Saved me from the ocean tide
Heaven have created an Angel
Another day another night

Her coloured crown
And the soul behind the window
Never stopped amazed me
Dreamt of her around
On the night where the moonlight glows
Knocked me away from reality
Oh the times wasted to adore her beauty

I live in the cloudy dreams
Where it covered my vision
From seeing these bitter world

My imagination
Is the land where nobody
Can disturb me

My heart were covered in fear
To see the future
That stands in front of my eyes

My vision is clear
To face a possible failure
But I have to try

Or maybe
A chance of winning
I don't know the result will be
But I'm scared, that is my feelings

The way she danced amazed me to my very soul
Stopped me from breathing when she shook the floor
My heart beats starts to increased it's tempo, about to lost it's control
The way she danced, nobody can resist to look or ignore

The ways she moved her arms
The ways she put her feet
The ways she swung her hips
The ways she puts her emotions all over her body
Cannot be written in just one poetry
Because her movements killed the muscle of my lips
As she danced following the beats
I could see nothing but her charms

Her sweat drops from her chin
The breath she took, indicates that it was exhausting
But she kept on dancing and dancing
Without notice the floor was shaking
And my soul was trembling
As she danced like an angel flapped their wings

He took my body to the desert
While my heart stays here
To guide him in his dark world
For I am Just His Chandelier

Punish me when I got bit by the crocs
Hit me when the opposite spoke
Pull me down when I nearly reached the clouds
Followed by his screams in my ears so loud

His love is my pain
His joy is my rain
My dreams putted aside
And my life lost it’s pride

End all my misery
By put myself in the history
I want to get lost in the world of mystery
To set my soul free

I love your flaws, curves and style
I love how sweet is your smile
I love your positive vibes
That gave me such an optimistic life
I love your beautiful mind
I love your eyes that shines
I love how your voice sounds
That carries away all the sorrows around

I love you, I will never deny it
I love you, you're the one I want to be with

Don’t hold back and never will
Take your bicycle and ride through the rain
Don’t mind about the puddles and enjoy the thrill
Ride like you will never ride again

Don’t hold back and don’t quit
Ask that attractive person their numbers
Don’t think about what will happen, just do it
Feel your heartbeat, enjoy it, because rejection doesn’t matter

Don’t hold back and don’t overthink
Dance in public to your favorite music
Catch your breath and sing
Move your body until your legs weak

Don’t hold back and share the happiness
Offer everybody a free hug
It cost nothing and might safe someone from darkness
Give them compliment and wish them good luck