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291 · Sep 2018
I Prayed For The Diamonds
FinkZ Sep 2018
I Prayed For The Diamonds
I made a cross on my body
And I shut my eyes closed
I praised the Lord
And I told him what I want and what I need

I mentioned your name and your lover's
In my everyday's prayers
With a hesitate
But tried hard to accept my faith

It's hard for me to pray
So your relationship is getting better
I could feel a scratch on my heart's surface
My tongue tasted so bitter
My lungs can't catch some oxygen
And my brain faces tremendous malfunction

But even thou my prayers drove me wild
I still can pray with a big smile
I hope both of your bondings will never be broken
I prayed for the best of both of you, the lovely diamonds
I will find my love of life. But first, I need to let you go completely
#depression #sadness #romance #prayers #love #unrequited
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282 · Dec 2018
My Dead Dreams Comes Alive
FinkZ Dec 2018
My Dead Dreams Comes Alive
Putting you inside my brain systems
Are one of the best things I've ever done

I can't stop imagine
Both of us sitting at the roof under the moonlight,
Talking while drinking our favourite alcoholic beverages,
Hop in the aircraft, baby I will be the pilot and we will look down enjoying the city lights
And pressing our lips together until we could see the sunrise

Aurelia, my sweetheart
I've always hoped that those dreams comes to reality
But sadly
The real world slapped me too hard
Until I opened my eyes
Really wide
Some of you guys might read my poem that was titled "Grave Of My Dreams". And I have to say, those dreams came alive and now I fell in love again
#love #depression #romantic #dreams #aurelia #romance
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282 · Nov 2018
Cupids
FinkZ Nov 2018
Cupids
I'm immuned from cupids
And I'm able to sense them if they are coming near
They will feel fear
When they see my eyes so deep

My life are now free from a cupids
The little creatures that makes me stupid
I uses no medicine
But phillophobia is my only poison
Am I afraid of love? Or are you afraid of not being loved back
#love #romance #romantic #phillophobia #sad #depression
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281 · Jun 2018
The Hound That Hunts Her Lips
FinkZ Jun 2018
The Hound That Hunts Her Lips
Obsession
Depression
And his wildest imagination

Slowly making him a horrible creature
A monster
A heartless killer
Or a deranged animal

He lost control of himself
His mind have gone somewhere
The jealousy got him possessed
His common sense was dead

Why does he became crazy and selfish
To hunt her lips?
Is the reason to gain joy of eternal life
Or to fulfill his lust desires?

Uncontrolled hate
The lost of faith
His hunger over love
And his thirst from the one he adore

Nothing can stop him
Until his goals is fulfilled,
The death angel cut his throat open
Or find a new prey
That one day will brighten his day
He is just lost
#romance #romantic #love #depression #affection #sad
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278 · Apr 2018
Crawling Jealousy
FinkZ Apr 2018
Crawling Jealousy
It wasn't a seed
It was the demon's egg that was buried
Deeply in my heart
The demon starts to crawl

He grows bigger and bigger
He starts to climb to my ear
The words he whispered
Become louder and louder
"**** him Peter"
"Proof your love to her"
"To hell you put her lover"
"Feel the happines of his crying in his torture"

It can't be
The demon have the control of me
All of these hate
Got me lost in faith

I can't do it
But the tendecies
Grows slowly
And it slowly killing me
But I have to bare it

Because she have the joy in him
Eternal joy it seems
Nothing could break them apart
Because their love is solid and hard

And I fear
To drop her tears
As it slowly dripping
And falls down from her chin

I won't let that happen
And I will fight the demon
Till he dies
Or my heart dies
To **** the demon or to be killed by the demon I created...... Aurelia, I don't feel you deserve me
#jealousy #hatred #love #romantic #dark
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276 · Oct 2018
Chocolate
FinkZ Oct 2018
Chocolate
She called my name
And gave me a bar of chocolate from her hand
The most joyful time of my life
I felt like my future will be filled with bright lights
So I ate it
But when I realized it, it was too late
The chocolate passed the expiration date
Then woke up in the emergency room
#funny #romantic #romance #love #chocolate
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274 · Sep 2018
The Forbidden Love
FinkZ Sep 2018
The Forbidden Love
To my beautiful angel
Please do not looking at my heart for too long
Because everytime you stared at me
You chiseled my heart into stone

To my favorite angel
Please do not hold my hand firmly
Because when you touched my skin
My bones melts into liquid

To my lovely angel
Please do not whisper in my ears
Because when your voice coming in
My mind is not clear

To my strong angel
Please do not hug my body
Because when you put your arms around me
My internal organs turned into chunks of meat

To my sweet angel
Please do not kiss my lips
Because every drops of your saliva contains nicotine
And I will crave for more, so addicting

Our love is forbidden
It will only brings harm and dangers
Our affection blurred our vision
And our dreams started to scattered
Because God won’t allow a sinners to be with the purest creature like you
#love #angel #depression #romantic #romance #sad
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262 · Mar 2018
Memories, Thoughts & Dreams
FinkZ Mar 2018
Memories, Thoughts & Dreams
Back to those days I reminisce
The voice of her laughter that makes my day colourful
As her words came from her throat and lips, it's always sounds beautiful
Those memories
Always brings me back to highschool
Those days when I'm still a fool

Questions through my thoughts
That makes my mind and my life haunted
"Am I something to her?"
"Is it possible for me to be with her?"
"Is she still with her lover?"
And the query that makes me worried
"What if I got rejected?"
"Maybe desperations controls me to get my head shot"

The day will come sooner or later
The time where I will be on my knee
In front of her
Hold her hand softly and gently
Stare at her eyes directly
To tell what my heart desires,
How she appears in my dreams
I trust my heart to her
And I will keep her heart with me
Forever
You we're always in my head since 2015............Aurelia
#love #romance #dreams #thoughts #memories #wishes
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257 · Oct 2018
My Temple Is Her Home
FinkZ Oct 2018
My Temple Is Her Home
She is the spirit inside my temple
Lingering at the shadows from the corners
Protecting my sacred place from an intruders
And killed whoever comes with her short temper

Never look at her eyes because she will take out your vision
Never speak against her because her poisonous fangs will stop your heartbeat
Never even try to touch her because she will turn your bones into ashes
Don't ever try to **** her because my wrath will be the last thing you see when you are finished

I trust her with my temple
She can do whatever she wants inside
Nobody is allowed to enter
With or without my permission
For some of you who don't know, temple means head.
#love #romance #romantic #temple #dark #depression
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250 · Sep 2018
To The Lucky Man
FinkZ Sep 2018
To The Lucky Man
To the luckiest man on earth
Since you catched her first
I'm willing to let my heart shattered
Crumbled into dust and carried away by the winds
Following the moving air until it can't be seen

To the luckiest man
Her protector
Take care of her
And never let her to get hurt
Or else I will press your skull against a fast moving propeller

To that luckiest man
Or more likely her favourite man
I can guarantee your bondings will be forever
Because I sent your relationship with my prayers
So the both of you will always be together
And I trust you I swear
#love #depression #depressed #moveon #romance #romantic
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245 · Sep 2019
Lights Of The Wrong Love
FinkZ Sep 2019
Lights Of The Wrong Love
She is the light with undefeated brightness
Where it’s warm and contains happiness
But I rather stay in the darkness
For it’s misguide to the path that wasn’t chosen

Tempting and I never want to avoid
The lights calling my name wants me to stay below it
But I rather be here shove my ears and close it
In the cold darkness let my blood be frozen

So I buried myself in the shadow
Where it’s just cold and hollow
Because if I follow
It will only ends with disappointment
I hoped you guys found the right one
#love #shadow #light #depression #romantic #desperate #sad
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243 · Nov 2020
Alcohol
FinkZ Nov 2020
Alcohol
Walk away, for I stopped caring
Just go, don't look at the mirror
Go with the man with a golden ring
I'll be happy alone with the bottles

*****, wine and whiskey
Drunk, wasted and tipsy
The moon is waiting for me there
With the green fairy in her lair

If my organs can't take it
I can change it
Took me a thousand dollars just for her skin
But my alcohol only wants Benjamin Franklin
#alcohol #love #breakups #depression #depressed #sad
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234 · Sep 2018
Affection
FinkZ Sep 2018
Affection
Take my hand
And never let go
I will take you to the clouds
Where you can yell really loud
Without hearing any judge from your friends

Put your arms around my body
And hold it firmly
Then I will take you to the outer space
Where we could be ourselves
And live happily forever

Kiss my lips
Then I will **** out your negative feelings
I may cannot solve all your problems
But I promise
I will not let you struggle
By single handed

Tell me your new destination
And I will set it as my new mission
I'm doing this for only one reason
I want to share you my Affection
Because you are the best miracle that ever happened to me
#love #romance #romantic #affection
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234 · Sep 2019
Worth It?
FinkZ Sep 2019
Worth It?
If only I can be careless
Walk in without thinking the risks
Push my way to my surroundings
And feel innocent like a baby

If only I can be reckless
Barge in with my fist
Killing all of my guilty feelings
Before I end up hurting my buddy

If only I can be thoughtless
Acting like I didn’t do any troubles I did
Closes my eyes when the ones who cares bleeding
Shut my logics and follows the word of my feelings

But is it worth it to be that
Just so you know I have burning desires for her?
If only
#romantic #romance #love #depression #unrequited #aurelia
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233 · Jun 2018
The Girl That Never Knew
FinkZ Jun 2018
The Girl That Never Knew
Part of ‘The Shallow Minded Boy’

She puts her focus on her studies
Her family
and her lover
But little do she knew
That her relationship with her boyfriend maybe in danger

That person is waiting since long times
That person never realize
This is his the 3rd year he spends
Waiting for their relationship comes to an end
He maybe waiting
#deep #depression #love #unrequited #sad #romantic
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230 · Dec 2018
Gray Eyes
FinkZ Dec 2018
Gray Eyes
Her gray eyes shuts my lips close,
Tied my tongue like a rope,
Then clogged both my throat and my nose

I created hundreds of sentences,
Prepared thousands of words,
And arranged millions of letters
But I can only say one compliment

Her gray-colored eyes are extremely rare
So gorgeous, it warms my night in the early winter
I wanted to see her eyes forever
But the reality, however
I won’t be looking at those eyes again
And I swear, her eyes are really gray. I met her yesterday in Tucson, but when I tried to approached her, it was a total failure
#eyes #love #romantic #her #romance
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228 · Jun 2019
Golden Mind, Diamond Eyes & Crystal Heart
FinkZ Jun 2019
Golden Mind, Diamond Eyes & Crystal Heart
Owns a pretty eyes but she can’t use it well without the help of lenses
Once she take off her glasses, a man won’t even blink as he can’t control all his senses
Deep inside her skull, she have a brain that could solve any problems that came upon
Her full name is a definition of a beautiful genius in my own opinion
She could easily boys fell in love when she laugh or when she slicks her hair back behind her ears
Her only weakness, is a sensitive heart that could make her eyes throw out gallons of tears
Not for Aurelia
#love #romantic #romance #depression #crush
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220 · Oct 2020
Failed Love Poetry
FinkZ Oct 2020
Failed Love Poetry
I stayed and I waited
Behind the curtains, under the blanket
Covered myself in melancholy
Then pour my heart with whiskey

I cried then I lied
The heart beats, but my soul died
Still asking questions
About the separation

Lord oh Lord, tell me what happened
Why does love only brings depression?
Lord oh Lord, hear my prayer
For I want the best for her
For all the unrequited love/break up/ left dead
#aurelia #love #depression #romantic #romance
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206 · Oct 2020
Another Day Another Night
FinkZ Oct 2020
Another Day Another Night
Another day another night
Under my thick skull there is a light
Roaming around my mind
Everyday day she shines
Like the lights fell from heaven
Ices starts to melt and break the depression
Another day another night

The sweet voice she used to sing
All her positive vibes and her caring
Saved me from the ocean tide
Heaven have created an Angel
Another day another night

Her coloured crown
And the soul behind the window
Never stopped amazed me
Dreamt of her around
On the night where the moonlight glows
Knocked me away from reality
Oh the times wasted to adore her beauty
She is the definition of beauty
#aurelia #love #romantic #romance #lover
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195 · Dec 2018
Shook The Floor
FinkZ Dec 2018
Shook The Floor
The way she danced amazed me to my very soul
Stopped me from breathing when she shook the floor
My heart beats starts to increased it's tempo, about to lost it's control
The way she danced, nobody can resist to look or ignore

The ways she moved her arms
The ways she put her feet
The ways she swung her hips
The ways she puts her emotions all over her body
Cannot be written in just one poetry
Because her movements killed the muscle of my lips
As she danced following the beats
I could see nothing but her charms

Her sweat drops from her chin
The breath she took, indicates that it was exhausting
But she kept on dancing and dancing
Without notice the floor was shaking
And my soul was trembling
As she danced like an angel flapped their wings
She dances like there is no tomorrow
#love #romantic #romance #dance
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186 · Sep 2018
Anxiety
FinkZ Sep 2018
Anxiety
My heart were covered in fear
To see the future
That stands in front of my eyes

My vision is clear
To face a possible failure
But I have to try

Or maybe
A chance of winning
I don't know the result will be
But I'm scared, that is my feelings
I have an upcoming test. This is one of the way to release my fear
#depression #fear #scared #test
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184 · Dec 2018
Best Place To Live
FinkZ Dec 2018
Best Place To Live
I live in the cloudy dreams
Where it covered my vision
From seeing these bitter world

My imagination
Is the land where nobody
Can disturb me
#imagination #dreams
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145 · Oct 2020
Just His Chandelier
FinkZ Oct 2020
Just His Chandelier
He took my body to the desert
While my heart stays here
To guide him in his dark world
For I am Just His Chandelier

Punish me when I got bit by the crocs
Hit me when the opposite spoke
Pull me down when I nearly reached the clouds
Followed by his screams in my ears so loud

His love is my pain
His joy is my rain
My dreams putted aside
And my life lost it’s pride

End all my misery
By put myself in the history
I want to get lost in the world of mystery
To set my soul free
Abuse is a no no...... seriously....... don’t
#abuse #love #sad #pain #depression
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144 · Feb 2020
I love
FinkZ Feb 2020
I love
I love your flaws, curves and style
I love how sweet is your smile
I love your positive vibes
That gave me such an optimistic life
I love your beautiful mind
I love your eyes that shines
I love how your voice sounds
That carries away all the sorrows around

I love you, I will never deny it
I love you, you're the one I want to be with
5 years still counting
#love #romantic #romance #depression #sad #aurelia
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137 · Oct 2020
Don’t Hold Back
FinkZ Oct 2020
Don’t Hold Back
Don’t hold back and never will
Take your bicycle and ride through the rain
Don’t mind about the puddles and enjoy the thrill
Ride like you will never ride again

Don’t hold back and don’t quit
Ask that attractive person their numbers
Don’t think about what will happen, just do it
Feel your heartbeat, enjoy it, because rejection doesn’t matter

Don’t hold back and don’t overthink
Dance in public to your favorite music
Catch your breath and sing
Move your body until your legs weak

Don’t hold back and share the happiness
Offer everybody a free hug
It cost nothing and might safe someone from darkness
Give them compliment and wish them good luck
Do it Do it Do It DO IT
#happiness #love #share #happy #free
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