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21h · 20
i hope you
Eternity 21h
I thought you cared
About the gifts
I so lovingly crafted and bought
Only for them to be thrown out
Trashed

I thought you cared
About the compliments
As I gave you them
Never stopping the flow
No matter what you did

I thought you cared
About the weekends
We spent
Hand in hand
Before the morning sun

I thought you cared
About me
But it was all fake
All those days
All those words
All those gifts
Were they a joke to you?
I guess ill never know
21h · 15
life of me
Eternity 21h
!! DISCLAIMER !!
I am not trying to be sexist, homophobic, or racist through this poem. This poem might come off as offensive, or something else, but it is not intended to be this way. I am just sharing my feelings through poetry, and even I was scared to post my own true feelings through poetry. If this poem needs to be taken down, I will do so. If that happens, I will probably post my poetry elsewhere or keep it to myself. Thanks!
!! DISCLAIMER !!

This world we live in
Is confusing to say the least
Why have we changed so much?
Why don’t we stay the same?

Sometime last week
I was shouted at
By a girl
Saying I would never understand her pain
Saying that I
A straight white male
Was so fortunate
And I was offended
But in some ways
It is true

I understand
That my kin
Did unspeakable
Disgusting
Horrible
Things to you
And I know that some of them still happen today
But why is it my fault?
What did I do to you?

You say I have privilege
But what privilege do I have
When must I creep on every word I say?
Every action I take?
Every poem I write?

But before I go on
I want to give sorry
A sorry that my ancestors never could
Even if It doesn’t mean a lot
I still hope it helps

I feel like a circus
I have to entertain the crowd
One wrong move
And I get boos
Too showy off?
And I get boos
So I learn to keep up my guard
Never let my feelings out
Never let my true thoughts go

And to the girl last week
Who shouted at me
Just remember
If the world is against you
It is most definitely
Against me
please dont flag me
this is a cry for help
i cannot control my fear
i cannot control the sickness
that loves me so dear
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this is a cry for friends
people that care
people that really care
they are my dividends
they keep me sane
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this is a cry for someone
someone that feels like me
someone that feels me
someone that likes me
"@^&_+}{":>~!#$~~~$%^&
this is a cry for love
i need you
ill treat you like a dove
you can take the sadness out of me
and ill be back again
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sigmaa
1d · 26
i'm not
i'm not lazy
i play sports
i do things
i promise you
i'm not lazy

i'm not stupid
i have good grades
i study my subjects
i promise you
i'm not stupid

i'm not a freak
i don't know why
but i promise you
i'm not a freak

i'm not insane
i'm not insane
i promise you
i'm not insane
2d · 20
untitled
today
my mother
asked me to try on a shirt
and i said sure
so she said
"take your shirt off"
and i stopped
"will you leave?"
i asked politely, hoping she wouldn't suspect
she bobbed her head
side to side
the universal sign
NO

she saw the red scars on my stomach
the scratches i cut
deep
but not in my skin
she made them deeper
she pretended like they weren't there
but they were
blood red scars
killing me slowly

and i'm shaking
shaking because i dont want to be a ******
i swear mom
i'm not
just help me
please
2d · 39
life
age 1
i cried
we all cried

age 2
i crawled
i cried
we all cried

age 3
i read
i crawled
i cried
we all cried

age 4
i drew
i read
i waddled
i cried
we all cried

age 5
i talked
i drew
i read
i walked
i laughed
i went to school
i cried
we all cried

age 6
i went to kindergarted
i shouted
i talked
i drew
i read
i walked
i laughed
i cried
we all cried

age 7
i played videogames
i made friends
i went to school
i shouted
i talked
i drew
i read
i ran
i walked
i ate
i laughed
i cried
we all cried

age 8
i went outside
i played sports
i watched movies
i played videogames
i made friends
i went to school
i shouted
i talked
i drew
i read
i ran
i walked
i ate
i laughed
i cried
we all cried

age 12
i cried
we all cried

age 13
im still crying
but you never did
none of you
ever cared
i skipped ages 9-11 becayse yeah
2d · 19
elixir
elixir in a bottle
so that i can remodel
all the holes in my brain
elixir in a needle
so that i may wheedle
my brain
into working
again
if you know you know
2d · 197
asylum
scratch on the wall
scream in the halls
this is an asylum
revile him
beguile him
let me out
please
my mind
2d · 18
crazy men II
the crazy men
they came again
but this night
it was different
the crazy men
they came again
but tonight
i wasn't free
my dreamsss
2d · 20
hoodie
my favorite hoodie
the biggest one
hide my body
and the pain all gone
2d · 35
777
777
just a dollar
and you can play
deposit a coin
and be on your way
gamble your life away
2d · 13
food & weight
in the silence, shadows loom, i grapple with my private doom. food, my solace, my despair, calls to me from everywhere.

each morsel, a fleeting balm, in the chaos, a moment's calm. yet beneath the comfort, a plea, a desire to finally be free.

mirror, mirror, reflecting pain, a story written, etched in shame. i seek release, a lighter frame, but all i find is more of the same.

craving’s hold, so tight, so deep, in the lonely hours, i weep. to resist, to rise above, to find strength where there’s none.

each bite a secret, buried low, a struggle only i know. wishing for control, for peace, for this torment to finally cease.

for in this cycle, i find my plight, day turns to night, and night to day. yet somewhere, hope feels far away, a distant dream, fading gray.
this is a world that is not ours
mother earth
she gave us life
but even in our early stages
greed overtook us
she ate the apple
she gained the knowledge
but the damage was done

if eve never ate the apple
we wouldn't be where we are today
but
i eve never ate the apple
we wouldn't be where we are today
in this world that is not ours

all we do is take
we never give back
just remember
this is a world that is not ours

in the couple years we have left
before we crumble
to the ground
we need to give
we can still undo
some
of the damage that has been done
in this world that is not ours
please dont litter
6d · 51
1
1
one
is a number
just above zero
sometimes
used to refer
to me
my looks
my personality
but when i was one
i didnt care
about the little things
i guess
i am just truly a one
numberss
6d · 66
horrors
in the dead of night, shadows whisper and crawl, voices slither from the deep, and a chill wraps tight, stealing breath as silent screams signal the unseen.

beneath the moon's ghastly gleam, figures twist and turn, their hollow eyes, empty and wide, draw you closer to the edge. the wind wails a mournful song, carrying the weight of something unseen, lost souls ensnared in endless night, trapped by shadows, void of light.

footsteps echo, unheard yet there, in a house where silence lives. doors groan open, whispers hiss, through empty halls, a phantom kiss. a mirror cracked with tales untold reflects a gaze so cold, spirits bound to shadow's grasp, forever trapped in night's dark clasp.

in the attic, shadows crawl, a rocking chair sways to the call, though no one sits, it rocks alone, a chilling wraith, all skin and bone. midnight tolls the witching hour, darkness gathers all its power, from the abyss, shadows rise, claiming their prey with lifeless eyes.

heed this warning, if you dare, beware the night and what stares there, for in the dark, the spirits prowl, seeking souls, their mournful howl.
horrors
6d · 39
lost love
in the whispers of a moonlit night, where shadows cast a fragile light, love, a dirge of sorrow played, in hearts once close, now torn and frayed.

it’s in the touch of ghostly hands, in the silence where the void expands, a bond once strong, now shattered, a garden of dreams long scattered.

love fades with the morning sun, in races lost, battles never won, it’s the anchor in life's storms, a place where cold despair forms.

it’s the laughter that echoes hollow, in memories that leave a shadow, a promise broken, dreams now lost, in every breath, love bears its cost.

it’s the strength in times of anguish, a refuge where hopes all vanish, a silent vow, forever untrue, a dimming light in all we do.

in every heartbeat, every sigh, in every tear we might cry, love, once bright, now void of light, guides us through an endless night.

in moments dark and deeply forlorn, where once bright love has now withdrawn, the warmth of touch fades to cold, and whispered secrets go untold.

in every corner of the mind, echoes of love’s past bind, a hollow space where joy once lay, now a haunting, endless grey.

the void within grows with time, a silent chime, a mournful rhyme, in the wake of love’s cruel end, where broken hearts can never mend.

each sunrise brings a hollow ache, a reminder of the love at stake, a phantom limb of what once was, in the shadow of love’s lost cause.

as days turn into nights so bleak, with every tear that wets the cheek, love’s memory, a painful shard, embedded deep, forever scarred.
this was hard to write
6d · 57
only child
i wish i was an only child
but sometimes i dont
my sister
she shares
she loves
she laughs
but all i respond with is a hit
a yell
a scream
all i am is mean
and sometimes i wish
she was an only child
love your siblings
6d · 175
crush
she loves me
she loves me not
i feel giddy
i feel love
is it real this time?
i wonder
will i be lied to?
will i be insulted?
punched?
kicked?
cut?
yelled at?
called out?
made fun of?
laughed at?
will you never feel the same way i do?
because when i cried
you didnt
and when i got knocked down
you didnt
and when i died
you didnt
and i wonder
if i should love you at all
third times the charm
6d · 71
fire
the fire in your eyes
the fire in your heart
you strive
to do good
the fire in your eyes
the fire in your heart
7d · 301
crazy men
the crazy men
they carry me away
up and over
around a bend
and then back again
the crazy men
they carry me away
and i finally feel free
this is a recurring dream
Nov 8 · 94
love
Eternity Nov 8
love
is a silly little thing
it brings people together
it pushes them part
and i think
i dont need love
it is a silly little thing
but why do i crave it
yes i crave it so
i wish upon a star
to look apon my lover
in upon the char
i feel that i might hover
with the love
from a lover

oh love
why do you come to me
in my saddest moments
two breakups
two bursts of love
spiraling me
into the void
but not the void i write
but it is one that bites
it is the void of craving love

oh love
oh cupid
you shot my friends
and their love
is inexplicable
and i love
love
and if i forever
am left without a lover
i might just cut
my wrists
once again
my friend just got a girlfriend, and he told me not to tell anyone. i am so very happy for him, but i cant help feeling this way. poetry it is am i right
Nov 7 · 61
crayons
Eternity Nov 7
many colors
many drawings
i made when i was three
but they would break
just like my heart
why would you do this
to me

i rip up the drawings
on my wall
screaming
at the world
but those crayons
the many colors
will always be there
for me

i cry
i scream
i starve
i cut
but those crayons
stand untouched
waiting
and waiting
and waiting
for me
to play with them again
Eternity Nov 7
once crisp
vibrant
orange hue so bright
a half eaten carrot stick
in dim twilight.
nibbled edges
now softened
sweet
paused in its journey
not quite complete.

forgotten amidst chatter and tales
shared among friends
as laughter prevails
it sat on a plate
a small sacrifice,
to moments of joy
and life's simple spice

in the fridge's cold embrace it waits
a witness to time
and the closing of gates.
yet in its stillness
it holds the lore
of dinners past
and moments more

a humble root
with much to give
even half-eaten
it yearns to live
in soups or salads
it finds its place
a half eaten carrot stick
full of grace

and when it is eaten
it is no more
but its place is in my stomach
the vibrance no more
im doing a race wi/ my friend @Nobody1234 (Follow him! He's amazing) to get 200 views on trending with a random poem. Gemme there first!
Nov 7 · 83
depression
Eternity Nov 7
depression
is the man lying next to me in bed
he might not be real
but he is there
his cold fingers
creeping up my spine
ready to attack
at any moment

depression
is not liking the things you used to like
like the movies
videogames
or friends
i dont know why
why wont it end
will i end the depression
or will the depression end me

depression
is the lost love
for someone
that you like
but never have the feeling to ask them
when she dated another boy
it only made me sink deeper

depression
is the friends and family
who let you go
in your deepest moments
when i needed them the most

depression
is the knife
on my desk
covered in blood
waiting to strike
me again

depression
is the void
pulling you closer
when you dont know it
like a black hole
trying to swallow me up

depression
is you
its me
its in all of us
but i cant stop it
should i try
or die
that is the question

depression
is a world where i cannot be myself
i feel
like my body
is not good enough
my clothes
my shoes
my hair
my weight
it will never be enough

depression
is windowless room
no light
i cant get out
i cant get out
let me out
let me out

let me be myself
without the void
without the man
without all the little things
let my live my life

leave
me
alone
i am going through a depressive state right now.
Nov 7 · 130
spiders
Eternity Nov 7
here i sit
in my bed
the spiders creeping up my wall
i can hear them
they might bite me
but i do nothing at all
3am poems!
Nov 7 · 98
'friends'
Eternity Nov 7
what a wonderful friendship!
i thought to myself
i was only more than a babe when i met him
he was kind
he was funny
he was fun to play with
and he was my first
'friend'
as we grew older
i turned five
we started to talk
i remember our first conversation
we talked about dinosaurs
and i thought
what a wonderful
'friend'
and then i made new
'friends'
but they didnt last long
it wasnt long before
they found someone new
and left me to play
in the morning dew
wow
those are some wonderful
'friends'
and then we turned ten
he was still with me
through it all
through my hardships
through my pain
through my sadness
wow
what a wonderful
'friend'
and here we are today
i can see him as i am writing this poem
his first girlfriend
i cannot express how happy i am
for him
and he
is a true
friend.
there is one person i utterly and completely trust in this world. we met at 3 months in some 'baby class' or whatever
now i have known him for almost 13 years, and he has never let me down. i love you, gare bear.
Nov 6 · 101
save me
Eternity Nov 6
the void
is coming
i cannot stop it
it feels
like a tugging on my soul
i can feel the cold touch of the hands
creeping up my shoulder
trying to pull down
please save me
the world hurts
why do they hate me
why do they hate me
why am i like this
i hate myself
but i hate everyone around me
but i seem happy
what is wrong with me
what is wrong with me
why dont i get help
save me
save me
the cuts on my arms
that are not there
because i convince myself
that its ok
i dont need to hurt myself
but when im curled up against my wall
crying
because the sorrow is overwhelming
i dont know what is wrong with me
what is wrong with me
save me save me save me
please
please
please
please
the fog is coming
the void is coming
the world is too much
its too much
i hate it
i hate it
i hate everyone
i trust one person in this world
but even he will turn on me in my time of sadness
maybe he wont
but i never know
god
what is wrong with me
i feel like i should stop
but the words just spill out of me
like a bubbling can of soda pop
but why do i feel this way
everything in my life is ok
my family is loving
my 'friends'
my dog
my cat
save me
save me
save me
save me
save me
save
me
please
i hate myself
Nov 6 · 30
i wish
Eternity Nov 6
i wish
my poems were better
people would read them
and think
"what a good poet!"

i wish
that i was better
the best that i could be

i wish
i was cooler
my shoes
my clothes
my hair

i wish
that i was athletic
good at everything

but most of all
i wish
that she loved me
like i loved her

i wish
she didnt say no
and instead
said yes

i wish
i wasnt jealous of her
and the boys she liked

i wish
i wasnt sad
i wish
i wasnt sad

why am i sad
why am i sad
why am i sad

please love me
Nov 6 · 252
the blues
Eternity Nov 6
oh the blues
the blues
the blues
the blues

why do i
feel the blues
all that happened
was a little nick
why do i
feel the blues

the blues
the blues
the blues
they come
when you
are at your worst
but maybe
they aren't so bad


the blues
the blues
the blues
they help me through the worst
sometimes
the sad songs
make the void
smaller
the ineffable
blues
the blues

the blues

the blues.
Nov 6 · 138
The Orange Man
Eternity Nov 6
We felt like he needed to run our country.
But we were wrong.
My closest friends,
My family,
Had to run away,
Because of
The Orange Man.
And here i sit,
Watching my country burn,
Because of
The Orange Man.
He's going to ruin us all.

By tomorrow,
He'll sit in his throne,
Ruling with an iron fist,
Smiling an Orange grin,
The Orange Man,
The Orange Man.
He's going to ruin us all.
PLEASE DO NOT GIVE HATE
When I came into school this morning, i had already found out that 3 of my friends were moving to Canada. When i received the phone call that 2 of my family members had to move as well, i broke down into tears.
I'm deeply sorry to all of them.

— The End —