i'm on my knees
staring at my hands
stained red
like the sunset behind me
i look around
at the damage i have done
and i cry
i cry
tears of regret
i can hear your screams
in my head
why didn't i stop
why couldn't i?
you begged
you begged as i tore
apart your skin
piece by piece
sinking my nails
into your innocence
tugging at your mind
with incomparable force
my eyes were not veiled
my heart was
i saw the flashes of fear in your eyes
the disappointment
the pain
i saw
i did not care
i did not stop
and now i'm sitting here
your body lays somewhere behind me
your eyes are lifeless
your hands still
i sit here
staring at my bloodied hands
and cry
but these tears
cannot drown out the past
**these tears
cannot bring you back
but last night we fell apart & broke to pieces. our love was in the hall, all packed in boxes & i saw what it was that i had done to you. i was wrong.