God. How am I still not okay?

God. It's been so long.

God. I'm so tired of life right now.

God. What happened to me?

I was such a nice kid.
I was calm all the time.
Mature for my age,
Little but so lively.

I was so helpful.
So loyal.
I always supported my trust.
But I never really spoke my mind.

I was shy.
I was small.
I never stood up for my feelings
I never stood up for myself.

And now I'm older.
I realize I don't need support.
I need myself.
I need confidence.

Speaking your mind is not wrong.
Standing up for your feelings isn't rude.
Standing up for yourself isn't mean.
Saying what you feel doesn't make you imperfect.

No one's perfect. Not even them.
The ones you hate for being so amazing.
Maybe she has anxiety.
Maybe his mom is alcoholic.

No one has a perfect life.
There's not one perfect family in the world.
There is not a person in the world who's perfect.
There's not a person who doesn't have one bit of strife.

But just because you aren't perfect.
Doesn't make you less worth it.
You're amazing.
You're still charming, kind, and strong.

You're just more experienced.
You just understand some more things now.

And maybe, just maybe,
You just aren't as shy anymore.

Tick-tock, the time is near
So I tell this, please do not fear
Tick-tock, He's coming soon
One starry night with the bright round moon

Our faults, we needed to confess
Obey every single thing he says
The loathing in our hearts to stop
With the blood of violence, in its last drop

The Light is there, the Light is near.
Would you sacrifice the things you hold dear,
Just to grasp that Hope from afar
And to forget the past that brought that scar?

"To be rescued, or to keep on drowning?"
A question that bothers every human being
So wait on, and be watchful
The time will come for those who are faithful...

Tick-tock, the time is near
So I tell this, please do not fear
The time will come when all are done,
'Tis the arrival of the One.

If

I believe that a word paints a thousand pictures.
     making you feel,
     if not many things,
     at least something

Believe that a word paints a thousand pictures.
     it is more than it seems
     when said
     more powerful than it looks like
     when written

A word paints a thousand pictures.
     helping you feel,
     envision,
     creating something
     this world has never seen

                                      .....or felt.

but i did try, didn't i?
i did try to forget sadness
to be happy all along
to erase every memory of pain
and every single hate
i struggled my way out
out of the abyss
after finally breaking to pieces
but nobody was there
i couldn't feel anyone's presence
just a bunch of scrutinizing stares
far from the world where i was
so i stood up
put on a smile
but no
it was all too perfect
all too good to be true
all pretentious
more bullets would come
and break me once more
since everything was a facade
i easily shattered
and the mask fell down

I guess you're feeling curious
As if it isn't obvious
Now I give you a chance to guess
What we need to confess

I'm guessing you already know who wrote this
It isn't something you'll miss
But if you don't know,
Please think harder, I'm not a foe

Firstly, what we want from you isn't just trust
It is friendship that won't easily rust
For if you knew the truth better,
We'll all need this together

Colors are essential to the eyes
From light, you see the truth that lies
Though in a person's heart,
If you'll look closely, you'll see a color that defines their art

There has been a problem in this generation
Something people try to fix through action
An impossible mission we can't get through
Or could this be really true?

Something's coming really soon
That's why we should reflect like the moon
For even in the dark,
Through our source, will we spark

Now I don't know how you'll react
Once you know everything about the fact
Will you know the worth of all this?
Or will you just let it miss?

Maybe you'll give an effort, maybe not
But I know you will, coz you sought
So if your curiosity led you to something,
Approach me and tell me what you're thinking

Now I'm gonna ask you something:
Will you accept the challenge even though you know nothing?
Your inquisitiveness amazes me, I give you that
But remember, curiosity killed the cat.


Signed by: The color of courage 14/09/13