Belladonna

Jul 2015

its gonna make sense

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i want to write
a happy poem
but
the ink of this pen
is color gray
and blue*

©IGMS

#broken #sad #hurt #blue #gray

Belladonna Jul 2015

Oh these sweet subtle bullets
Pouring down from the sooty skies
Hitting me with every beautiful memory
Memories stashed deep inside. resurfaced.
Tearing the old gashes sewn shut

Our Passion like the thunder
Your velvety breath like this breeze..
Every touch like these drops, making me fragile
More than ever...
Our union, as pure as this newly washed earth..
But it was, it isn't anymore...
N I am being cut, torn apart from the pain.
Ripped and broken...

And then the calm returns
The rains go away, leaving me undone
Blood drained, limp and weak.
Scars, old and new.
Lost, without You.

When soft raindrops, become knives to your injured soul, Memories are revived unintentionally.

#love #broken #sad #depression #life #girl #lost #rain #thought #memory

Belladonna Jul 2015

A Little More ?

Lost on those lonely streets
You cried for me.
You kept calling my name
With all Your love...

You were tired, I know
But You gave up a bit too soon.
Wish You had waited a little more
Baby, I was just around the corner.

When fate decides to hurt you a little more than the usual.

#love #sad #life #pain #thought #separation #lovers #desperation #couple #dilemma

Belladonna Jul 2015

A Failure's Prayer

Me prays to thee, Oh Lord
To shine your light upon me
'Cause its been dark in here for so long

I wonder how the sun rays feel like ?
The cold has chilled me to my rotted bones

I've forgotten how the warmth of joy feels like
This endless failiure has wounded me to my core..
Let me taste success for once ?

Grant me the fruits I have laboured for
Bring me the mirth I have dreamed of
Shower Your Blessings upon me, once ?
I pray to thee, Oh Lord.. with my heart and soul
All yours.

For When all hopes die, all doors close.... Only Your Saviour can pour mercy on You.

#dream #sad #depression #prayer #god #failure #desperation #success #mercy

Jul 2015

A Watoot

i died and lived with a burnt heart

the heart i drew on the sand by the beach got washed away by the sea- just like how easily you threw away our memories together

sorry sorry sorry i cannot lose you

#memories #i #and #you #me #am #sorry

Jul 2015

Riot

we still call it love

catch me before i retrace my steps
start reading between the lines
hold me before i realize your arms
are not safe and warm like i thought
tell me you love me
like you love me
before i realize those words mean nothing to you but
nevertheless
nevertheless...

we still call it love
though you never made me feel like enough
and the truth is i'm over it
lying my way through this
she still calls it love
though pain is more welcome than us
and she never got over it
because that's just the way it is.

but i can't call it love
because i need to feel like enough
and i'm done
i'm over it
lying my way through this
and i finally see
that pain is more welcome than me
and i can't control any of it
and thats just the way i live
*and i'm done... i'm over it.

Jul 2015

TYRAN

Cold Night

It's a cold, cold world.
Better be careful, little girl.
The earth will swallow you in whole.
Even in the comfort of your home.
Only the strong survive.
So where do people like me reside?
Starving for greatness in my purpose.
Cold night breaks me down to consider if it's worth it.
There's a demon inside to tell me otherwise.
Want to feel special. Want to feel alive.
Is there really a light?
Or have I been tricked by the illusion of life?
The fights in my mind of good and evil.
What to believe is not that simple.
Eyes sewn shut by the devil.
Suddenly my dreams are in trouble.
Is there really a light?
In the deep of night, out of sight.

A late night can drive you crazy. A poem dedicated to when all falls down.

#depression #life #dark #night #cold #child #mysterious #indigo #thinker #virgo