She's got cool aid in her veins
Neon pouring through the rain
She's a dream I wish I had
A disease I'd rather spread
I've been craving her since the 80's
Like a cowboy gone******* crazy
Climb inside my head, Alison
Let me be your wonderland instead
All these flashing lights
Dancing off your skin
Neon pouring through the rain
She's got cool aid in her veins

Whirlpool of insanity
the beast stands coy
bound to humanity
A sadist and her toy
Fear its brutality

Our fists churn like
tides of a blood-lusted sea
Saliva soaked spite
rhapsodizing over gluttony

It's never enough
we wan't it all
The world we corrupt
a sadist and her rag doll
Matriarch of the puppets

I'm losing my mind one
misplaced thought at a time.
The negativity of endless possibilities
surround me like a crowd of zombies
foaming at the mouth with doubt...
as if I ran out.
A misguided soul, fresh outa high school,
too young to know about the real world
and all the people in it
who'd rather see you out than in it.
I must of missed the memo
back when my parents
were still trying to keep things simple.
That was me five years ago, full of hope,
wanting more outa life than a 5 x 5 cubicle.
Time flies when you're contemplating suicide behind fake smiles and white lies -
hollow hellos and forever goodbyes.
Days turn to faces you don't wanna meet,
so you try to run 'n' hide, but can never
get more than a mile before realizing
you're still trapped inside your own mind.
I think of you a lot and all the promises
we made when things got rough;
the **** we said to each other
when we were truly free from thought.
Raw heart beats and ice cream
going together like
peanut butter and jelly...
I used to love you... I used to love me.
It's funny how life can change
due to a simple exchange,
an insignificant display of atoms
rearranging their state
to escape the pain of decay;
not knowing tomorrow
might just be a better day.
I stumble over these letters
like they were I's
connected at the hip
which formed a ladder
and no matter how high I climb them,
all I ever seem to do is blabber.
I can't help feeling like i'm going about this the wrong way.
Am I the molecule out of place
or the simple exchange?

I hope you fall in love with
my words; dancing to the curve
of the petals I pluck from the air.
So I can hold you to them like a gun.
Placing the bitter metal against
your skin, freeing you from the
world they've been dying
to keep you within.

Stop pretending
you're something you're not.
You're treading on flesh you'll never touch.
You're playing with words
at your own expense.
This pen can't even puncture the surface.
What makes you think
they'll respect the scratches it left?
Quit before it's too late.
Give up and call it fate.
You were never destined for greatness.

I'm eating tiny stars
with planets in orbit
hoping to absorb any
life that may be dormant
Like a flare at night,
the black painted sky
of the sea inside my mind
shines, if only for the moment
If only for a moment
the neurons fire
and I feel alive
The neurons fire
I feel alive
The neurons fire
and I am alive
If only for the moment

Punching mirrors
to breach the barrier
between you and me

Show me that
black hole heart, friend
let it consume us

Chew through
the lines you've drawn
with my hand

This predates catastrophe
our faceless meditation
taste like apple seeds

I'm losing touch,
but I like the rush
we should ****

Gridlocked teeth keep gritting
Blistered cheeks keep splitting
A ******* freak who keeps spinning
I think they think I'm thinking
My dreams are drowning
I think they think I'm quitting
Ice Giants wage war
My hands are losing
Mythical beings try science
My nerves are bruising
If my life was a string
Their theory would be confusing

If only I could travel
as fast as the data
that connects us
Maybe then the distance
wouldn't seem too far

If only I could rearrange
the matter inside our star
I'd plot you out a message
that could be read from any altitude

Then maybe you'd understand
what it is I'm trying to say to you
If only - If only

Your head - the wave
and a pebble of sense
tripped across the surface
'til it found center
resting upon your gaze.
Wax eyes enslaved
by lesser words grew
and grew onto the shore
where tides brought forth
the only truth.

Empty your heart
of its heaviest clay,
so I may build a road
that'll carry us away.

The days stuck together
like dewy tar against velvet skin
wearing through to my shadow
where life could have been

Months became monsters
half glazed bearing teeth
chewing through to my arms
where once I could reach

I wore a smile
crafted from negligence
A paper-mache heart
burning at both ends
You asked of the things
that make me tick
to which I replied
The simplicity of it

I was scattered
to the farthest reaching stars
Thoughts on thoughts
stacked like library halls
till the many pages formed a face
and with growing thrist
swallowed me down
into the endless night
of a dying black hole
I had lost all self control