If I appear to you as happy
Then I've put on another successful show
I have mastered the art of masking
Masking all of my weaknesses and flaws

If you can confide in me your secrets
Then I've gained the security of your heart
I've mastered the art of trusting
Trusting in myself, in you to understand

I hope you will understand

The reason I can't always talk at night
The reason I wear long clothing in the summer
The reason I can't always be touched in certain places
No! It's not you baby , It's me

My skin is just sensitive right now

Wait for me to heal please
Then I'll be ready for the show again.
Then you can once again confide in me
I'll be back to service you once more.

Sometimes I forget that I'm needed.
I forget that I'm a part time therapist
I forget that I have people dependent on me
I even forget there is a me, until night fall

When everyone goes to sleep
When the messages stop
When there's no more people
When there's only…
me

That's when the world breaks down
My skeletons come out to play
The voices rush through my mind
My Hell is unleashed and I am alone.

Just me and the weapon of my choice
Sharp and ready
Ready to conquer my demons
Even if just for a night

My therapist is my scars
My performer is my blade
My volt is the blood shed
And no one knows them but me.

They don't know what I been feeling
What I'm still feeling
They are not aware of my trials and tribulations
They don't know I need help too

Don't fall for me
I'm not who you think I am
I'm only here temporarily
I'm only valuable as your friend

Don't say you love me
I'm not able to love you back
I'm just here for your pleasure
We may never be more than that

Listen to me
I'm not telling you this for my health
I've been here so many times
And this is what I had to tell myself

~Corona Harris~

I'm going to get up today!
"Lay your *** down, you ain't doing ****"
I wanna eat something sweet.
"You might want to stick to fruit and water, fat *** "
I should hang out with somebody.
"Nobody wanna be bothered with you. Go home"
I wish I could talk to somebody but
"No-one needs to know, will understand, or gives af"
Maybe I should try today eventhough
"I'm dumb asf and I'm going to fail anyway"
There's people that care about me but
"If I die , life will go on and the world keeps turning"
I should just stick to being by myself
"I'll just end up hurting someone or hurt"
**** this I'm done with love
"Took me long enough , love been done with me"
Why am i even still here
"I ain't **** anyway. I ain't gone be **** either"
Life just not worth getting up for
"I should just sleep and never wake"
**** it. One good cut is all I need.
"**** put the blade up! your no fun If your dead"
I guess I'll just fake a smile for the day.

~Corona Harris~

"Baby I love you" No you don't love is just a illusion
"No fr, I truly love you" You love the feeling I give you,  you love the image you percieve me as, You DO NOT LOVE me.
"You starting to hurt my feelings" It's better to have your heart scratched now instead of torn later.
"Wow, do you even care about me" Do you even care about yourself?  I'm trying to help you.  **** Save You.
"This is why I don't trust people now" I never asked for your trust, I never asked for your time.
"Your just like the others Corona" If I was like the others I'd let you keep falling for what you can't have.
"****** *******" I know I am,  that's why I'm staying single.

        ~ Corona Harris ~

I ain't yours and you ain't mine
But nobody else will touch you
I ain't yours and you ain't mine
But nobody else will kiss you
I ain't yours and you ain't mine
But I'm the only one talking to you
I ain't yours and you ain't mine
But let a *** speak of you
I ain't yours and you ain't mine
I will never say  "I love you"

    ~Corona Harris~

I am not a weakling
I am a fighter
Those are not bruises
Those are trials
These are not cuts
They're battle wounds
That's not blood
It's freedom
I'm a Freedom Fighter


  ~Corona Harris~

The prettiest faces hide the ugliest secrets
I know this for facts because I'm always asked to keep it
The prettiest mouths say the most terrible things
I know this for facts because my ears heard it all
The prettiest eyes seen the worst sights
I know this for facts because I've had to close them
The prettiest bodies has the most scars
I know this for facts because I've had to cover them
The prettiest minds have the darkest thoughts
I know this for facts because I've had to erase them
       ~Corona Harris~