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I was only 9 years old. I pray to Shrek every night, thanking him for the life I’ve been given. “Shrek is love” I say, “Shrek is life." My dad hears me and calls me a ****** I knew he was just jealous of my devotion to Shrek. I called him a **** He hits me and sends me to sleep. I'm crying now and my face hurts. I lay in bed, really cold. I feel something warm... It's Shrek! I was so happy. He whispers in my ear "This is my swamp." He grabs me with his ogre hands, and puts me on my hands and knees. I'm ready. I spread my *** cheeks for Shrek. He penetrates my ******** It hurts so much, but I do it for Shrek. I can feel my **** tearing and eyes watering. I want to please Shrek. He roars a mighty roar as he fills my **** with his love. My dad walks in. Shrek looks him straight in the eye and says, "It's all ogre now." Shrek leaves through my window. Shrek is love. Shrek is life.
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Apr 2, 2015
Apr 2, 2015 at 6:41 PM UTC
shrek is love, shrek is life
We've all been called names. Fighting every single game. With nothing to gain. Today I heard the word "gay".. Of course it was being used in the wrong way.. I also heard ****** What gives you the right to say that? I heard multiple people call themselves fat.. What sense is that? Do you honestly think that? You are truly beautiful the way you are. And don't let anyone tell you that you aren't. **** you society.
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Apr 22, 2014
Apr 22, 2014 at 11:22 PM UTC
society; a ****** up place
Whatever happened to bisexuality? You either choose one or the other. Well, **** you. I exist. Feminicity and masculinity are partners in crime. I guess I'm two in one. I'm not better than you, but I'm sure better than most. In the end though, I love you. Even if the hate builds up,  I ******* love you.
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Oct 27, 2014
Oct 27, 2014 at 3:33 AM UTC
******
You tell us to Spread The Word To End The Word But you mean the word ******** And you think it's mean Because of Mental retardation And how it hurts Their feelings. Stop that word. I won't mind. Just don't turn around And call Him A ******
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Apr 21, 2013
Apr 21, 2013 at 9:43 PM UTC
******
I am not at fault. I didn't do anything wrong. Why am I being treated as though I did? Stop it with the pity and the shame. I am not ashamed. I don't need pity. Especially not yours. Life is messed up, but I am not. One in five. one in five. ONE IN FIVE One in five LGBTQ+ people have been mistreated because of their ****** orientation. It's not that hard to find these statistics. Look it up. Look up anything about LGBTQ+ people and I'm sure you'll find mistreatment. I'm sure you'll find harm. I'm sure you'll find that they harm themselves. Because they feel at fault. It's not their fault that they feel a common emotion towards another person you, selfish, close-minded.. mmm. No. Four in five. four in five. FOUR IN FIVE Don't talk about it. The way they were mistreated. If you don't really get that If you can't  really fathom that Almost all of them Almost every single one of these people that have been mistreated don't even talk about it they don't reach out they don't tell anyone NEARLY HALF of LGBTQ+ people in school are bullied Are mistreated Are hurt Are mocked Are called names *** ****** *** In school. Yeah, bullying happens all the time over stupid **** All the time. Wearing glasses, looking different, being gay. I get it. It happens. Whatever. Nearly half. "72 countries criminalise same-sex relationships ... The death penalty is either ‘allowed’, or evidence of its existence occurs, in 8 countries In more than half the world, LGBT people may not be protected from discrimination by workplace law Most governments deny trans people the right to legally change their name and gender from those that were assigned to them at birth Between 2008 and 2014, there were 1,612 trans people were murdered across 62 countries - equivalent to a killing every two days A quarter of the world’s population believes that being LGBT should be a crime" Oh hey, just some statistics. Isn't that interesting. Isn't it cool to take a step back and check that out. That's pretty crazy huh? Pretty outrageous. But, you know, maybe if you weren't such a *** I did nothing wrong. I tried to stop it. I tried. But how can you stop Doing What Is Natural. People are hurting People are dying People are being killed People are killing themselves Stop it with the pity and the shame. We are not to blame.
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Mar 13, 2018
Mar 13, 2018 at 2:06 PM UTC
Shame on
I am not at fault. I didn't do anything wrong. Why am I being treated as though I did? Stop it with the pity and the shame. I am not ashamed. I don't need pity. Especially not yours. Life is messed up, but I am not. One in five. one in five. ONE IN FIVE One in five LGBTQ+ people have been mistreated because of their ****** orientation. It's not that hard to find these statistics. Look it up. Look up anything about LGBTQ+ people and I'm sure you'll find mistreatment. I'm sure you'll find harm. I'm sure you'll find that they harm themselves. Because they feel at fault. It's not their fault that they feel a common emotion towards another person you, selfish, close-minded.. mmm. No. Four in five. four in five. FOUR IN FIVE Don't talk about it. The way they were mistreated. If you don't really get that If you can't  really fathom that Almost all of them Almost every single one of these people that have been mistreated don't even talk about it they don't reach out they don't tell anyone NEARLY HALF of LGBTQ+ people in school are bullied Are mistreated Are hurt Are mocked Are called names *** ****** *** In school. Yeah, bullying happens all the time over stupid **** All the time. Wearing glasses, looking different, being gay. I get it. It happens. Whatever. Nearly half. "72 countries criminalise same-sex relationships ... The death penalty is either ‘allowed’, or evidence of its existence occurs, in 8 countries In more than half the world, LGBT people may not be protected from discrimination by workplace law Most governments deny trans people the right to legally change their name and gender from those that were assigned to them at birth Between 2008 and 2014, there were 1,612 trans people were murdered across 62 countries - equivalent to a killing every two days A quarter of the world’s population believes that being LGBT should be a crime" Oh hey, just some statistics. Isn't that interesting. Isn't it cool to take a step back and check that out. That's pretty crazy huh? Pretty outrageous. But, you know, maybe if you weren't such a *** I did nothing wrong. I tried to stop it. I tried. But how can you stop Doing What Is Natural. People are hurting People are dying People are being killed People are killing themselves Stop it with the pity and the shame. We are not to blame.
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****** A word I have heard a thousand times A thousand different ways But has always sounded the same, Like ignorance A word that has never left me feeling worthless Or unloved Just misunderstood Even when followed by being thrown into the bathroom stall of a Girl's gym  locker room Or by the few friends I had left helping me clean up my battered face and the hide the bruises I have always been proud of the term ****** because even though it was said to be offensive I was being acknowledged as me But when the word was spilled by the woman who once rocked me to sleep till I was no longer scared The woman who has always protected me It was then that all the pain I ever should have felt Took a hold of my heart and ran it up to my throat until the pain leaked from my eyes I was angry I was sad And I was scared Because I knew that word was always followed by violence And I didn't think that I would be able to walk with my head held high from this one My face turned red and my blood turned cold and I watched my father defend me Finally I stopped him and I looked at her And I said yes, but I'm your ******
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Sep 9, 2014
Sep 9, 2014 at 1:12 PM UTC
Misunderstood ******
the racist lesbian who once called me an uppity ****** who forgot where I came from just had a baby in West Virginia who will grow up without a father or any mother to support his escape from a hick-ass town if he even wanted so I can't laugh too hard and I say God Bless 'cause that's what they say where I was raised and if I walk around college calling that white trash it would only mean that she was right
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Apr 17, 2014
Apr 17, 2014 at 2:34 AM UTC
Intersectionality
Gender ****** truth pretender parents send her life defender he's a ****** slimy maggot feeling ragged bag and tag it hurting words spitting herds cheezy curds stupid nerds mental case dizzy space ugly face **** my race Time to kneel grab a feel scary tweel innocence steal Eat a steak garden rake veggie snake life forsake Not pretend we defend savior send the end
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Aug 31, 2018
Aug 31, 2018 at 11:58 AM UTC
Missed Understanding
[Intro: Honey ******* You ******* ******* stink Go take a ******* shower Schwag. Asian ******* [Verse 1: Honey ******* ****** I ain't got time for a stupid broad Cause bro I'm 'bout to beat a ***** and probably lose my job **** I'm a bubble Listen, ***** I tell you cool it off Cause acting smart'll get you deaded ***** I rule the spot Now, homie, I ain't ******* down to catch a charge, bro Now her body found the same place she had parked, bro. (Whoops! [x3]) I forgot my ******* ride for me Cause these ******* that drive for me Are these ******* flying for free I gain mine. There's a difference. You remember that Cause I'm always hungry for the **** that I ain't never had This here is baby food and be all like, ***** **** a snack! " See ****** who said I'm crap is asking me to hit 'em back ***** **** that! [Hook x2: Honey ******* Now, I ain't got time for ******** If I ain't getting mine, then that's ******** Why you all up in my face with this ******** Ew. ***** you smell like ******** [Verse 2: Honey ******* Oh, here I go. There they go in this here game again Now these ******* praying they gon' never hear my name again But look, I'm a stay around even although they acting like I can't I don't sleep at all cause it'll always be my time again That means I work hard, homie. I don't play around, dawg Better cut this ******** or your face'll meet the ground, dawg But after all, it's for the haters and the groupies, though Find me at the studio The smart ***** with a stupid flow **** delivery. Got fans who in the dance Now my enemies got plans They just searching for a chance **** friends cause I'm married to the music ***** cause I gained the world and die before I lose it So cool it [Hook x2: Honey ******* Now, I ain't got time for ******** If I ain't getting mine, then that's ******** Why you all up in my face with this ******** Ew. ***** you smell like ******** [Verse 3: Tyga] ***** back, back. Why your *** so flat? Tell your best friend I want that I don't pretend, ***** and I don't act Why you all up in my chat? Telling people that you know him If I lend you all on my back Criss-cross, you wiggedy-wack! (Aghh!) Duplicating my racks Introduce you to my life Yeah, my gold heavy metal You can't rock out on my level Yeah, yeah. That's a red Ferarri And I'm dancing with the devil ***** testing me, you get answers **** a ***** quick fast, like cancer. (Aghh!) (Well, well) Make a ***** rubbin money on my **** till it swell, swell And ya money, money shorter than a elf, elf And I keep cool J's like LL (Hell yeah) I don; t wanna start nuttin' ***** lemme finish All in a ***** net ***** mouth like a dentist (Dennis) Rodman. Come on, come on ***** is you with it, with it? Cause I ain't [Hook x2: Honey ******* Now, I ain't got time for ******** If I ain't getting mine, then that's ******** Why you all up in my face with this ******** Ew. ***** you smell like ********
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Nov 22, 2013
Nov 22, 2013 at 1:05 PM UTC
********
[Intro: Honey ******* You ******* ******* stink Go take a ******* shower Schwag. Asian ******* [Verse 1: Honey ******* ****** I ain't got time for a stupid broad Cause bro I'm 'bout to beat a ***** and probably lose my job **** I'm a bubble Listen, ***** I tell you cool it off Cause acting smart'll get you deaded ***** I rule the spot Now, homie, I ain't ******* down to catch a charge, bro Now her body found the same place she had parked, bro. (Whoops! [x3]) I forgot my ******* ride for me Cause these ******* that drive for me Are these ******* flying for free I gain mine. There's a difference. You remember that Cause I'm always hungry for the **** that I ain't never had This here is baby food and be all like, ***** **** a snack! " See ****** who said I'm crap is asking me to hit 'em back ***** **** that! [Hook x2: Honey ******* Now, I ain't got time for ******** If I ain't getting mine, then that's ******** Why you all up in my face with this ******** Ew. ***** you smell like ******** [Verse 2: Honey ******* Oh, here I go. There they go in this here game again Now these ******* praying they gon' never hear my name again But look, I'm a stay around even although they acting like I can't I don't sleep at all cause it'll always be my time again That means I work hard, homie. I don't play around, dawg Better cut this ******** or your face'll meet the ground, dawg But after all, it's for the haters and the groupies, though Find me at the studio The smart ***** with a stupid flow **** delivery. Got fans who in the dance Now my enemies got plans They just searching for a chance **** friends cause I'm married to the music ***** cause I gained the world and die before I lose it So cool it [Hook x2: Honey ******* Now, I ain't got time for ******** If I ain't getting mine, then that's ******** Why you all up in my face with this ******** Ew. ***** you smell like ******** [Verse 3: Tyga] ***** back, back. Why your *** so flat? Tell your best friend I want that I don't pretend, ***** and I don't act Why you all up in my chat? Telling people that you know him If I lend you all on my back Criss-cross, you wiggedy-wack! (Aghh!) Duplicating my racks Introduce you to my life Yeah, my gold heavy metal You can't rock out on my level Yeah, yeah. That's a red Ferarri And I'm dancing with the devil ***** testing me, you get answers **** a ***** quick fast, like cancer. (Aghh!) (Well, well) Make a ***** rubbin money on my **** till it swell, swell And ya money, money shorter than a elf, elf And I keep cool J's like LL (Hell yeah) I don; t wanna start nuttin' ***** lemme finish All in a ***** net ***** mouth like a dentist (Dennis) Rodman. Come on, come on ***** is you with it, with it? Cause I ain't [Hook x2: Honey ******* Now, I ain't got time for ******** If I ain't getting mine, then that's ******** Why you all up in my face with this ******** Ew. ***** you smell like ********
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When I was young They thought I was a girl My hair was curly A head full of whirls I grew up Happy and naïve Until others Said there was something wrong with me My hair was something that made me feel ashamed I was a curly haired ****** And it was my fault, I was to blame As I grew up, I learned about others About those who weren’t me My friends or my brothers Not everyone had good fathers and mothers They were hurt, too. Sometimes worse than me Broken hearts, homes, and trust, sadly. They were hurt by the ones they held closest Not some passerby or stranger The one that held them, raised them, and kept them free of danger Who would sing to them by their bunk bed Breathing lullabies, soft eyes, young soul to be fed They were now broken, forgetting what it was to be loved I learned it wasn’t my fault that they pushed Because they too were being shoved
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Feb 27, 2014
Feb 27, 2014 at 9:43 PM UTC
Curly Haired ******
An open letter To all the pieces of **** Who use gay as an insult. You really need to stop Pretending that you are better Than someone else Because you prefer to Put your **** in a different place. You really need to stop Pretending that being straight Makes you more worthwhile. You really need to stop Pretending that "no **** Is an acceptable thing to say Ever. You really need to stop Pretending that you're not afraid That a man will look at you The same way you look at women You really need to stop. Gay means happy A ****** is a bundle of sticks And you are homophobic.
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Apr 4, 2014
Apr 4, 2014 at 7:10 PM UTC
Gay
I was only nine years old, I loved Shrek so much. I pray to Shrek each night. "Shrek is love" I say, "Shrek is life." My dad hears me and calls me a ****** I knew he was just jealous of my devotion to Shrek. I called him a **** He hits me and sends me to sleep. I'm crying now and my face hurts. I lay in bed, really cold. I feel something warm... It's Shrek! I was so happy. He whispers in my ear "This is my swamp." He grabs me with his ogre hands, and puts me on my hands and knees. I'm ready. I spread my *** cheeks for Shrek. He penetrates my ******** It hurts so much, but I do it for Shrek. I can feel my **** tearing and eyes watering. I want to please Shrek. He roars a mighty roar as he fills my **** with his love. My dad walks in. Shrek looks him straight in the eye and says, "It's all ogre now." Shrek leaves through my window. Shrek is love. Shrek is life.
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Jun 2, 2014
Jun 2, 2014 at 6:47 AM UTC
Shrek is love
It was the watermelon diet, he said That's what killed me A lie as ripe as the freshest rind Listen to the man He was there at my deathbed Though he never cared for my diet It was the watermelon diet not some virus That consigned me to the Gods The watermelon diet Why now do they doubt my exotic pallet? They've turned a blind eye to everything else until now For months, I guzzled nothing but sweet watermelon Fat mounds of flesh between my greedy cheeks The sheer volume of water left me bloated Before I shed an immense amount of baggage What else could be to blame? Enough of your questions and on to the cremation We'll see whether watermelon burns immortal It began in Africa- no lie there And comes in seedless varieties I never planted mine Though I wasn't want for trying I can still taste the bitter juices as I lay here in my crypt An artful coroner smelt a rat Or a chance- to prove his mettle Never heard of any watermelon diet This is Palm Springs not Papa Nu Guinea A sample of tissue foiled our grand conspiracy Same thing that got Rock Hudson But they kept a straight face Kept to the story, mindful of my legacy I'm not just any ****** Takes something grand and elaborate to dispose of me An immigrant farmhand once told me “watermelon cure the AIDS” And I believed him At least that's what I'd have you believe End
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Oct 26, 2018
Oct 26, 2018 at 8:52 AM UTC
Watermelon Diet
I was in a public restroom at the mall takin' a leak in one of those urinals. There happened to be a TDH (tall dark and handsome) man standing next to me. And as we were peeing in unison, I leaned over, leaned back, Looked him in the eyes and said, "Nice **** ****** *Why is he looking at my **** Is he gay? Did he just call ME a ****** Is he confused about his sexuality? Why do I feel insecure about my **** all of a sudden? What just happened?* I finished peeing before he did, So I took my ***** self over to the sink and proceeded to wash my hands. It wasn't long before TDH was by my side. We were now washing our hands in unison and he looks over at me and says, "Nice hands, ****** *Is he hitting on me? Is he really gay? Do I really have nice hands? Does he want to touch them? Is he just ******* with me? I don't know what's happening but I like it =)* Turns out he wasn't gay... nor was I.   We both just happened to be in the business of belittling strangers With contradictory insults for no apparent reason. It was a good day.
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Nov 4, 2012
Nov 4, 2012 at 5:12 PM UTC
Nice **** ******
There's a contentious subsection Of the homosexual community That go in a different direction Hoping to find social immunity The word masculine Is the mask they're in To live life saccharine Wearing a plastic grin From the sensation Of over-compensation Actuating placation To differentiate From the effeminate They say they're separate But really they're just desperate To be accepted By their own dejectors To not be rejected They become defectors To avoid ridicule They stack their deck with nothing but physicality Their mind minuscule The albatross on their neck is a lack of personality To please those that compare them to ********** Internalizing their homophobia An infernal mighty cornucopia Creating an over abundance of rules One must follow to be a proper male But we should jump out of the pool If being miserable is what that entails The more genuine version we see The happier we all should be Then we might all be free But if I were to show glee Someone might call me a ****** And I don't think I could hack it When the rest of society backs it With an approval that is tacit So I convince myself I'm avoiding identity politics Using total discretion To make no impression But my friends and family would know that's not what I'm doing So why not tell them? I haw and I hem Because the underlying ghostly shame Is the true nature of this social game When you have the fame of the flame You're told to get in a lane of the same Erase my ******* sin With the title masculine There are practical reasons to hide it But how much time will be bided? Will my life be derided Until the evil are delighted?
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Jul 16, 2018
Jul 16, 2018 at 12:58 AM UTC
Masculine
There's a contentious subsection Of the homosexual community That go in a different direction Hoping to find social immunity The word masculine Is the mask they're in To live life saccharine Wearing a plastic grin From the sensation Of over-compensation Actuating placation To differentiate From the effeminate They say they're separate But really they're just desperate To be accepted By their own dejectors To not be rejected They become defectors To avoid ridicule They stack their deck with nothing but physicality Their mind minuscule The albatross on their neck is a lack of personality To please those that compare them to ********** Internalizing their homophobia An infernal mighty cornucopia Creating an over abundance of rules One must follow to be a proper male But we should jump out of the pool If being miserable is what that entails The more genuine version we see The happier we all should be Then we might all be free But if I were to show glee Someone might call me a ****** And I don't think I could hack it When the rest of society backs it With an approval that is tacit So I convince myself I'm avoiding identity politics Using total discretion To make no impression But my friends and family would know that's not what I'm doing So why not tell them? I haw and I hem Because the underlying ghostly shame Is the true nature of this social game When you have the fame of the flame You're told to get in a lane of the same Erase my ******* sin With the title masculine There are practical reasons to hide it But how much time will be bided? Will my life be derided Until the evil are delighted?
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I once had a lover that on the most ordinary of days Out shopping for underwear Looked at my reflection in the mirror and said I love the boy in you And I love the girl in you And everything in between Later they asked me what love is And I said I think that's what love is Seeing everything in between the reflection Seeing somebody clearer than they see themselves I said tell Me you love every piece of me The skin I shed The skin that hates this chest The “it's a boy” they never said The “I love yous” they never meant I've spent so much time trying to find the in between where there's no haircuts Or funny ways of dressing Or anything confusing about my chest I'll just keep choosing to ignore the way they say You're so beautiful In the same breath as potential As if it's a credential for my anatomy Instead tell me I'm the cutest boy you've ever had in your bed Tell me my body isn't woman it's just the wild Tell me flesh is nothing I'm made of light Tell me my light is beautiful Touch my soft Touch my belly button but not like they ever touched me Touch me like I'm the kind of soft that can turn hard A tin roof against the rain Beating a thunderstorms refrain into music They told me I have too much bark Too much bite I'm too pretty to fight So tell me instead I'm the softest pebble you've ever skipped across your body And ripples are born of my feathered fists and my hammering heart Tell me softness has no gender Tell me our body's never knew what gender meant I want to be gender bent over till it breaks And takes the freighttrain words of haters But don't you cringe under the jagged teeth of their stares **** my love into your body and hold it there Always write a poem in my body And use the words they spit at us But instead infuse them with a welcome song to tell my body it's found home Everything we do rhymes with ****** rhymes with **** rhymes with queer These labels belong to us The fear in these labels does not belong to us I'm here to witness you try to live in a body you call home without trying to run away I wish my body was made of clay so I could fit it into the box labeled “I love you no matter what” Will you love me no matter what If I want you to bend me over backwards until I break the reflection the mirror tries to make of me And find it's just glass Like my see through skin Try to see through my skin Tell me you see me I'll see every piece of you Soft Hard Apart Together Girl Boy But never in a box I'll take that box labeled “I'll love you no matter what” and I'll break it down Leave that truth around your bones Until you believe it can't break That truth will be our home and we can live in that between because that's where love is.
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Jan 22, 2016
Jan 22, 2016 at 8:52 PM UTC
In between
I once had a lover that on the most ordinary of days Out shopping for underwear Looked at my reflection in the mirror and said I love the boy in you And I love the girl in you And everything in between Later they asked me what love is And I said I think that's what love is Seeing everything in between the reflection Seeing somebody clearer than they see themselves I said tell Me you love every piece of me The skin I shed The skin that hates this chest The “it's a boy” they never said The “I love yous” they never meant I've spent so much time trying to find the in between where there's no haircuts Or funny ways of dressing Or anything confusing about my chest I'll just keep choosing to ignore the way they say You're so beautiful In the same breath as potential As if it's a credential for my anatomy Instead tell me I'm the cutest boy you've ever had in your bed Tell me my body isn't woman it's just the wild Tell me flesh is nothing I'm made of light Tell me my light is beautiful Touch my soft Touch my belly button but not like they ever touched me Touch me like I'm the kind of soft that can turn hard A tin roof against the rain Beating a thunderstorms refrain into music They told me I have too much bark Too much bite I'm too pretty to fight So tell me instead I'm the softest pebble you've ever skipped across your body And ripples are born of my feathered fists and my hammering heart Tell me softness has no gender Tell me our body's never knew what gender meant I want to be gender bent over till it breaks And takes the freighttrain words of haters But don't you cringe under the jagged teeth of their stares **** my love into your body and hold it there Always write a poem in my body And use the words they spit at us But instead infuse them with a welcome song to tell my body it's found home Everything we do rhymes with ****** rhymes with **** rhymes with queer These labels belong to us The fear in these labels does not belong to us I'm here to witness you try to live in a body you call home without trying to run away I wish my body was made of clay so I could fit it into the box labeled “I love you no matter what” Will you love me no matter what If I want you to bend me over backwards until I break the reflection the mirror tries to make of me And find it's just glass Like my see through skin Try to see through my skin Tell me you see me I'll see every piece of you Soft Hard Apart Together Girl Boy But never in a box I'll take that box labeled “I'll love you no matter what” and I'll break it down Leave that truth around your bones Until you believe it can't break That truth will be our home and we can live in that between because that's where love is.
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Oh, what a horrible night Definitely not late December back in '63 These are the Frankie valleys of my days Night is always black Night always comes back Night envelopes us in the abyss And makes us cherish light Heightening our senses To help us handle the unknown When my days are filled with stimulation The stillness of night sinks me Into quicksand mixed by The current of my mind Overflowing into the sands of time And reminds me Of the stillness of my eyes locked on you Or the stillness of my actions as you walk by Or the stillness of my heart when you call me a ****** My frustration boiled Night's black tar So I bottled it up Placed it in a syringe And medicated my love with darkness I worked my first job at the local Kroger's People would leave with everything they wanted And I'd push their empty carts back into the store The artificial lights of the street lamps Lacked warmth Their hypnotic buzz highlighted The stillness of night Making me wonder if there was any way I could be happy Similar to when activity would die down in rehab A pitiful wretch left to his faculties I'd stare out the window Into the concrete chasm And wonder if happiness could be found by someone like me Night continues Night confines Day comes And goes Night returns Night reburns Night relearned I really hate to see the day come to an end It'd be alright if I was on the bay with a pen But I live near sulfur vents Inside a searing tent Where the hellacious temperature rises rapidly Despite the absence of the sun's warmth The hellfire of night Reminisces of those I have thoroughly failed And my overwhelming remorse As I stare out my window Into the bramble ravine I wonder about the possibility of contentment The stillness of night answers me But at least now I can open the door And charge into the night headstrong To search frantically For someone who Erases my history And writes my future And makes me wonder if I could ever be happier
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Jul 11, 2017
Jul 11, 2017 at 4:13 AM UTC
Night
Oh, what a horrible night Definitely not late December back in '63 These are the Frankie valleys of my days Night is always black Night always comes back Night envelopes us in the abyss And makes us cherish light Heightening our senses To help us handle the unknown When my days are filled with stimulation The stillness of night sinks me Into quicksand mixed by The current of my mind Overflowing into the sands of time And reminds me Of the stillness of my eyes locked on you Or the stillness of my actions as you walk by Or the stillness of my heart when you call me a ****** My frustration boiled Night's black tar So I bottled it up Placed it in a syringe And medicated my love with darkness I worked my first job at the local Kroger's People would leave with everything they wanted And I'd push their empty carts back into the store The artificial lights of the street lamps Lacked warmth Their hypnotic buzz highlighted The stillness of night Making me wonder if there was any way I could be happy Similar to when activity would die down in rehab A pitiful wretch left to his faculties I'd stare out the window Into the concrete chasm And wonder if happiness could be found by someone like me Night continues Night confines Day comes And goes Night returns Night reburns Night relearned I really hate to see the day come to an end It'd be alright if I was on the bay with a pen But I live near sulfur vents Inside a searing tent Where the hellacious temperature rises rapidly Despite the absence of the sun's warmth The hellfire of night Reminisces of those I have thoroughly failed And my overwhelming remorse As I stare out my window Into the bramble ravine I wonder about the possibility of contentment The stillness of night answers me But at least now I can open the door And charge into the night headstrong To search frantically For someone who Erases my history And writes my future And makes me wonder if I could ever be happier
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At first I hear snarls, "Nice jeans, ****** although I'm sure they don't include any punctuation when ragging on my anorexic pants as if my jeans have anything to do with my sexuality as if the color of skin had anything to do with last week's mugging as if Catholics didn't once **** for religion.
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Oct 24, 2013
Oct 24, 2013 at 12:00 AM UTC
Jeans
Prepubescent voices crawl back and forth A squeaking, scratching chorus of topics unbeknownst to the speaker Meaningless sounds produced just to be heard Drowned out by the unfortunately undeafening silence of headphones plugged into nothing Misdirected words, hidden insults, skewed meanings Subtle bullying pretends to be older and wiser when it is terrified of new things Gay, **** emo, **** laughter Because the body is hilarious Crowded faces: authority is buried under the splotchy noise Enter swear here _ _ _ _ _ _ _. Because ****** is an address And “You have no friends” is just kidding “Go **** yourself” is love Outward rudeness to the man who puts himself though it daily An example for the even less learned 7-year-old cursing Because ******* means nothing to them or anyone else. Sit down because there are seats Look in my eyes, taken back immediately stupidity realized in a golden split second of mortification Split second passes now with more phantom confidence One by one skip, saunter, slither down three steps Yellow noise recedes not fast enough Obnoxious created by too much television And its weird to be gay, and gay to be weird Unacceptable open windows to normality Jack my swag Kindly, Will you please shut the f* * * up.
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Sep 24, 2012
Sep 24, 2012 at 10:10 PM UTC
Bus Ride
Walt Whitman was a ****** That's what we say when we cross his bridge from South Philly to Jersey and see what he would see: the river solid waveless with trees green around feeding from the water on the left and far beyond the watertable real for a minute from the arched metal and the city visible wholly with warehouses rowhomes inches apart and glass buildings and all burnt orange by four o'clock sun but clear on blue sky but you know he was a ****** and the city all one in your eye if you want it to be and the languages together between the buildings all the blacks asians whites itlalians irish polish moving together and talking and eating the food working and riding cars and buses around the liberty bell and independence hall it is brooklyn ferry it was his prophesy but you know he was ****** a big jersey boy *** yea
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May 28, 2014
May 28, 2014 at 10:29 PM UTC
Walt Whitman was a ******
this is for the queer kids who are taught their ABC's but not their L's, G's, B's and T's for the Russian government and the I.O.C who deny Russian queers their visibility to the people who call me ****** i wear your name-calling like a pink triangle stitched to my sleeve for the Harvey Milk's, the Christine Burns' and every queer in between to the allies who do more than say "your sexuality is okay with me" for the Jamaican trans* teen who was murdered needlessly to the television networks who portray LGBT individuals positively for the radical queers the POC queers the genderqueers the queers who have felt excluded this is for you for us this is a celebration and an ultimatum we are here we are queer & we will do more than survive.
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Aug 15, 2013
Aug 15, 2013 at 10:42 AM UTC
this is for the queer kids
Never tell the girl with messy hair and wide eyes that when her father sexually abused her they were, "fooling around." Fooling around is a consensual act between two lovers, friends, or strangers in which both gain pleasure and to make her feel as though that is something she did is degrading and destructive. She's already been through that once. When I got that anonymous question asking me "why is it when you fool around with your dad, no one gets in trouble, but when I do it I'm a ****** I almost snapped. The smell of cheap beer formed under my nose and the entire contents of my stomach almost fell to the side of my bed, however, I had not eaten enough to push all of my mental instability out of my mouth. I could feel my father's hands around my wrist, pulling, pinning, calloused hands scratching my nine year old skin. I could hear my young cries for help, and the tears staining my cheeks. I could feel the air on my ear as he whispered. "Tell anyone and it'll be worse next time." I remembered cleaning my own blood from the carpet that afternoon. And I almost replied with a defensive remark, but I stopped. There was no need for this private matter to be put on display on a social media forum, because then who's the girl that "fooled around" with her father? But then the question, it irks me to my very core, the reason my hands are so swiftly typing this poem between waves of hurricanes in my eyes. It's as if my dignity has been stripped from me again, no more layer of scar tissue to protect even the deepest layers of my darkest secrets. Nothing was safe anymore. And when I showed it to my boyfriend, the look in his eyes terrified me. It was as if someone had just dropped a match on a mile long pile of bone dry trees doused in gasoline. But someone had. Someone had dropped a match on me, just as fragile and capable of burning up completely. Never tell the girl with messy hair and wide eyes that when her father sexually abused her they were, "fooling around." Fooling around is a consensual act between two lovers, friends, or strangers in which both gain pleasure and to make her feel as though that is something she did is degrading and destructive. She's already been through that once.
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Feb 5, 2016
Feb 5, 2016 at 8:59 AM UTC
PTSD: A Slam Poem
Never tell the girl with messy hair and wide eyes that when her father sexually abused her they were, "fooling around." Fooling around is a consensual act between two lovers, friends, or strangers in which both gain pleasure and to make her feel as though that is something she did is degrading and destructive. She's already been through that once. When I got that anonymous question asking me "why is it when you fool around with your dad, no one gets in trouble, but when I do it I'm a ****** I almost snapped. The smell of cheap beer formed under my nose and the entire contents of my stomach almost fell to the side of my bed, however, I had not eaten enough to push all of my mental instability out of my mouth. I could feel my father's hands around my wrist, pulling, pinning, calloused hands scratching my nine year old skin. I could hear my young cries for help, and the tears staining my cheeks. I could feel the air on my ear as he whispered. "Tell anyone and it'll be worse next time." I remembered cleaning my own blood from the carpet that afternoon. And I almost replied with a defensive remark, but I stopped. There was no need for this private matter to be put on display on a social media forum, because then who's the girl that "fooled around" with her father? But then the question, it irks me to my very core, the reason my hands are so swiftly typing this poem between waves of hurricanes in my eyes. It's as if my dignity has been stripped from me again, no more layer of scar tissue to protect even the deepest layers of my darkest secrets. Nothing was safe anymore. And when I showed it to my boyfriend, the look in his eyes terrified me. It was as if someone had just dropped a match on a mile long pile of bone dry trees doused in gasoline. But someone had. Someone had dropped a match on me, just as fragile and capable of burning up completely. Never tell the girl with messy hair and wide eyes that when her father sexually abused her they were, "fooling around." Fooling around is a consensual act between two lovers, friends, or strangers in which both gain pleasure and to make her feel as though that is something she did is degrading and destructive. She's already been through that once.
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tunnel vision life everything happening far away backwards telescope high school prom pink & blue balloons I walked through those doors off the devil's wagon like a poltergeist I was either invisible or a painted blood red target Alone in the hallways they laughed at me a wasp-like ****** entombed in toilet paper spit & magic marker they didn't hate me, they got me to hate me everywhere I went their gummy bioengineered shadow stalked it was stuck on me all those years like a bucket of pigs blood to the head that I could never wash off but I'm not that loser anymore Don't worry, dea  r Lo ve me.
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Mar 16, 2013
Mar 16, 2013 at 3:50 PM UTC
Lunch In the Bathroom
You wonder why my name is spaghetti, It's sounds funny to you. Not quite a long story, But it's all very true. Our tale begins, When I was quite young, Right when spring, had just sprung. Living with my aunt, At the age of two, She brought me to preschool, In her liberal Subaru. My parents left me, If you were curious. They went off to help illegal-aliens, which made me quite furious. Anyway, when I got to my class, We did a bunch of useless work, While the teacher sat fat on her *** After reading some **** called Cat in the Hat, we all went for lunch, to eat some crap. All was going well, In that brick-enclosed hell, but all went wrong with a single song. Some ****** turned on, Some pop music, We all got mad, At that stupid ***** I had enough already, Since my parents had left me, And I was stuck with a woman, Who voted for Hillary. So I got out of my seat, And walked right to the kid, Took my lunch out of my bag, And opened the lid. Inside held the spaghetti, That I was planning to eat. I grasped it in my hand, And planted my feet. I grabbed the fag's neck, shoved the spaghetti down his throat, And before I knew it, He started to choke. Through his espohogus, very far down, The blood gushed out of his mouth, And onto the ground. The kid's eyes rolled back, into his head, until they were white, I knew he was dead. Even though it was over, I continued to go, And throw his body, Out the nearest window. My classmates watched in horror, as the body fell down, Into the road, without making a sound. Then in the street a dump truck went by, Running over the body, And my classmates started to cry. They will never forget that wonderful day. "He killed a kid with spaghetti!" They all started to say.
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May 14, 2016
May 14, 2016 at 7:35 AM UTC
Why my name is spaghetti
You wonder why my name is spaghetti, It's sounds funny to you. Not quite a long story, But it's all very true. Our tale begins, When I was quite young, Right when spring, had just sprung. Living with my aunt, At the age of two, She brought me to preschool, In her liberal Subaru. My parents left me, If you were curious. They went off to help illegal-aliens, which made me quite furious. Anyway, when I got to my class, We did a bunch of useless work, While the teacher sat fat on her *** After reading some **** called Cat in the Hat, we all went for lunch, to eat some crap. All was going well, In that brick-enclosed hell, but all went wrong with a single song. Some ****** turned on, Some pop music, We all got mad, At that stupid ***** I had enough already, Since my parents had left me, And I was stuck with a woman, Who voted for Hillary. So I got out of my seat, And walked right to the kid, Took my lunch out of my bag, And opened the lid. Inside held the spaghetti, That I was planning to eat. I grasped it in my hand, And planted my feet. I grabbed the fag's neck, shoved the spaghetti down his throat, And before I knew it, He started to choke. Through his espohogus, very far down, The blood gushed out of his mouth, And onto the ground. The kid's eyes rolled back, into his head, until they were white, I knew he was dead. Even though it was over, I continued to go, And throw his body, Out the nearest window. My classmates watched in horror, as the body fell down, Into the road, without making a sound. Then in the street a dump truck went by, Running over the body, And my classmates started to cry. They will never forget that wonderful day. "He killed a kid with spaghetti!" They all started to say.
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"I'm sorry if your dad left you . I'm sorry if your dad hit you . I'm sorry if your dad passed away . I'm sorry if your mom left you . I'm sorry if your mom hit you or got hit by your dad . I'm sorry if your mom passed away . I'm sorry if you get bullied . I'm sorry if you cut your wrists . I'm sorry if you can never get sleep at night . I'm sorry if you throw up after you eat because you don't want to gain weight . I'm sorry if you cry in your room for hours . I'm sorry if you get called a ****** for being gay . I'm sorry if your boyfriend or girlfriend hits you . I'm sorry if you feel like you're not good enough . I'm sorry if someone broke your heart . I'm sorry if you got cheated on . I'm sorry if you're in foster care . I'm sorry if you're homeless . I'm sorry if you would rather be homeless because being at home is torture . I'm sorry if you rake your nails down your arms . I'm sorry if you feel like nobody cares . I'm sorry if you feel invisible . I'm sorry if you feel you won't be as " pretty " or " handsome " as someone else . But guess what ? You are beautiful . I'm sorry if you don't want to be saved . I'm sorry if you do want to be saved , but nobody is around to help you . I'm sorry if you lost a loved one . I'm sorry if your brother or sister has a mental illness . I'm sorry if I've hurt you . I'm sorry if you've been sexually harassed . I'm sorry I've not always been there when you've needed me . I'm sorry if you have to sell drugs or do them because you hate reality . I'm sorry for all the pain you kept inside for so long . I'm sorry if your heart is broken . I'm sorry if you feel this way . But I know that with everything that is going wrong , one day it will go right . I care about you , I want to give my all to show you how worth it you are . I want you to live , I want you to fight this . I need you here . All your pain is something that probably followed you everywhere . I know that things are hard , and nobody understands what you're going through . You fake a smile , but I can see it . You think you're unloved , but I love you so much . I promise you're loved . If you think it's time for you to go , it's honestly not , this isn't worth it. I know you want to die , nobody would miss you right ? Those thoughts are all a lie , those demons in your head are lying to you . All those people telling you to **** yourself aren't there when you need a hug , they aren't there when you're punching walls . They assume you won't do anything, they aren't there when you're breaking down , and crying , but I promise you'll feel better soon , don't do this . Don't leave me . I need you . You're worth it . I know you're enough . I love you . I'm always just a message away . Stay strong ."
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Sep 30, 2016
Sep 30, 2016 at 12:34 AM UTC
Untitled
"I'm sorry if your dad left you . I'm sorry if your dad hit you . I'm sorry if your dad passed away . I'm sorry if your mom left you . I'm sorry if your mom hit you or got hit by your dad . I'm sorry if your mom passed away . I'm sorry if you get bullied . I'm sorry if you cut your wrists . I'm sorry if you can never get sleep at night . I'm sorry if you throw up after you eat because you don't want to gain weight . I'm sorry if you cry in your room for hours . I'm sorry if you get called a ****** for being gay . I'm sorry if your boyfriend or girlfriend hits you . I'm sorry if you feel like you're not good enough . I'm sorry if someone broke your heart . I'm sorry if you got cheated on . I'm sorry if you're in foster care . I'm sorry if you're homeless . I'm sorry if you would rather be homeless because being at home is torture . I'm sorry if you rake your nails down your arms . I'm sorry if you feel like nobody cares . I'm sorry if you feel invisible . I'm sorry if you feel you won't be as " pretty " or " handsome " as someone else . But guess what ? You are beautiful . I'm sorry if you don't want to be saved . I'm sorry if you do want to be saved , but nobody is around to help you . I'm sorry if you lost a loved one . I'm sorry if your brother or sister has a mental illness . I'm sorry if I've hurt you . I'm sorry if you've been sexually harassed . I'm sorry I've not always been there when you've needed me . I'm sorry if you have to sell drugs or do them because you hate reality . I'm sorry for all the pain you kept inside for so long . I'm sorry if your heart is broken . I'm sorry if you feel this way . But I know that with everything that is going wrong , one day it will go right . I care about you , I want to give my all to show you how worth it you are . I want you to live , I want you to fight this . I need you here . All your pain is something that probably followed you everywhere . I know that things are hard , and nobody understands what you're going through . You fake a smile , but I can see it . You think you're unloved , but I love you so much . I promise you're loved . If you think it's time for you to go , it's honestly not , this isn't worth it. I know you want to die , nobody would miss you right ? Those thoughts are all a lie , those demons in your head are lying to you . All those people telling you to **** yourself aren't there when you need a hug , they aren't there when you're punching walls . They assume you won't do anything, they aren't there when you're breaking down , and crying , but I promise you'll feel better soon , don't do this . Don't leave me . I need you . You're worth it . I know you're enough . I love you . I'm always just a message away . Stay strong ."
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