"eilish" poems
⚠Trigger Warning; the following poem contains subject matter pertaining to suicide, self-harm, and eating disorders⚠
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i wish i was dead
Jan 13, 2019
Jan 13, 2019 at 1:49 PM UTC
_my stange addiction - Billie Eilish_
No, Billie, I haven't done that dance since my wife died
There's a whole crowd of people out there who need to learn how to do the Scarn
Don't ask questions you don't wanna know
Learned my lesson way too long ago
To be talking to you, belladonna
Shoulda taken a break, not an oxford comma
Take what I want when I wanna
And I want ya
Bad, bad news
One of us is gonna lose
I'm the powder, you're the fuse
Just add some friction
You are my strange addiction
You are my strange addiction
My doctors can't explain
My symptoms or my pain
But you are my strange addiction
I'm really, really sorry
I think I was just relieved to see that Michael Scarn got his confidence back
Yeah, Michael, that movie is amazing
It's like, one of the best movies I've ever seen in my life
Deadly fever, please don't ever break
Be my reliever 'cause I don't self medicate
And it burns like a gin and I like it
Put your lips on my skin and you might ignite it
Hurts, but I know how to hide it, kinda like it
Bad, bad news
One of us is gonna lose
I'm the powder, you're the fuse
Just add some friction
You are my strange addiction
You are my strange addiction
My doctors can't explain
My symptoms or my pain
But you are my strange addiction
Bite my glass, set myself on fire
Can't you tell I'm crass?
Can't you tell I'm wired?
Tell me "Nothing lasts"
Like I don't know
You could kiss my as-king about my motto
You should enter it in festivals
Or carnivals
Thoughts?
Pretty good reaction
Pretty cool, right?
You are my strange addiction
You are my strange addiction
My doctors can't explain
My symptoms or my pain
But you are my strange addiction
Did you like it? Did you like that?
Um, which part?
Feb 16, 2020
Feb 16, 2020 at 11:01 AM UTC
I Don't Love You- Song by MCR
I Love You- Song by Billie Eilish
All the good girls go to heaven-Lyrics from the song This Is How I Disappear by MCR
All The Good Girls Go To Hell- Song by Billie Eilish
Dec 15, 2021
Dec 15, 2021 at 6:18 PM UTC
I feel like Billie is HEAVILY inspired by MCR and Frank Iero.
Examples:
Stomachaches = Album by Frank Iero
Bellyache = Song by Billie Eilish
"I'm Not Okay" = Lyrics/Song by MCR
"I'm not okay" = Lyrics from the song 'Listen Before I Go' by Billie Eilish
"I'm Okay" = Lyrics from the song 'I'm Not Okay' by MCR
"I'm Okay" = Lyrics from 'You Should See Me In A Crown' by Billie Eilish
Six Feet Down Under = Song by Frank Iero
Six Feet Under = Song by Billie Eilish
Don't you think so too?
Oct 22, 2021
Oct 22, 2021 at 10:49 AM UTC
Being back home, in my childhood room is like climbing into a time capsule. I left for college quickly, back in ‘21 and I’ve only been back here once, briefly.
My closets are still full of my old high school clothes and there are shelves that line the upper walls of my room with maybe a hundred “Disney Princess” collectable statues (my favorite is Ariel).
I have one wall space behind my bathroom door that has a hundred yellow stickies on it - reminders of old assignments and quotes like, “Do you hate drama or create drama?” and “Imagine your future.”
Everything seems carbon dated. It gives me an impeccable, knife-like sense of ennui. I want to cherish it all or burn it all, depending on the time of day. I went to take down my old Humphry Bogart and Billie Eilish posters yesterday and Kim said “Noo,” in such a sad way that I stopped.
Hold on, let’s overthink this.
I had a hard conversation today. I broke the news to my cats (Belichick and Tom Brady) that school starts at the end of the month, and I have to go back.
They took it well, I think. You know how cats are. I’ll know in a day or two, if their good will has turned to sour offense - they'll claw something up.
Belichick seems to be watching me extra closely though.
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Songs for this:
Lava by Still Woozy
Can't Hardly Wait by The Replacements
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08.01.3PM
Aug 1, 2024
Aug 1, 2024 at 3:46 PM UTC
S I D E A
"already mine" : us the duo
"us" : james bay
"broken things" : clairity
"the night we met" : lord huron
"delicate" : taylor swift
"life me up" : mree
S I D E B
"august" : flipturn
"stupid" : lizzy mcalpine
"i love you" : billie eilish
"mirrorball" : taylor swift
"through the dark" : alexi murdoch
"if you ever want to be in love" : james bay
Sep 10, 2023
Sep 10, 2023 at 12:03 AM UTC
life from the crossroads,
meeting a blood clot
already thickened from
running sweat, a stone's
throw from a ***** four
letter word: P-A-S-T
in another stream (one
wayward than my own)
i would be he, shivering
and possibly unrepentant,
emphatically gone too
far beyond anyone's
morals.
yet in another, i live out
the dreams of the father,
or 'sins' if pure honesty
had its say. what i wouldn't
give for a beautiful wife,
obedient children, a gold
standard like this stanza's
length; prosperous--
preposterous. in my own
uncharted stream, i would
live out troye's dream. free
on the inside, eons removed
from demi's 'sober'. what
choice does one have but
to make pop stars their
patron saints? maybe
mr. a-z has the answer?
scribes and stagehands,
satirists and spirits so
wishfully kindred, i smile
in solidarity. each line a
flame of pathos, each tap
a letter in loosening of
veins, like makeshift gifts
of a medium we inhabit.
to my girl, a lady-to-be
of such unwavering faith,
love someone even when
the party's over. keep
your billie eilish close by
like a bluebird in my heart;
highwayman to highwoman.
but most of all to Him,
patient with my inevitable
candidness just as he would
if my bargain held up. if we
were in love, I might just
learn to trust myself again.
Sep 27, 2020
Sep 27, 2020 at 6:43 AM UTC
In a world of sound and fury,
Where the pop stars dance and hurry,
There's one who stands apart,
A shining star in the heart.
Her name is Billie Eilish,
A force of nature, a whirlwind's wish,
With a voice that's sweet and sly,
She'll make your heart sing and fly.
Her style is bold and unique,
A fusion of dark and light,
She's the queen of the beat,
A rhyme that's tight and neat.
She sings of love and pain,
Of life and all its gain,
Her words are like a river,
Flowing forth, forever and ever.
With every note she sings,
She casts a spell that clings,
Her music's like a dream,
A world of wonder, a world of scheme.
Sep 6, 2024
Sep 6, 2024 at 12:36 AM UTC
Sometimes I spend long minutes
Staring at my reflection
Searching from my image
The answers to my questions
Who is the curiosity
That softly stares back at me?
As her gaze sweeps over me
I can feel her insecurities
Through the glass
Wonder what made her look at me like that
So scared and vulnerable
Afraid to look back at me
As if my opinion means everything
Who is this teenage girl
Confused and lost in the world?
Is she just like everyone else
Reading all day, dreaming of a kiss
Singing along to Billie Eilish
Who is this who longs to be accepted?
Will I ever find the answers
As I look into the glass
And does she ponder the same things
To what she sees when she looks back?
Apr 1, 2021
Apr 1, 2021 at 9:59 AM UTC
⚠Trigger Warning; the following poem contains subject matter pertaining to suicide and self-harm ⚠
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May 30th, 2018
These wayward breaths
lead me to
the Dead Sea.
"This is where you belong;"
whisper the spirits
of The Deep--
"this is where all
broken things
come to die."
The Dead Sea
is my bathtub-
ramshackle tiles,
contorted shower rod
bowing under the weight
of the fraying curtain.
The water sprints
in a scalding race
from the tap,
its gurgling clamour
veiling the sound
of Billie Eilish
playing on the speaker
(isn't it lovely all alone?)
I stare at the Exacto Knife
clutched between my
water-pruned fingertips.
And
the moment you pick
up a knife instead of a
shoddy razor blade
from a dollar store
pencil sharpener,
you know you've
hit rock bottom
(did you know
the Dead Sea is
the lowest
point on earth?;
have you ever experienced
the remarkable plummet
of that kind of low?)
I trace the patterns
of invisible
constellations
on the terrain of
my flesh;
at first,
I am too afraid
to press down
but when I do--
my god,
when I do--
I draw blood
with the same artistry
borne from a
painter's hand,
each laceration
a brush stroke closer
to someplace beyond this
sadness.
Feb 18, 2019
Feb 18, 2019 at 10:14 PM UTC
if a little boy sitting alone in his room listening to billie eilish and painting whales can cut apart his life, so can you!
welcome to thoughtspace training. if everything went well first session, you should be starting to feel the headaches.
don’t worry, it’s normal. sometimes the headache might laugh or whisper. that is also normal.
if you close your eyes, you can find your headache a name
and maybe, if you want more headaches around
you can give yourself more later
but of course, before you know anything about what you’re getting into, let’s cover the basics
your headaches will talk
and yes of course you can tell them your secrets
headaches are an equal replacement for therapy
now that you’re distant and cut off from your emotions, it would be nice to introduce that
headaches have feelings
like people
but smaller
and you can feel those feelings when they are not yours
like when you’re sitting in the back of geography and you cry
because there is a dog on the whiteboard
maybe you don’t know why. maybe you feel like you do know why but you don’t know what why is and maybe all this feeling makes you tired.
but don’t worry
the headache will give you social confidence
it will run down the stairs to ask out your crush
and then it will run away
and then you will have no friends
but you will be impulsive and funny
so who needs other people anyways
Sep 26, 2019
Sep 26, 2019 at 9:58 PM UTC