"divorcee" poems
My mother was
a first generation lesbian.
My father,
a first generation divorcee.
His father was the one child
of a public school teacher.
He found my grandmother at 18.
A farm child, one of seven.
A painter, a baker.
My mother's father
a single boy to three sisters.
His aggressive masculinity
kept the line clear and thick.
He found my mother's mother at 17.
A middle of seven Pentecostal children.
A beauty queen, an agoraphobic.
Each had five children.
The door-to-door salesmen/
homemaker and mother of boys duo
bet it all to open a hobby shop.
They were by far the poorest of the
watermelon farming siblings.
They were artists and explorers.
The high school graduate and ladies man,
was a logger before a father.
And the single mother of 25 he left
scarcely left her home at all.
Neither pair made it big.
But they made my father.
A lonely, post middle aged man.
The poorest of his brothers.
A used to be pilot,
and could have been teacher,
a want to be pioneer.
A nuclear family super fan
who never got his way.
And they made my mother.
A nervous, eccentric hippie
who doesn't know how to talk to her siblings.
A woman working her *** off to excel at lower middle class.
A builder, a fighter, a **** good mother.
Even if accidentally so.
She has plans to travel.
He has dreams to live by a lake.
And they made me.
A single girl among three boys.
A quirky, nervous tomboy.
A thinker, a gardener, a climber.
A loser and a dreamer by blood.
Nov 17, 2015
Nov 17, 2015 at 5:20 PM UTC
Walk onto a stage called life
and take a look around.
There's much to be found in such a small space,
more to give and much to take
as the curtains called and you're pulled into this performance.
Stare into the audience and pray for applause
but what if you're met with silence?
Spotlight on you as your hopes are ejected
and you my friend have just been rejected
and that is a hard thing to take.
So take a seat, a rejection seat.
Front row to your failures as they come In-ter-view.
Call it the Dragons Den the Lions Pit
and yet they ask me what kind of animal i'll be
as i sit and daydream about Spiderman in a suit
listing qualities of make believe
as he's forced to fill in a CV just like me;
not that i'm a superhero,
i'm just saving face you see,
it's just an amusing thought to ease the anxiety.
And the voluntears they come in turn.
Call em that cause they come momentarily
to remind me involuntarily
that sometimes i do need help and not all things are easy,
not all things are meant to be.
So i take a seat, will you take one with me?
As you watch that relationship sail
and wonder how did it fail?
Bon voyAge is irrelevant.
Whether it be school crush folly to divorcee
it's a learning curve right?
Hard when it seems the only thing you taught me
is what it means to feel lonely.
It's cold in that place called the one way street,
so take a seat. Pull up a chair to something that's no longer there
and share in despair as you stare at your feet.
But you will raise your head eventually.
Adopt the thinkers pose, indulge in some feelosophy.
Cause a friend once said to me that rejection is a time for reflection
and i tend to agree.
So tell me, as i stare into the face of rejection
why is it that i see my own reflection?
Am i cursed to take this personally?
It's always the shoulda, woulda, couldas that get to me.
Do they get to you?
If so take a seat.
And are you sitting uncomfortably?
Cause you shouldn't be.
Take comfort as you stare along row upon row of chairs
that stretch along beyond you and me.
Side to side, across from and diagonally.
Filling the Feartre.
There's many to be found in such a small space,
more that give and much that take
and though this may be the closing scene
there's another show tomorrow
and you and I will receive our standing ovation,
just take my hand and stand with me.
Cause this seat was only ever meant to be temporary.
Nov 10, 2014
Nov 10, 2014 at 1:57 PM UTC
*We were squeezed from corruption
armed with the monstrous cutlery
of rippers and tearers of rationed meat
for a day, for a day, for a day:
the butcher gives his best cuts
to the young and godless divorcee
find us, keep us : a spectre hiding
in the dark pig iron rust hooks looping
through your *** and shopping lists:
smelting your coin
and punching your face
Company is the full knowledge
of our protracted, 3 -stage decay
burn drift degradation
eyes crusting shut
in doom and settling bomb silt
palms up, taking a punishment
in the mothertongue
ignoring lessons in the gracious
expectancy of departure
We, A legion of ancient clockwatchers,
in on the joke of time
and folk fetish of apple-cheek poverty
[Gasp!] The gruesome romance of class!
!you cry! !safe! !always safe!
in the nuclear hotdog option , which is
observably, the title of this advertisement
We will never get you[ ]you're awake!
and your atmosphere is still In Da Black
We watch you
watching
the 5 car pile up
catch up rolling down your chin*
Mar 1, 2017
Mar 1, 2017 at 10:20 AM UTC
She has no qualms with the status quo.
She wants little more than a family.
The white picket fence,
the red painted door;
that whole idyllic suburban fantasy.
Just that, and nothing else.
She feels it's all she needs to be Happy.
A cozy pleasant house,
and a perfect little family.
She wastes no time on iconoclasts.
She thinks they're silly and make her laugh.
Never been one to be impressed by taste.
She'd rather have a humble man
with an honest face.
The doctors said the chances were slim,
"but stranger things have happened still . . ."
Not a candidate for contraception.
She'll never have to go on The Pill.
Her standards have changed in light of the news:
Nevermind prince charming; wit, grit, or being wooed.
She's got her dream and intends to follow through.
She's just chasing a miracle.
All those men caught up in the latest health trends;
"That's your best bet," he says -
that's what her doctor recommends.
She swallows her pride and takes them for a ride,
all the time hoping for a godsend.
Prince Charming is the last thing she needs.
Any chance at true romance is something she could do without.
She's just looking for potency,
and a very high ***** count.
She's okay with ending up as a divorcee,
a single mother - even a widow.
She's willing to go through whatever it takes.
She's still holding out for her miracle.
May 31, 2015
May 31, 2015 at 5:14 AM UTC
When will I ever grow up...
Says the innocence of the child
I want to experience all there is in life
And I want to experience it now
When will I ever grow up...
Says the newly developed teen
I've just stepped out childhood
Ready to live the life I've dreamed
When will I ever grow up...
The nineteen year old says
They tell me to vote, send me to war
Yet still call me a kid
When will I ever grow up...
Says the twenty something wife
Like I saw in my mother
At this stage in her life
When will I ever grow up...
Little did she know her mother said
When she was also that twenty something
As she gazed at life ahead
When will I ever grow up...
Asks the forty year old divorcee
And will I find someone mature enough
To fill my wants and needs
When will I ever grow up...
I ask myself time and time again
I just hope and pray it happens
As I'm fast approaching the end
When will I ever grow up...
Says the old man on his death bed
It's got to happen soon
As he expels his last dying breath
Aug 25, 2013
Aug 25, 2013 at 7:09 AM UTC
We are constantly being defined by labels
As if that is all that matters
Oh you're a teenager, all you can do is wait tables
Im a wife, I'm a daughter
Until all that shatters
Widow and orphan, newlywed or divorcee
Freshman, gothic, black or white, king and queen.
Workaholic, hobo, immigrant, pale face
The only label that should matter
Is us -
The human race.
May 31, 2016
May 31, 2016 at 12:43 PM UTC
There are times
When I wish I could be a child again
Because, as far as adulthood is concerned
There is a lot of pressure and expectations
And many complications as well
Work, relationships, time, money, health
The list is endless
Also, let us not forget
That I am a divorcee
And yearning for a second marriage
Or at least, some kind of romantic relationship
And at the same time
I have to deal with work as well
Anyway, I wish I could be a child again
Because my childhood was awesome
Lots of love
From my family, cousins and relatives
Playing cricket with one of my close cousins
Going on train trips with family
Having fun with schoolmates
Including enacting the part of a Japanese anime princess!!
Playing chess with my maternal grandfather
Watching the golden era of Sachin Tendulkar
Listening to AR Rahman classics
Watching the best movies of Superstar Rajinikanth
Playing tennis with my father
During my second visit to Mumbai
And best of all
Having a life free of tension and worries
Except of course, as far as studies were concerned!!
Well, there were bad times too
For instance, the bullying I faced
Which forced me to leave a renown school
In the span of just one week!!
Nevertheless, on the whole
My childhood is something to be cherished forever
And reflecting back on it as an adult
I am filled with a sense of nostalgia
Being a Potterhead, I wish I could use a Time Turner
And go back in time
In order to revisit all those fond memories in person
Yes, I am not ashamed to say
That I wish I could be a child again
Jul 8, 2023
Jul 8, 2023 at 12:09 AM UTC
When you spoke to me
I liked you
When you proposed me
I loved you
When you told me you already have GF
I felt to cry a loud....because of loosing you
When you walk beside me holding my hands
I felt secured in my life
When you said that Im beautiful..
I understood the true meaning of beautiful..
When you said that you wont leave me
I saw the trust in those words....
When you said that these words are not decided in one day....
I saw a matured man behind it...
When you said that cannot see a life without me..
I dreamed a life of happiness with you...
but the same person
took a night to break the relation ship...which was built in beautiful, trust, & happiness..were was that maturity......
Wanted to ask him:-
Was it because of my ugliness
Was it because of my age
Was it because Im a divorcee...
Was it because i had a kid...
Was it because i fight with you..
Was it because you had any revenge on me..
WHAT IT IS????
you left me...i have not hided anything from you dala....
Nov 9, 2013
Nov 9, 2013 at 10:58 AM UTC
She dabs the ducts of each eye
with twirled tissue in hand
Sky blue eyes lost to oceans of tears
Angry waves never allowed to crash into cheeks
She swallows lump after lump
So that the black of lashes don't mix with blue
So that when she leaves my room it is as if there was not a drop of water
on this planet
in her body
You can see the longing within her gaze
when she feels the crisp cobalt threaten to release
Am I the gatekeeper?
To this tsunami of a girl
Tissue after tissue crumpled
smashed between cushions
Her soft small palms left to
catch raining tirade
Dabbing gently as to not expose a non-cover-girl-face
As to not expose the dark circling sharks under iris
100mph blinking
Tepees of tissues
blackened sleeves
Lashes sweeping lakes
of aches
You avoid eye contact
don't let me see the emerald
that creeps up with the hazel of your shattered sight
The divorcee sizes up my ringed left hand
The tormented parent sizes up my pristine smile
The assaulted lesbian sizes up my gender con-formative garb
The privileged heterosexual white male sizes up my rack
The elder sizes up my certificate
And that plush khaki couch of mine...
it's all that's left of me by the end of week
Stuffed with tears
Some of them shed
Jan 15, 2016
Jan 15, 2016 at 6:15 PM UTC
Two things I felt when you left me
Two things that no one needs
Two things that will make your heart bleed
Two things caused by misdeeds
and when you mislead and deceive
Two things that will make you take heed
Two things that will bring you to your knees
Two things that will make you grieve
Two things that will make you, not believe
Two things that will make you leave
Two things that will make you naïve
Two things that will make you step back
and reprieve
Two things that is hard to perceive
Two things caused when there is no longer we
Two things caused when you can no longer agree
Two things you could never foresee
or knew that they would be
Two things that will cause you to be a divorcee
Two things that have
common realities
and that is the actuality
That I was left with when you left me
!!
Jan 15, 2016
Jan 15, 2016 at 7:58 PM UTC
Turning his back now
and through the turnstile, under x-ray arches
and a uniformed pat down,
under a white tunnel and spotless linoleum
flooring and after a ripped ticket and hidden
smile and through another tunnel with a
cold breeze trickling through and a
plastic smell seeping in, he steps one and then
two feet onboard, ready to take-off, back
to New Jersey, back to the only place he has
left (a mother's home), away from a new wife,
now divorcee, and new diamond ring, and away
from St. Petersburg and away from
the Neva River and away from the Baltic Sea and
his blonde accountant wife and from
their flat on the river on the fourth
floor leaving the keen walls,
aware of his shouting and her swelled bruises.
His visa was expired anyway.
Nov 10, 2014
Nov 10, 2014 at 5:08 PM UTC
Heavy arms
holding a new born
heavy mind
holding it together
nineteen
aspiring model
Broken promises
He swore he'd put the bottle down
broken heart
As you packed us up to leave town
shotgun bride
turned young divorcee
don't waste any tears
crying for your baby
I can't wait for you
to see:
The plans God has for you
and your daughter
we meet a man
that can withstand
the pressure of being a father
You turned your life around
the night you refused
to turn the car around
and twenty years later
it's still you and me
oh mama, we grew up fast
didn't we?
P.S.
A young marine will ask
to take us out for pizza
and later for us to be his.
Dear, mom...
say yes.
Feb 2, 2014
Feb 2, 2014 at 4:08 PM UTC
Creativity and ambition is real
And the feeling of risk and intelligence
Are asking for damnation please, placidly
Birds among many things that chirp around your soul that wakes up the dead
Cheering up the party with the talk of apartheid, black and white
Competition is the last word, and talk of lost causes and intellectuality
Est mir leid
I'm up in my knees with Bukowski, they call me old-school Burroughs, the Kerouac rings in the philosophical Barry Manilow
Barry Levinson, please don't make my death bed, you're plot points make sense ambivalently too in case I touch upon Bacchus
The dichotomy of the bridling *** I suppose you switched with the surface of the country full of dunes and locusts
The swamp of the divorcee storm saves it for the orgie and the promiscuous dollar ride and melee
Jul 29, 2019
Jul 29, 2019 at 5:42 PM UTC
Clap.
From the man in the back with a heart of gold sitting beside his mother.
Clap.
From his mother who is having the time of her life because it's coming to an end.
Clap.
From the girl in the front row with the abusive father and dead mother whom she feels watching over her shoulder.
Clap.
From the old veteran next to her holding a picture frame of his late wife and a daffodil repeating the words "to new beginnings".
Clap.
From the little boy watching from the balcony trying to understand why mommy is crying now.
Clap.
From his mother, the thirty-year old divorcee, crying because the music is over and the curtains are closing and she felt free before the end.
Clap.
Because this place holds freedom from the real world's problems when we do not want to face them.
Clap.
To hold onto that freedom.
May 23, 2016
May 23, 2016 at 7:16 PM UTC
The mutipliers has always amazed me.
The way they go through lovers like a game.
Almost like the three time divorcee.
Who must have repeated the same thing to all three?
With you.
Yes, with you.
And it just might be me only.
What love I give?
And it's truly real.
It's a forever love.
Even if you should leave.
You still be wheeling from knowing I gave you.
It's forever love.
An eternity of affection that could cure a war between any nation.
This is the type love, if you left.
You would be eradicating.
Something I call, it's forever.
Least, when it's my love.
Dec 12, 2012
Dec 12, 2012 at 9:28 AM UTC
Whilst I was immersed in Bohemian Rhapsody
"Don't forget to smile" reminded me
Though I'm not a fancy, angry lizard
Just want to be a family wizard
Not every bed is green
Not every one is the same Win
He died four years younger than me
Although he left his legacy
I'm just a commoner
Leaving nothing like a pensioner
Only memories will survive when I die
Who will care the existance of mine
Learnt many weird things
I also have some similar stings
I can see his emotional insecurity
Thinking where is my dignity
Easy come, easy go
I am just a poor boy also
If I only want hassle-free
What I have to foresee?
I'm no longer a nominee
I have to be an escapee
Accepted that I'm a divorcee
My mom always says,
"Nothing really matters to me...
to me..."
Dec 21, 2018
Dec 21, 2018 at 10:01 AM UTC
Not looking back to see
You not looking back at me,
Knowing a sinking feeling
And that this time
It's really good bye then.
Not on a break, but a divorcee.
Not a "let's see", but a "smell the coffee".
Time to walk away and turn a corner,
Time to deep dive in this sea once more.
Sep 13, 2016
Sep 13, 2016 at 7:38 AM UTC
im divorced
but i wear
my marriage ring
on my middle finger as a
last
**** you !
Feb 16, 2019
Feb 16, 2019 at 7:19 PM UTC
launched Meghan Markle into royalty
American divorcee
catapulted from “AA” to “Zed”
at break neck speed, and with cachet wed
Prince Harry, and soon
twill begetting, bestowing,
and bewitching her
chromo somal thread
(complementing, furthering, and
weaving together "Quod Erat
Demonstrandum", or QED
for short) within United Kingdom
coat of arms, perhaps
naming the first heir Ned,
and according one online
dictionary definition and ken
translates as French
(Old English) name Eadmund,
meaning rich or happy,
and protective akin
to a mother hen,
not just mollycoddling
hatchlings, but even
shelling out care
on a wing and a prayer
long after offspring
fly the coop and been
fending for themselves,
perhaps merely earning
chicken scratch wage,
assigning doomed fate,
sans cooked usage
if perchance "chick(s)"
go thru a foul stage
within their duff
fenceless hierarchy,
where pecking order doth rage
worse case scenario, would presage
finding errant peep(s)
sent to gaol,
not much bigger than a bird cage,
unless they comprise
noble henny age,
ideally taken in as a pet
by newly bridled
Duchess of Sussex
treated like totally
tubularly true blue blood
with opulent accommodations
(cheaply) tricked out
with life size Tyrannosaurus Rex
(spoiler alert: actually done
with special effe Hex
with latest computer graphics
showing rippling reptiles flex
sing and holo
graphic smoky mirrors)
intending "FAKE"
balances and checks
to boondoggle aggressive paparazzi,
one of whom includes
Meghan Markle's ex.
Aug 9, 2018
Aug 9, 2018 at 7:29 PM UTC
Untitled - IV
04/06/2019
This story has many tentacles
Fervently awaiting "The End"
I Am
Child Parent
Spouse Divorcee
Abused Abuser
Friend Enemy
Loved Hated
Simple Simpleton
Transparent Evasive
Amenable Dogmatic
Fearing Fearful
Extremely naive Equally stupid
These and many more masks
That stare back at me
That even the tiniest shard
Reflects a different story
But then I know it too well
That the story I want to tell
Will vastly differ, when
To validate, others are compelled
Though the events remain the same
It's my perception that I hold
Or those viewed by others
Becomes the script on how it's told
I may choose to go it solo
Or rely on others viewpoint
But once exposed on the net
No place to hide in this joint
The critics will come forth
For they viewed it differently
Challenge my version of the tale
For misunderstanding the events, apparently
So you see,
So many tentacles says history
Present myself as a fictional character
Or tell it like a Biography
Apr 17, 2019
Apr 17, 2019 at 2:24 PM UTC