I have gone through life,
But It had no purpose,
A meaningless stride,
Nothing beneath surface,

I have had no goal,
No dreams, no ambition,
Life settled in stone,
A fool on an audition,

In that mindless state,
I have lived for years,
I altered my fate,
Got rid of my fears,

I'm glad I kept going,
Glad I haven't stopped,
This tree keeps on growing,
This soul never dropped,

I wanted to stop,
My meaningless stride,
I wanted to stop,
This life with no pride,

There was an option,
But I never took it,
Life's filled with emotion,
But I do not look it,

I never thought of killing myself,
That was a way I never entailed,
I never thought to hang on a shelf,
I never made a plan so detailed,

I never thought to jump from a height,
I never thought to fall to my death,
To fall from a place where one could take flight,
I never thought to take my last breath,

There was no point of going that way,
That's why I chose to live one more day,
A day in my life, meaningless at times,
A day in my life, a place full of lies,

Now here I stand,
No more beneath surface,
Please give me a hand,
I have found my purpose,

For I found my cure,
For it is to teach,
For it's  to make pure,
What others can't reach.

I wonder why you write,
What makes your words so bright,
What makes you write this way,
I wonder what you'll say,

It widens up my eyes,
It makes me see the skies,
It helps me see through lies,
Ways people do disguise,

Still, I am surpised how I feel,
Why is every line I read, so real,
The way your work just pulls me in,
I feel at ease through thick and thin,

It makes me cry, it makes me grin,
Tend to think about my every sin,
I look forward to see your work,
To find about my hidden perk,

So please keep on writing more,
Show your offer, what's in store,
Keep on writing one more day,
Please, just help me find my way.

Supposed to be a special day,
But I think it's all the same.
Do you think that in any way,
You could light this dying flame?

A year has passed,
Yet I'm the same.
It's not my last,
Still in the frame.

A younger me is left behind,
Truly, I want to see a smile.
My soul, my heart is still so kind,
Yet I can't smile for a while.

I should be happy on this day,
Should be excited for these gifts.
But nothing now goes in my way,
Things have happened, many shifts.

I don't feel happy anymore,
I do not cry any longer.
I have no one to adore,
To help me grow stronger.

And yet, I live another day searching for my dream,
And yet, I live today still searching for ambition.
And yet, Still I want it, to quiet down this scream,
And yet, I manage here to stay, still searching for my mission.

I just hope to find my way,
To have the strength to live today.

I have had enough, I just wanna leave,
This place has no love, they all just deceive,
I thought I would be someone's only choice,
Alone I am left, no one hears my voice,

I thought I would make at least one person smile,
I've struggled in vain, my efforts were dire,
I still do possess, this haunting desire,
Just want to connect, It's all I require,

It seems I have failed to build a connection,
With not much time left, I avoid detection,
So, what if there's no one, not one that would seek,
Seek out this man, when he feels so weak.

I might just do better, the next stage I'll live,
I'll write you a letter,
If I can forgive.

I don't know my place,
Where do I belong?
Just where is my space?
What takes it so long?

I feel like a piece not meant to be used,
A piece of a puzzle just so **** confused,
A piece of a puzzle that could never fit,
Or just like a fire that's never been lit,

I'm like a shard from different collection,
I'm just a someone who longs for connection,
What will it take to find my puzzle set?
What are the conditions that had not been met?

I wish there was someone to show me the way,
When will they show? I'm thinking all day,
Am I just a piece that one could just spare?
Why do they avoid me, do you think it's fair?

So am I unworthy of getting to know?
Is it just something that you cannot show?
Is it so much to ask to be known?
Just what do I need to not be alone?

I wish you'd just ask, if I want to go too,
Is that a hard task? Is that really true?
Sadly I think not, I think you're just blind,
You just don't want me to be what you find.

Something we all know,
What most of us fear,
It may bring us sorrow,
And it might be near,

Thought one may not be aware,
When death decides to strike,
One may never prepare,
to lose someone they like,

Once that thing turns true,
You'll only face grief,
Your world will turn blue,
There'll be no relief,

You may come to terms,
Maybe in due time,
Get rid of concerns,
Your world will turn lime,

You'll live the same life,
Without your dear friend,
Avoiding the knife,
Till you meet the end.

Wrath

No matter what I do or say,
I’m never enough, always a step away.
I try to keep up, wear myself thin,
But all I feel is the burn within.
If I could change, I swear I would,
But trying and failing still hurts, as it should.


Pride

In the mirror, I see a man undone,
Not proud, but broken, the lesser one.
No arrogance here, no smug facade,
Only a soul bruised, and left flawed.
Superior? No, I shrink from the view,
Hating myself far more than I do you.


Lust

Lust is a sneaky, seductive beast,
I’ve given in, but found no feast.
Those urges led to hollow roads,
But I broke free, shed those heavy loads.
Desire comes, but I’ve learned to be,
Unshackled, with a heart finally free.


Greed

I once held tight, refusing to share,
The world was mine, I didn’t care.
But time changed me, and now I see,
Greed’s lost its hold, no longer on me.
My hand is now open, I’ve learned to give,
Unburdened, I can finally live.


Envy

I used to ache for someone's life,
Trapped in longing, never satisfied.
Why not me? I’d wonder and weep,
Until something shifted, I could sleep.
Now I’m a man content with less,
Grateful in ways I never confess.


Gluttony

Food may not be my chosen vice,
I’ve drowned in pleasures, paid the price.
It is but the need to fill,
The endless void that lingers still.
This hunger for escape, it eats away,
But I know its tricks, it's clear as day.


Sloth

I set my goals, yet never reach,
Room to grow, but I don’t breach.
I drift through days, no purpose found,
A ghost in waiting, with silent sound.
What is my worth, what should I be?
I ache for meaning, to finally see.

love is like the sun

It can be warm, it can be bright
Just like the sun that brings you light
Just like a sunrise with beautiful skies
I fell in love upon seeing your eyes

Every single time I see you pass by
I may just wonder if you're not a lie
Your smile gives me hope, it shows me the way
And just like the sun, it brightens my day

Although there's one thing that I do fear
That just like the sunlight, you might disappear
Once the sun disappears, the moon will be here
But light and warmth may no more be near

If there is no warmth, if there is no light
One may give in, no reason to fight
Some things may change, but one thing I know
Whenever you're near and my head is low
Whenever I see you shining like the snow

My head flies high, my smile turns bright
You're all I need to stay here and fight

You are my life, you are my soul
Without you, I cannot be whole

Just like I said, there's one thing I fear
It is the thought you might disappear

If that may come true, there's one thing I'll do
Wherever you'll be, I'll be there with you

Trust is a must, it is essential,
If you can't trust, there is no potential,
Can't build a strong bond, Can't call you a friend,
If there is no trust, you might meet the end,

Without trust, there is no friendship,
It's what you need to get through hardship,
I know I had trust, I'm truly aware,
But my trust's been broken, now darkness to bear,

Just like glass it is quite frail,
Fixing it might become a fail,
Though one thing is certain, that once trust breaks,
You can't earn it back no matter the stakes,

Trust is just a leap of faith,
Within the dark we see a cave,
The path's uncertain, we are blind,
Till there is light that we can find.

Loneliness, said to be both curse and gift,
But In my eyes there lies no blessing, deep down in this rift,

this place is so quiet, it's a place to think,
It truly seems easy to just overthink,

with too much thoughts your head gets filled,
now every thought will bring you guilt,

As for the blessings that people do see,
It's a place for growth, an infinite sea,

A place where you'll know the person you are,
For many like me, this place is too far,

For me being lonely, might be the worst curse,
When loneliness grows things only get worse,

I thought I had friends, thought I really did,
But once I turned to them, most of them just quit,

Perhaps there's someone in this white space,
I truly did hope this would the case,

I looked for that someone,
that I could call friend,
My search is a done one,
Could not in the end,

I gave up my search, now in here I lie,
Laying down here, now closing my eye,

Now you know the truth, how loneliness feels,
Please don't be like me, find something that heals,

Can't bear that dark feeling of being alone,
You need to find someone you can call your own,

Guess this is it, My time is now gone,
I see you found someone, so just carry on

We all live surrounded by sound,
But there are exceptions to be found,
Some folks are lucky, some are not,
Fate truly is a one big knot,

I can't believe the luck I've had,
Now searching on the internet,
I'm searching for a single clue,
How I can turn your world from blue,

Still searching deeply on my screen,
I want to turn your world all green,
Now finally an answer found,
There is no need for any sound,

I know a way to make you smile,
But it may really take a while,
How I should learn, how I should tell,
Got to say I really fell,

I fell for you, there is no lie,
It's not a lie, so tell me why,
I still can't tell you how I feel,
When all my feelings they are real,

I'd really love to learn to sign,
Truly I wish that you'd be mine,
Once I can sign, then I can speak,
All about what makes me weak,

Finally my feelings heard,
Oh, it's all just a bit absurd,
I'd sign you all the things I meant,
I wish I'd know just where you went,

Now I know sign, but I am lost,
I lost what I have loved the most,
So tell me if, oh tell me how,
Should I still live or die right now,

I wish to know just where you've gone,
I've searched for you from dusk till dawn,
And yet your body was not found,
If only then I was around,

If I were there that fateful day,
Was that truly the only way,
You could be saved, you would have lived,
I'm filled with guilt, an endless rift,

Please forgive, what others can't,
I pray for you, I send a chant,
I'm so sorry for your pain,
Forever guilty bind in chain