Here’s to the feelings that flow
through my veins,

here’s to the love whose trip
was a lot of pain,

here’s to the days
where I am in vain,

and here’s to your heart
that I cant seem to obtain.

you wake up
his hair is spilled across the pillow,
the sun slants across his cheekbone
and his breath is slow and even.
he smells like an open field
and his body is wrapped around yours
so he keeps you warm.
you think,
there is no moment better than this,
that he is too perfect to exist.
but you wake up gasping,
skin soaked in sweat.
you lie there for a long time,
in your completely empty bed.

once upon a time
long ago
there was a you and me

i knew you once
and it was nice
silence was comfy
and we didnt have to try

i knew you once
long ago
you shared your secrets
and i shared mine

i knew you once
long ago
but where did you go...?

I wish I had never fallen for you
because eventually
I landed.

No, this is not a question. I need not your answer.

But have you no shame?

You forced your way in with that wicked smile and I am convinced that heaven tasted like a Sunday morning by your side.

Losing myself, devouring your grip, I’ve been lost in a cosmic display and forgotten my wit.

Little did I know, colors of blue can turn into grays.

You said you love her in your sleep, Annamarie haunted me like a sick prey.

Pitch black vision...

Soldier with no mission...

Have you no shame?

Time doesn't heal.
And the wound knows it.
Layers gather on the ****
but the damage remains,
hiding itself deep inside
the secret scar

she is a happy ending,
not everyone can wait for.