breathing in, breathing out
trying to survive the mess about
I let her lips devour me like a piece of cake
as we screamed for goddness sake!
in return, all she wanted from me was to let her in
but since the beginning
l made it clear
when the sun shines
It’s time for goodbyes
not lullabies

we were too fast to be absorbed
by roots of thought
for eye of truth
to photosynthesize,
like the flowerpot forgotten⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀

free as a bird I found myself out of the cage of love
a display of unrestrained delight
released from physical obstruction
only to realize freedom smelled like floral notes of sambac,
jasmine and tunisian orange blossom just like you

destination unknown
surrounded by people yet feeling alone
what have I done?
the world’s greatest game
is when you miss the stop
but you won’t feel the shame
le petite mort on replay
and for her bottom I was the perfect top
who’s there to blame ? ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

you held my hand under yours,
as you shifted between gears.
"i love you" the words spilled out,
it felt right, it felt safe.

i was never one for short lived romances,
but that isn't what you promised me.
"i love you" you repeated,
making sure i felt the security.

but the calls became shorter,
and i felt the tone turn cold.
"i love you" i said with a hole in my heart,
but you said it back and that was enough.

i wait on the text that never arrives,
i know you've been really busy.
"i love you" three of the only words,
you managed to say to me today.

maybe i'm not enough for you,
it's starting to feel like you're bored.
"i love you" i'm saying it because i mean it,
why are you saying it?