Aku ingat awalnya
Mimpi itu aku simpan
Mimpi itu aku timbun
Aku tidak berasumsi
Aku tidak berekspektasi

Tapi kau datang
Di malam yang tidak kusangka
Mencari celah untuk masuk
Mencari cara untuk dekat
Ya, kamu waktu itu
Saat awal mula tahun ini

Secepat angin ku ada di pelukmu
Ku terbaring di kasur
Ku merasa hangatmu
Ku ada di sisimu
Ku memilikimu

Mungkin memang benar,
kata Kafka waktu itu

"He who seeks does not find, but he who does not seek will be found."

Memang mungkin,
tak perlu susah payah
tak perlu menunggu
apalagi mencari
Karena bila takdir
Ia akan datang sendiri

we'd make a pretty color.

Shouldn't he and his minions
all be referred to
as "afterbirthers" now?

the leaves are beginning to fall,
just as we are

i think it's weird now how we spent the summer entirely in love
how good things felt, how they were
how much happiness sprung, as the sun
and the problems we tried to ignore but they eventually overtook us
now things feel so cold with no hope, soon like the snow
but i would still find your freezing hand and hold it with mine to give us warmth once more

well, lately i
lately i
have felt
that maybe
it's all right
to die
or to even remain
alive
well, lately i
have been writing
too much
about you and i
words which you
will never see
and well lately
i've been staying awake
each night
for too long
trying to beat
the sun
because i don't want
anyone
in my bed
or yours
i try to sleep
because each morning
just reminds me
that i'm not sharing it
with you, ever
anymore
well, lately i
have come across a change
and i wish you were here
to be my witness
that i am no longer
the same
you're miles away
and i guess i have
accepted
that i'm no longer
a part of your life
well, you know?
i still
love you
and i have learned  
it's okay to die
with you
on my mind