I wanted love and a soulmate
He was kind and really funny
And with a smile that could have females swooning over him
As i got to know him more
He became distant and toxic
I was blind to it all
I keep telling myself that he wasn't like the rest
I heavily believed in forgiveness
And second chances
I really thought he was the one
To sweep me off my feet and away from the crude world we live in
But i was living in a dream, hoping on a fairy tale to come true
But the real world is cruel and fearful
He eventually got tired and bored of me
And threw me anyway like i was trash
Like i was a little game for him when he got bored
Tell me Why should i trust or try
When everyone leaves and breaks me in the end

I wish
Everyone should know
A basic

A basic
Recipe of happiness

In love
One naturally trusts
And when
The soul is in fire
Let there be love
Let there be us
Endlessly

This should have never started, you and I.
Got lost in all the feelings and the moments of lies.
Now all I ever know is the pain deep inside, I tore my heart open just to keep you alive.


I always put you first and forgot who I was deep down inside, drowning in the fear of letting go of what we could have had, we should never have happened and you know that I'm right. This love we had changed both of our lives.


Now I think I've learned my lesson trying to keep you by my side, I never needed you all along and lost myself in the process to make you feel loved and you're the one.


I blame myself because I knew that I deserved better but I kept falling for you and your promises of a happy life just because I wanted to feel a love that I never had.


I never thought I'd find myself again after I lost myself because of you, but now the fog has lifted in my head and I see the real you. Changes are made by the ones that want it, but you... I don't think you'll ever change yourself to be the best version of you.


Don't expect to come back again now that it's all clear and makes sense to me, I put you first because you just wanted to use me, now I know that everything that happened between us was just a way for you to cope... Because you needed my love to pick you up and make you high when you needed it most.


It all makes sense now the way you treated me... Was just a reflection of how you couldn't see, see your own worth and your ability to love yourself so you needed me the most as a lifeline to save yourself from your own insecurities.