arms wrapped around me
as neon crimson floats through the air
crowd swaying back and forth
fain smell of cigarettes and liquor
beer spilt on the venue floor
sticky beneath our feet
i lost an earring
i can't remember why i was so upset

embracing

that is what i miss the most

who do i have to embrace now

what embraces me now
but silence?

soft water
hard stone

tender heart but wild and over grown

maybe one day
ill learn to let go

she always talks
says and orders
say something'
you stood as a stunt

coming from ancient
saying no word
she has gone

crying with tears ascending as rains
shouting at the crowds
that is my fault
they stretched thier lips
as they do not know
what you want?

you screamed at them
a mad man they called
you believed that
running so fast
shouting at the space

i love my darling
reaching her home
your sound is hardly heard

when you reached there
you could not even stood
you screamed so loud
but she could not hear
as your sound was not so aloud
you can't ever move
but the waves blow against willingness
she had another one
whose word fly to heart
no matter if he is honest
no matter if he has trust



'

repression is a matter
of trust

if they'd trust me they
wouldn't repress me

yet they don't trust
me

there is no right
life in the wrong one

I feel the pain, I feel the sorrow...
And my surface to you is so shallow...
I hate this game, I feel ashame...
Because I left you with so much pain..
It's so insane, who am I to blame...
Because life is getting so **** blurry...
I hate the rain, teardrops of pain ...
It's all going down in vain...
It's so insane, who am I to blame...
I had to take one for the team...
You and me we ride or die...
But I couldn't let you face this pain...
So I left to ride and die...
This insane roller coaster called life...
I had my ups, I had my downs...
It's so insane, who am I to blame...
I'm feeling this so much pain...
Here I'm again, writing down to gain...
Nothingness to fill the vain...
To my true love I hope you're  fine...
I'm sorry to leave you in so much pain...



I remember them days when I used to say...
I'll love you every single day...
It's hard to say that I'm going away...
But it's the best for you and me...
I'm going insane, who am I to blame...
I'm lost in space, I'm lost in time...
Seems like can't find my own way...
I hope you're happy , I hope you're okay...
I hope that you found your own way...
Am I wrong for thinking that way...
To leave everything behind and walk away...
Am I Sane? Who am I kidding...
I let my happiness slip away...
Here I'm again, writing down to gain...
Nothingness to fill the vain...
To my true love I hope you're  fine...
I'm sorry to leave you in so much pain...



I tried it once i tried it twice but I couldn't go...
And they told me I'm better off without you...
I can't let go, I won't let go, please don't go...
You the only one I truly loved, please love me more...
And suddenly I can't smile anymore...
Do you love me? Truly loved me? Answer me...
Is there someone in your life? Please answer me?
How could you let go of me so easily...
We were meant to be together one family...
Now I know you said you loved me blindly...
How could you let go of me so easily...
You the king baby I was your queen...
I give you my heart and you broke it piece by piece...
And you told me you didn't do it intentionally...
I'm praying now, I'll pray more but it's hopelessly...
I need you now, I want you now, please stay...
You the only one I ever loved, love is pain...
No I'm not happy, no I'm not okay...
You left me with so much mess like a hurricane...
Here I'm reading again, trying to gain...
Nothingness to fill the vain...
To my true love I know you sorry I feel your pain...
Please don't be worry I'll get through this I'll be okay...


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