Awoken abruptly
It burns my brain like acid
I dissolve, absolute fear
I would rather die than feel this
Indescribable terror
Non-escapable

I think of you every minute of every day.

This has made me lose myself

I need to be me, if you are to ever love me.

Softly played music soothes
The wind howls as cars pass.
The fluorescent light shines on me.
Alone by myself, in a small room.
Paying for stress and work.
A slave of my own making.
I hope it will be worth it.

The burning continues, i'm on fire
Consuming me and growing, unceasingly.
I hope that you start on fire as well
if you throw water, I will die out.
Then glowing embers will fade away.

Outside air flirts with skin
numbing effect slowly creeping
gusting air, a soft assault
makes me grasp my jacket tight

O bitter tears!
wetting my face, stinging my eyes
The weight of life draws you out
All could go wrong, you would be lost
Weeping bitterly is painful healing
I am glad to heal, glad to hurt
O blessed healing!

I have torn in two, never to be one.
I formerly only cared for myself.
But now I care for you deep as a well.
I cannot find the bottom of the flowing love.
My heart will continue drawing from the depth of my soul.
As long as you are here, I am complete.

Deafening noise in waves
Glinting light blinding off mirrors
A circle turns red, steel at a standstill
The quiet lingers for just a brief second

You beat up yourself
militarizing doubts.
but I can offer you
some good armor.
I give many pieces
but you must equip them.
Please hear and equip
because my heart is breaking for you.