The sun,
the moon
and wind
had been the only elements of nature on my side.
Faniliar smell of autumn that reminded me
just of who you were-
when you were by my side,
your face made the heartache better.
My secrets were once birds that hadn't taken flight,
you caged them.
Photos of you glisten,
Resting in an undiscovered refinery
months worth of "I love you's"
wasted by lies
How nice,
I'm losing my mind.
I've called you "my love" everywhere in writing.
Nobody knows, nobody hears
what I was witness to.
A bird had once spread its wings
from my heart to your's.
Nobody sees,
Nobody can stop.
I loved the words you'd sew together just for me,
Turing "hello" into a song
embroidered by sharp wit and
cutting edge promises.
My friends heard me talk like,
some girl in love-
when we belonged to one another..
Hair fell down my shoulders in light brown streaks, eyes were too bulbuous,
and an obnoxious shade of blue.
I'm aware,
she had pewter locks and silky eyes.
told better jokes rather, she laughed at
all your fruitless attempts to tell punchlines.
For her,
I hope you don't hurt the one you love now,
A bird creates a nest for my heart,
inspires me to take better care of it the next time around.
Nobody sees,
how I try to avoid the heartbreak,
but misfortune snaps off in pieces
and lands in my arms
expecting someone to raise it.
The loneliness when you left
made me ill,
would have done better opening the blinds,
and slipping out of the covers.
But I laid there and wept
as if I was a spoiled child,
with a new toy that was taken away.
I suppose,
this is where I mention I was one of many dolls
upon your shelf,
you'd let gather dust.
Began to develop a sense of paralysis,
just from mention or sight of you.
You said to take care of myself,
but I don't think you meant it.
Because the ones such as;
my brain,
my heart
are always being neglected.
