Never wanted to go beyond the reef But some unknown force is dragging me across. Want to stay behind As I’ve been warned. But that force Oh it’s too strong It keeps pulling me Even though I oppose Is this meant to be? Or is this a curse That I’ve put upon myself I want answers But they seem unclear That force; It's within me It drags me beyond that reef What once was my limit. Now, I am beyond Should I go back? Or should I go ahead? And find my future ahead In the unknown? My future, Is dark? Is it bright? Oh, the uncertainty Will this ever end? Or, will the darkness, itself Surround me until the light fades?
May it only be a dream... composed in one. Nightmares shaking inside me. I drown myself so deep, where the water begins to reap. I love to hold you, to feel you, but who are you? Where are you? Why aren’t you here with me? Why so distant? Why haven’t I met you?
You don’t exist.
My imagination. Stringing myself in my realms of pure intensity. An ocean on fire ... A war with no winning ... A person with no belonging ... A rage with no fist ...
Feeling unkempt from shortness of breath Brain functions less as cloud covers ahead Given a rest when energy spent Lungs are suppressed No control in the chest Closeness too dense Muffled words left to float in the air Stifled and drowned Faint from the crown Blood pressure down Warmth idling for me not to care Few beads of sweat, heat heavy and wet Recovery yet but soon on the mend
I am my own careful detective Investigating parts of me That I myself have hid For years quite stubbornly
Will I be able to rejoin All parts of me together? Will I be able to enjoy The wholeness then forever?
It's not as easy to put into words It feels as if I had maybe two hearts There's one that tries to be so nice But underneath it lies... Another one, the dark and rough, That one was made by times so tough That really it just cannot smile It has its own dark heavy style
I'm digging deep to see My fear is growing though That's how I managed to ignore My darkness for so long
But finally, for feelings' sake, I gotta stop before it's late I need to see and to admit Who am I underneath the dry smile That I have been practicing for a long while
Scared of losing myself? Maybe. But I gotta risk it, Don't I?
After all I just know That my darkest side Does deserve the attention Of my soul and mind
It's a part of me I'll express it in arts Before my dry smile Dries out both my hearts.
Suppressed Into nothingness Never allowed to be who I am I just want some freedom I don't care what it is I want to dye my hair purple And get a nice lip ring I want gauges in my hears And to get some more piercings I want to get a tattoo One that says, '*******' I also what some help To not feel so suppressed
I have never been myself Even when I am around people I love Because no one really likes me Though I like to be myself, it's fun All that I'm saying, is it's just a little dye A little hole in my skin That will go away when I'm done Please oh please Just let me be myself I want to be different I'm currently somebody else
I know you don't get body art Or the fact that it's just as beautiful as a poem I know that you wouldn't want to look at me Even though I'm stuck in your home All I'm asking Is for you to allow me an identity This person that I am right now Is not the real me I just want some help To not feel so suppressed
I'm a smart person, I'm in all the good classes, but I don't like looking like a stupid little blonde everywhere I go. I hate not having body art, it just feels like my face is a canvas I'll never get to paint, and my hair is the frame that I never got to pick. I don't care what people think about me. I don't think they'll like it. But people have to understand, that people don't get body art to impress, they get it because our body is a blank canvas.