Feeling unkempt from shortness of breath Brain functions less as cloud covers ahead Given a rest when energy spent Lungs are suppressed No control in the chest Closeness too dense Muffled words left to float in the air Stifled and drowned Faint from the crown Blood pressure down Warmth idling for me not to care Few beads of sweat, heat heavy and wet Recovery yet but soon on the mend
I think that I've been branching out, You ought to have seen me before: Idling abed, lying about, Wasting away, frightened to live I think that I've been speaking more My own faults striving to forgive.
But I still need to feel alone, I know you do not think like that, Some days I must turn off my phone, Some days I do not want a friend And cannot stand to have a chat. After this spell I'll make amends.
I do not hate humanity, So I ask you not to conflate or demonize my oddity. Nor kindly do not misconstrue, And most of all do not negate The fact I love my solitude.
Idling away is inspiring Mind wandering afar Supine on the soft grass Every tuft cradling me Becoming a mediator Between the sky and Earth Earth holding me firm Sky is the vast canvas of my dreams Flying high with the winds Watching the birds fly Flapping their wings in coordination Mediating my earthly dreams With the celestial sphere Cocooning my simple dreams Idling away makes me happy