I stood on the bridge
Head dangling over the side
With dark waters below

I thought hard

So hard that my head started to spin
So hard that I couldn't breathe

And then I did nothing

I could have taken the plunge
All it would have took is a little step
A small push

But I didn't

I don't know if it was fear or willpower
That made me walk away

And somewhere in the back of my head
It felt like cowardice

I thought it was going to end

But tonight, I survived

I could put a bullet 
In me now
I could hand a rope 
To end it and die 

I could jump off a bridge 
Stop living this lie 
I could take the pills 
Without saying goodbye 

I can’t stop bleeding 
Will it stop me before my time
I can’t win this clichèd fight 
Are my own thoughts even mine

I can’t slow the sinking 
Will water fill my lungs or wine
I can’t refuse poison, it it the end of the tunnel 
This light and shine

I wish I die.
And  nobody will cry

you love me because you want to save me
but im not salvagable...
sometimes garbage is just garbage
and you should let it rot

Out of my little cage
Through the tall grass
My bare feet
Stepping into the wild woods

My skin aglow
Touched by the essence
Of the echoing howl
The rustling, abandoned leaves
Oh, the silenced trees

Amidst the wilderness
Swayed the blissful ecstasy
And as I touched, I snuffed
Rushing though my veins
As if my blood had no value
Ever

A wallflower, many wallflowers
My body off the ground
Heart out of chest
Oh, the delectation, the zest

Stay alive
Another day
To drink away
Another night

If I don't make you happy, I want you to go.
If you don't get the greatest sense of relief when my name appears on your screen, then I want you to go.
If arguing with me and thinking about the chance of losing me doesn't take your breath away then I want you to go.
If there is even the slightest doubt that I am the one for you
(even if only in this moment of your life), then I want you to go.
If you wake up and see that I tried to call you because you ignored
me the night before and you don't feel like a stupid idiot, I want you to go.
If I take too much of your time and you don't think you're doing the things you want to do, I want you to go.
If the idea of ​​my skin touching someone else and my voice whispering someone else's name doesn't make you bite your teeth and fill you with anger, I want you to go.
If you've said sorry so many times that even your subconscious mind already realizes it, I want you to go.
If the only time you say you love me is when I'm either not wearing clothes or telling you I never want to see you again, then I want you to go.
If you can look me in the eye and tell me you didn't kiss her, I want you to go.
If you are able to keep me up all night waiting for you while you go somewhere else to do something that you know will make me feel bad, then I want you to go as soon as possible.
-and if you don't love me enough to go, I totally understand that.

I do have a heart, it's here.
It's just broken, ripped, stood on and left in the rain.
And I feel it beating,
it just doesn't work anymore like it used to.