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lX0st Feb 2019
Dirt caked crust
Gives way
To layers of mantle
Above afflicted fireplace
Bearing picture frames
Bitter memories
Pride, then regret
Memento mori

I will not die here
Two tiers from hell
I feel it burning
In my core
Patiently waiting
To take me in pity
As I wish it had done
Before
s Willow Feb 2019
Second in two years.
God either has a plan for me
Or
He loves watching me suffer and doesn’t want it to end.
BlackWings Feb 2019
She said goodbye with a large smile
Like she wanna me to die
I don't want to suffer again
So i don't want to live then
I'm very sorry to exist
I'll never try again to resist

Tears are falling from my face
Maybe i'm heartbroken ?
I will never again disturb the fate
He would save me from myself
Or let me bleed my shades on herself

I died by overdose
Solve my problems by those
Because death is temporary
Anything you scared is contemporary
Like a crow on a fire hill
Even jesus has a doubt

I'm not bleeding anymore
Maybe i'm heartbroken ?
You want to give me more
Let become a myth
To haunt you in a last sight

Xoxo
I'm not sure of what i am
Tatiana Feb 2019
I walked into the ocean looking for Death
And I found myself quickly out of my depth.
My ears rang so loud; then I heard nothing.
I had gone deaf to my own suffering.
©Tatiana
i trusted you to guard my emotions
but somehow you captured my heart and managed to let darkness into my chambers
your attack managed to make my heart vulnerable
susceptible to breakage
and just when I thought your invasion was over
you decided to crush my heart to absolute fragments
an unforgivable plot
yet you were forgiven
and although it took me forever to rebuild after you
i would take you back in a second
and suffer all over again
i dont understand why I keep coming back to you
Words, they hurt sometimes
Whether kind or impolite,
Encouraging or ill-mannered,
They can still hurt.

They attack us when we least expect,
And when they get to us,
It’s like getting a barrage of bullets,
Piercing through the heart and soul,
Leaving a mark that will take time to heal.

Words can be manipulated, though,
To play with people’s feelings,
Feelings that are fragile like a plate in a china store,
Easily breakable and hard to fix,

Once words gain access to the feelings,
They can cause chaos to people,
Making them do stupid things for love,
Love that is not sincere to the person,
Love not being actual love.

Love is like a ticking time bomb,
Once started,
Only a matter of time before it blows up,
And when it blows up,

You realize,
That you were the one who set it off and detonated it yourself,
For that you fell into the snares of the manipulator of words,
And that the words they told you filled you with delight,
But yet at the same time,
Filled you with lies and insecurity,

You ask yourself,
Why do I do this,
But another one comes,
And you fall into the endless cycle of being hurt,
That hurts even more and more,
When it happens time after time.
The time it takes to heal,
Is never actually healed,
But the gouge on the heart and soul,
Is now deeper than ever,
And the words they say makes it sting with even worse pain.

You try to lessen the pain,
It never works,
To heal a broken heart and soul,
Has to be taken slowly with time and patience,

When that someone talks,
Hoping the words will heal,
To fix the broken heart
But end up with a healing poison,

The journey to recover may be long,
But it’s worth it in the end,
For you will be happy and content again,
But you heart will desire to be loved,
Like you were originally,

But it won’t ever be the same,
The way you love someone,
Trusting them and letting them in,
For being afraid of being hurt as you were before,

Hoping to hear them say the words,
I love you,
But all you hear is,
I love them. No more,

Those words,
Are like the final blows to the heart,
That it can’t handle no more,
Being ultimately shattered,
There’s no coming back,

Sinking deep down,
Like drowning in an endless pool,
In a pit of misery and sadness,
That you’ll never be able to come back,

Feelings being stirred,
Like flying debris around in a hurricane,
The words swirling around the head,
The feeling of a darkness is upon,

Discovering that,
This all started when,
They said the words of.
Hello.
jon Jan 2019
My thoughts
They are messed up
or
Am I messed up?
Say anything please, anything at all.
I just want to hear a familiar voice
I also want to know what's out there
Will you please talk to me?
Will you just give me one moment?
And then I promise, you can go
Until then your voice... will suffice
I don’t understand human needs
I never have
I didn't choose this
It’s as if they’ve chosen me all along
You chose me
You would never say though, would you?
You keep your thoughts inside that mind
How do you have the mental capacity?
Messy thoughts
It won’t let those thoughts out.
You’re guarded, why are you guarded?
Who made you suffer?
Made you the way you are...
Because even though it aches, it made you
so beautiful
Flawless, without effort
If you knew me before everything.
If we were together in another life.
My lips sewn shut, my hands bound
And my thoughts are disoriented.
A current excerpt of how I'm feeling right now.
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