I just don't understand, why this hurts so much.
We're still friends, so why can't I be happy and such.
I just miss her love,
Her care,
Her touch.
Things will get better, I'm sure they will.
But for now I have to deal with this pain that I feel.
I laid awake and watched her sleep.
As she dreamt her dreams, I couldn't help but think.
I want this to last, I want this to stay.
In the future will be better, I really hope it may.
I hope one day, we can continue where we once were.
Maybe then..
I'll be able to marry her.
I nonstop think, 'can I rub her back?.. or is that not allowed because of what we once had.'
I love her to death, I've never bonded so quickly.
Her love gives me motivation, and that will never leave me.
I trust her more than anyone, I've told her things I've never told.
But for now I must say goodbye, for my heart feels forever cold.
It's not her fault, for these feelings I hold.
For I fell too hard, I am the only one to blame, these love stories I've told.
But I can't get over, how broken I feel.
I wish by each passing star, that our love will someday heal.

Today, I wake up feeling okay
But this feeling is not as good
As when I wake up from a nightmare
Or from an empty dream
Today, I wake up  feeling alright
But a pillow filled with tears is better than alright
I'd rather cry at night
And be wrapped by your arms
be cuddled by your warm embrace
Today, I am feeling okay
But days with you are better than today

Someday
maybe one day, he says
I'll strum the strings of time
to echo vibrations from someday
till today

Someday
maybe one day, he says
I'll rearrange the stars
to spell "yes, they are!"
because it's truly bizarre

Someday
maybe one day, he says
I'll ask the moon how he copes
with the sun, every time he rises
and she sets

Someday
maybe one day, he says
I'll get the jar of wishes
and plant them in all of
my today's, my everyday's

Someday
maybe one day, he says
I'll lie on your side
and listen to memories of your breaths
and let them carry me into
deep slumber

Someday
maybe one day, he says
this roof will expand
to meet the ends of the earth
to be big enough to fit all our dreams

Someday
maybe one day, he says
I'll erase all dark days
and force the sun to rise
to new better days

Someday
maybe one day, he says
will be
"the day"

I have a crush
That is the fact of it

If she were you,
By you I mean reading this
I would blush

I don't really want you knowing how I feel.
Sorry not sorry.

How would you react?
Probably poorly.

I fear you would isolate
You wouldn't have to run
You live to far away.

But then because I am foolish I would try to win your heart.
I might as well try if you're hear

I would tell you that I love you like the moon loves the waters.
Even though both are pulled by the more practical sun,
They yearn for each other in matrimony

That's not good enough.

I would love you like a butterfly loves a flower
It does not concern itself with the circumstances around the flower.
It just lands because it knows it's where it belongs

That was bad

I love you in the way that I love you
This meaning I would love you till
Death do us part
I would help you threw
Good and bad
Happy and sad
I would love you like no person can

But you wouldn't fall for me.
I'm far to much of who I am.

There are things we all leave behind.

I left my heart today.

Maybe it will come back to me someday.

Em S.