You stand kicking at your shadow
While I'm tripping on your heartbreak
You follow the stars with your eyes
While mine follow you.
Between us, I'm at a loss to choose
Which one is the fool.

(The sun is somewhat dimmed, as though I'm looking through a film.)

Losing myself in the crinkles of your eyes
As you smile carelessly into the camera
I remember
The way you scrunch your nose a little
The way your lips remind me of cherry blossoms

(It's a little cold here. The temperature is falling.)

Even as I lay in bed shivering and battling my fever
I remember the nights you wished you were here
The nights you work as a bartender, carelessly picking up girls over the counter
Do you serve them all poisoned holy grails?

(A hollow whirring. That's the sound I hear when my ears are blocked.)

Your favorite song plays in the background
I remember
When you said my voice was soothing
When you said I meant something
Ed Sheeran probably didn't mean it
But now I cringe with every note of his

(The brightness before me is blurring. Are those my tears or is it just the water?)

It was beautiful, really
But pink sakura petals do not bloom in this region
Even the colour pink is distressing to me
Since we matched in winter through spring

(You nicked my heartstrings. How do I mend it?)*

I find you in all the little things
Cigarettes, temples, business trips, huskies,
Harry Potter, Radler, Netherlands, salmon,
Macaroons, banana man, an 18 grand television

Round and round, the second hand runs on the face
The sun goes down and down, signing off the days
Round and round, you're running in my head
I go down and down till I reach the seabed

touch me gently through the screen,
grab me fiercely in my dreams,
take me up into your arms and
twirl me into a land of make believe
tell me tender love is true
in our tiny world just fit for two
timeless beauty,
how I weep, for we’re apart
till I find sleep
how I pine throughout the day
to commit to slumber and
hide away

I miss you, unknown.
I miss you fiercely and wholeheartedly.

I miss the idea of you,
the concept of your soft curls against my cheek,
my face tucked into your neck.

I am the longing bull,
huffing and grunting impatiently
with ardent eyes, mouth full of fervor
for your crimson presence.

I am the sailing boat, the fisherman,
humming with quiet and unmoving anticipation
for the melody of your song to ring through space.

I miss you.
I miss you in my fingertips and in my brain.
I miss you in my knees and in the depth of my ***** and
in my ritual I roam through sunny days looking for your cool hands
and on the cold days I freeze on the inside and I do not speak.

I miss everything I don't know about you.
I miss everything I thought I knew about you and
I miss not knowing
and wanting to know.

at times the guilt of it all churns my stomach,
to know that letting go of you may burn me on my soft edges
but might keep whole.
the sting of the brutal realisation that your light is not mine to melt my wings for.

still
time after time
I simply miss you.
I miss the idea of you.
I miss you, unknown.

Timid rays of the morning glow
Shy to step,out of the clouds
Shyer still, to fall into the arms
Of the darkness open wide.

Twilight waits with baited breath
For its moment of retreat,
can never be, until consummate
That  celestial celebrate.

Bashful now, and amorously
Those golden beams descend
And the twain does meet.
The light and night
Births new destiny.

As the twain in embrace dwells
Sublime their souls entwined.
Glorious light adorns the skies
While night closes his eyes.

Oh golden ray that filled my night,
Resplendent dazzling bright
Timidly tho you did step out
Of the clouds of wasted time.

Now you've filled my sky with light
My night has closed his eyes,
Warm embrace of your sanguine smiles
The luster of your laughter sprite.

Each day awakens and night goes by
Longs ever more for you.
My soul awaits your tender rays,
Your touch yea your embrace!

Tis past midnight and all alone
Where's comradeship and love??
A world that's gone to sleep
Has no room for a lonely soul
The sounds of snores around
But none , to ease your qualms.

Laugh and the world laughs with you
Cry and you cry all alone
what you lost none other has
What you missed,has none other
Your pains are yours alone
Your gains many to share
Your sorrows you alone to bear


No shoulder to call your own
Laughing faces many all day
But none the kinship of pain
All with you when smiles abound
None when heartaches sear
Laugh and the world laughs with you
Cry and you cry all alone.

Once they laughed with you
Now sleeping still and sound
Their means to life, have found.
But you all lost and stiff
Oh Chardonnay and spice
My comrades for life
My pains you understand

Love is a cheat untrue
There's nothing more uncouth
It's just a word for fools
No grain of truth no proof
None cares no one tears.

None's there's a waiting for you
No supper warm, no hearth
All alone you are, you are
Come home to me myself

You thought love's a great word
But living is only by bread
Love fills not the stomach
What fills does matter, nothing else!!

Don't laugh don't cry just live
She was not not yours, not yours never!
Naught can change the course, survival
Bread and water, no butter no jam.

Laugh and the world laughs with you
Cry and you cry as you do!!
Tis past midnight and you all alone
That's your life and you live it as you do.

My love, today,as you touch the skies
Look down and sure you'll see
A forlorn banner flying free
Emblazoned with love for thee
The words you read upon it
with the brush of my soul inscribed
Tells of the unrequited yearning
Of my  heart, yours ever to be .

And as your gaze draws a closer
A passion a blazing you'll see
A life consumed in the fire
That burns with desire for thee.
Years, months and hours
of solemn wait tirelessly
For moments of joy a spending
My love, with you endlessly.

Your pictures in my mind I treasure
Each one of them preciously
A story together is woven
Though none of them includes me.
But the embers of hope still burning
Someday will I closely be
Never to bid you goodnight
No mornings where you, I won't see

You melted
in my hands
and then I
drank you up.
Now you've
turned, to
ice and stone
-and I
can't help
but choke.

your lips are cherries, stained with wine––
how'd they taste pressed against mine?