You call me a dreamer
Who's the one who says "I love you"
To a complete stranger
Every day?

I'm over it.
I'm over feeling the need to ignore you all the time.
I'm over you acting as if we were never together.
I'm over feel like I need to avoid you all the time.
I'm over thinking about our relationship every day.
I'm over missing you and me being a couple.
I'm over wishing what happened was a dream.
I'm over you acting like I never existed all the time.
I'm over wishing that I could just be with you again.
I'm over wanting to text you every day when I'm home.
I'm over all of it.
But my heart might never be over it.

I'm not gonna let that keep me on the ground, JETPACK!
When I encounter a setback, press that button ignite my JETPACK!
Launch pad shrinks, disappear. Fly through atmosphere.
Plasma's tingling and I'm hearing the words that occur to me for no reason. What am I alive for? What will I die for? Why do I believe to others I'm an eye sore?
Am I fueled by another engine, Depression and Aggression, Confusion and agitation, Fly away on my JETPACK!

I remember those rainy nights when I would lock myself in my room.
Because I didn't want to become a victim of your hurtful words & fits of rage.
Nothing was ever the way it was supposed to be when it came to us.
& maybe it was better that way .
Because in the end everything that was wrong for other people
Was right for us
But I left you
And all that I had ever loved was taken away from me that night.
The long, run out love letters
The high pitched weeping filled voicemails .
It made me realize
That the endless yelling & countless fights
Were all for not .
& all trickled down to one more sweet love song I could no longer sing
Because now
It was no longer in my key.

you've moved on
and so have i but that doesn't
make it hurt any less
we were almost something but then  
you stopped looking me in the eyes when we talked
that was always one of my favorite things about you,
you're very good at eye contact
and making me feel like im the only person in the room with you
the car rides spent singing our favorite songs abruptly ended
you stopped lingering when the night was over
i was always mad because you wouldn't kiss me
even though you told me you wanted to
i remember saying "if you want to just do it"
but you never did
i was okay with it, glad that it wasn't the reason
we were alone
but i think you didn't kiss me because
you never planned on staying

Eyes steadfast upon a black horizon
Unmoving body lays breathing
Pain at every breath
Silent screams echo internally
Weary mind
Lonely heart
A beating heart in a lifeless body
Stitches begin to unravel
Repeat of defeat upon my life
Even ghosts do not linger like me
A vain effort achieved
A pain forever unshakeable

Maybe the majority of your malice march is fueled with fire;
fictionalized by myself. Simply because my greatest desire is
currently to avoid knowing that you long to hurt me. Dear, let
me tell you this; **I know everything.