As I am entering another realm.
My mind like a falcon takes the helm.
My body finds a bright hue
Just so I could find you

I wanted to find the alluring.
Come to together for love that is occurring.
Only because of nature we are stirring.
We have a magnificent fray that is appearing.

You taught me how to fly.
With my wings soaring high.
Your love was blind.
With my shadow following down from the sky.

The light that followed so bright.
I was an outcast in the others sight.
You took me in while others thought I was frightful.
Taught me things I did not know were possible.

We were not the righteous.
Although what we received money can not buy us.
Can we stay aflight forever.
Be unrespected never.

We can hold hands.
Far away from the others we can.
Only one person is meant for me.
In that I truly see.

it's unfair that i helped build this home
just for you to knock it down
i slaved for this
and look how i wound

a dead horse isn't beaten as bad as me
for i haven't been put out of my misery
i have been left
to feel like an outcast for eternity

how did you do it
how did you make my place
my sanctuary
into such a disgrace

6th grade... we were friends
7th... we were best friends
I remember the day
We decided
How our lives were going to continue
together
inseparable
classmates thought we were twins
8th grade... we grew closer
I told you I needed you
I cried in front of you
I revealed my biggest secret
to you
and with your help
I came out
but then
you found others
and our circle grew
It was okay
for a while
but as you became extroverted
and popular
and liked
I became an outcast
I didn't realize it at the time
But it was so obvious
At the end of that year
I started to see
How you thought I was clingy
Messed up
A burden
You were my only friend
And you hated me
But you were too nice to let me know
The last day of school came
we promised we'd get together
but days came and passed
I never saw you
you never texted
9th grade has come
you don't even look at me like a friend
I had a panic attack today
in front of you
not intentionally
but I would have hoped you could have helped
and you just watched
as I burned from within
I knew for some time
but now its all to obvious
You never liked me
You never will
But really
you were all I had

I hate it when the days are too sunny
Under the glaring light, I can’t see
And in the constant heat, I get dizzy
But that’s just me

I don’t want to be the only one
The one outcast in the crowd
So I do what everyone wants to be done
And never say my opinions out loud

I always say what they want to hear
I always smile at what they say
Sometimes I feel like they’re my puppeteer
And I get tired of doing it every day

Why do I feel like I have no control?
I want to love myself
My body, my mind, and my soul
But I feel like I should be like everybody else

Life feels like a challenge
Do I want to have fun or win?
It’s hard to find a balance
Where do I begin?

I love it when the days are foggy
There's comfort in the tranquility.
It when my thoughts aren’t as cloudy
And when I’m not as full of uncertainty
I know that I’m different from you
I may not be what you want me to be
And I might have a different type of view
But that’s just me

I see them, the others like me

I see their eyes in search of others searching
The lonely, the longing, the temptation
I see it all because when I look in the mirror
I see it in my reflected eyes as they stare back

I'm so lonely i'm invisible as the other eyes around glaze over me
I am pellucid to the open world around me, cloaked by fear
I long to reach out to those who also shy away from the crowd
Who have those eyes empty and heavy with the desperation

Yet I tremble as I take those steps towards them
I smile and ready my hands, but pull away before I reach them
Before I get the chance to tell them that I see them
Because this feeling inside tears my hands away from those I long to grasp