I've said all the things I've wanted to tell you to myself,
I've visited the nooks crannies of my hurt by myself,
I've also watched the finale of our favorite show by myself,
Have I tied enough of my loose ends?

If you were here, would you be happy for me?

I've told things about myself I never thought I'd tell,
I've thought things about you, I never thought I'd think
I've forgotten what your favorite dish was; Pasta? Pad Thai?
I seem to have no clue

If you were here, would you be happy for me?

I've been sleeping lately, at night
I don't stay up
It doesn't feel like I can't breathe,
It doesn't feel like I can't swallow,
It doesn't feel like tomorrow is worthless.

If you were here, would you be happy for me?

These days, when I think of you,
It still hurts a little
I still wonder what you're up to
But it doesn't **** me not to know.

If you were still here, would you be happy for me?

the tears
staining my pillow
were not
for the fact that i was missing

but the fact
that i was not
missed