Meghss

Meghss May 2020

I know I don't want to in my life
Because when I think of you,

I think of pain.

Meghss May 2020

Wolves

Among all the truths, he told me the one that would have wolves run
He told me of his curse
He told me of his failure
He told me why it failed

Taking a drag of his cigarette
I got bored. he told me
He said he was bored and didn't want to do anything about it.
For a second, my heart beat faster than the normal 72
He sounded heartless, he looked stone-like
I had never seen this side of him

I braced myself for the inevitable
Don't worry, he said
I hope that never happens to us

But that wasn't enough for me.

#fear

Meghss May 2020

Cruelty

I tried to scare him away with the cruelty that breathes in the world
The cruelty that had groped me
He didn't run as I had hoped
I felt a sudden disappointment and then a strange kind of happiness seeped into my skin
The kind I did not understand

Seven months later I sit with myself and smile at that memory
He didn't need something like that to drive him away
Time could do that just fine.

#time #irony

Meghss May 2020

Dive

The thing about love is, that if we do not know how to love,
Then we end up hurting the other person

So it is fair to dive in? Knowing that your diving in could possibly hurt the other person more than it would hurt you?

#jump #fall

Meghss May 2020

Comfort

Comfort is for those who slumber,

I dream in thousands and the waves hit in millions
I dream of all my memories

#longing #sleep

Meghss May 2020

Loose Ends

I've said all the things I've wanted to tell you to myself,
I've visited the nooks crannies of my hurt by myself,
I've also watched the finale of our favorite show by myself,
Have I tied enough of my loose ends?

If you were here, would you be happy for me?

I've told things about myself I never thought I'd tell,
I've thought things about you, I never thought I'd think
I've forgotten what your favorite dish was; Pasta? Pad Thai?
I seem to have no clue

If you were here, would you be happy for me?

I've been sleeping lately, at night
I don't stay up
It doesn't feel like I can't breathe,
It doesn't feel like I can't swallow,
It doesn't feel like tomorrow is worthless.

If you were here, would you be happy for me?

These days, when I think of you,
It still hurts a little
I still wonder what you're up to
But it doesn't **** me not to know.

If you were still here, would you be happy for me?

This is a free write, so know that it's as pure as it is private. But I'd like you to share this with anyone who can relate to the feeling of longing.

#memories #past #happiness #missed #breakup

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