You start small, then cut deeper over time. Once you start you won't
ever want to stop.
2. You grow a tolerance towards the pain, and after a while, it won't hurt anymore.
3. Finding sharp blades becomes a new found hobby.
4. Hiding your cuts and scars becomes an everyday task, and it only gets harder.
5. You find yourself gravitating to the need for negativity.
6. Sadness literally consumes your life, you'll be drowning in your own apathy.
7. Before you shower, you think to yourself, "just a few little cuts on my arm, no one will notice," then
next thing you know one cut becomes two, then two becomes 7, and now there's blood dripping onto the cold
tile of your bathroom floor again, and you can barely see the color of your own skin.
8. You get paranoid, thinking everyone has seen your cuts, and next thing you know, you're wearing
sweaters in the summer, never showing your skin.
9. Once the scars fade, your arm will be clean. It'll be a fresh canvas to paint your twisted idea of
beautiful art.
10. And when you're finally clean from all things bad, you'll have to face the fear of relapse, and when you finally
do start again, your disappointment causes the whole cycle to begin again, watching yourself fade back into
who you used to be; the person you never wanted to see again. So please, don't ever start hurting yourself.
This may be triggering, and please please don't ever start hurting yourself.
