They've all moved to L.A now.
Their temples alit by silver screen
belief in Hollywood dreams.

Pilgrims travel from all around
to new sanctuaries;
to New Delphi,

to see them in the flesh,
their idols who have fallen from
the light polluted skies.

Carved and polished out of Parian marble
And pasted onto magazines.
Sculptured into new realities.

Still the priestesses; the press,
will whisper the gossip
from high in the clouds.

Alone in my head, it's dark, i'm scared
Shaking in fear, can i be repaired?

Long days and thoughts fighting for attention
Body wired so full of tension

Alone again with my twisted thoughts
Such anger at myself
And this emptiness haunts

Letting go...so hard to do
It's not so simple to be made anew

Frustration in myself with things i cant share
Cause there's no one here
And i'm stuck in thinking "who would even care?"

Sharing my darkness,...such a hard task
Not wanting to burden those that ask

Ive been this way since i can remember
I stoked the fires and tended the embers

Taken away all im left with is my pain
Im wrapped in glass and held down by chains
All i want is to feel safe again...

I told you before
you are lovely
You said something like
no never not me

Well then maybe
I will take a photo
so you can know
how by this man's eyes
You are seen

A masterpiece of composition
Perfect like beautiful days

A song that maybe only
I will be humming
in all the loveliest
of lovely ways

Beauty is held
by the beholder
So that all might not
have to agree

Lovely is held
in a separate place
So that heartstrings
entwined believe

I will tell you again
You are lovely
Maybe you'll think
Then so you say

We will not need
to look at a photo
Yet you will know
You are truly lovely
In such a beautiful way

-R.

6.21.17
-LA
-4S

Remember
The last time We were
in Dallas together

That place where We met
We loved and We lived
and where We were
so very alive in Our time

There in the beautiful city
Resplendent and Refined
Where we spent Our moments
in love in life
and the quiet vibrant
Love of Life

Remember
That last time
We went back home
to Dallas

On that day we awoke
in the early morning
When I asked if you
were ready to leave

You stepped gracefully
to embrace me
You said We had time
Do you think We might...
please

You knowing surely
without a doubt
you never needed
to plead

We made love
like We knew
that We meant it
We made love
that isn't made fast

We made love
in the joys
of pleasing each other
A love that would always
however still last

We soon then
were on our way
on a beautiful bright
late Fall day

To see someone
back home

You there then
golden and glorious
Happy and smiling
Sipping on a Sunkist
citrus soda

We put the car on cruise
and We sailed away
Slipping quickly from
the rustic western country

To merge swiftly
into the flow of
the magnificent city
Toward the inbound
expressway

Remember the majestic
towering skyscrapers
as we made the loop
around downtown

The red flying Pegasus
still flying on
as the emblem
of Our hometown

Reunion Tower
and the magic of light
The Top of the Dome Club
at the top of the world
Such wonderful times
at the top of Our life

Remember Our date there
when We were yet still young
that lasted the afternoon
Throughout the evening and
all that beautiful night long

For You then my Lady
A perfect Chardonnay wine
For me Johnny Walker
on the rocks

All to perfectly bind
the heart and mind
To a wondrous moment
Overswept yet fixed in time

You by my side as
I always had hoped
Like that very last time
We were in Dallas
together back home

We made our stop
to meet with a doctor friend
He knew what I could never
believe and what I never
wanted to have had
to comprehend

You were gone by measures
You were gone by degree
You were going
and near hopelessly
gone unto me

Yet I still hoped
and believed

The last time
We went back home
to Dallas together again

But still on the way back
from Our bright shining city
to what would become
the darkest of desolations

You still were happy
or so it seemed
You were bright and beautiful
like in a perfect dream

We stopped at a restaurant
I ate a lot...but You did not
You stepped away for a minute
and then I met you at the car

When We got back
to that place
where together
We last lived
We embraced and
You said again...
please

Surely You never
would have ever
needed to plead

We first lay there
together a moment
to recover Our strength
Entwined together
You and me

Then We there
were immersed within
that precious moment
When all of beautiful
intimate art is
expressed in life

And all of love
becomes perfectly
tragic art

There is where
I felt the trickle
of Your tears
as they fell down
onto my chest

And then there
upon my heart

After that last time
We were back
home in Dallas
together.

Remember Dallas.
We always
will have Dallas.

-R.

7/17/17
-LA


-4MAR

I mourn you for all
that was stolen
I mourn you for all
that was lost

I mourn you that
You were betrodden
Until nothing was
left that once was

Your life had
a beautiful reason
You can't be accused
of living in vain

Your days were made full
of goodness that's lasting
Yet the tragedy of all
that's about you remains

Cry me
because I'm here
without you
Cry you
because you're
gone far away
Cry We
that we lost
all We treasured

I mourn Your loss
forever somewhere
beyond my very last day.

-R.

6.23.17
-LA


-4MAR

I knew that I truly
did love Her
when I could not bear
to see Her heart be hurt

I knew how much
I surely did care
when I could not bear
to see Her cry

Knowing the grief
She encountered
was darkness
rising against
Her beautiful grace

I knew I always
would love Her
from the moment
tears first caressed
Her angel face

I knew I never
could leave Her
awash in a
tragedy of loss

I knew how much
I loved Her
When Her tears
fell freely at such
a very precious cost

Her anguish was shared
there in my heart of hearts
My arms ached
to embrace Her sorrow

With Her until
beyond the end
I believed We would
always share tomorrow

I knew Our bond
was established
upon the first
glistening mist
in Her eye

I knew I truly
did love Her
When I could not bear
to see Her cry.

-R.

6.15.17
-LA

-4MAR

I never could not love you
All the hours and minutes
every precious moment
again with You I would do

To hold you as I held you
as my lover and best friend
A true love now shattered
yet still affection
that never ends

My prayers are incessant
for the you that now is lost
I hope you will remember
and think back
to what then was

Think of Us always when
We were still yet young
A Love We shared together
that forever is
forever real

I never could not love you
and I suppose
I never will

So when you get to Heaven
and you see that
I'm not there

Remember
I could never
not love You
the way You were
even in the
depths of all Hell.

-R.

(10.14.16)
-LA

-4MAR

I speak your name
on certain special days
To remember the way
you then once were

There in the perfect
bloom of your life
Beautiful brilliant
beloved and bright

I whisper your name
on that day
you were born
and the day
that We first met

On that day
We first made love
and on that precious day
We wed

And then upon
that tragic day
You were forever
gone to stay

I hear myself
speak your name
through all the years
that have come and gone

Reverently
I will speak your name
on certain special days
as long as I should live

You will know
I shall and did
love you
forever all along.

-R.

8.1.17
-LA


-4MAR

You didn't give me
a chance to say goodbye
before you went away

I waited for minutes
and hours and days
But when you left
you were gone to stay

Leaving me alone
in the world We made

The place
were We lived
was abandoned
of all that was
precious and dear

Nothing there
was left living
I barely survived
in despair

If only I'd more
than a moment
for those words
I never could say

The words
I never could utter
The saddest words
that could ever be said

I never had a chance
to say goodbye
before you went
and we're gone

Leaving me there
in the world We made
by myself and alone

Take care my Darling
Via con Dios my Love.

-R.

2.18.17

-LA

-4MAR

I knew Her as an angel
She is remembered as a ghost
Haunting every memory
with love that now is lost

Her ways were
near to perfect
until the shadows
touched Her soul
The bitter winds
they overtook Her
far more fierce
than She could hold

Now the hauntings
of Our memories
and the tragedy
that did befall
is all that's left
me to remember
of the angel whose
name I once did call

Beauty then to darkness
as the shadows
haunting pause
Reveal a ghost before me
where an angel
there once was

Remembering an angel
when surely She is lost
I turn and focus onward
Righteous vengeance
then my cause.

-R.

(12.16)

-LA
-4MAR