i miss you when things get hard

i miss your gentle voice and understanding

i miss your presence, sweet and commanding

i miss how you knew exactly what to say

i miss how you always brightened my day

but I really only miss you when things get hard

your love for me was completely unmarred

and I want to call and say I miss you

but I know it’s not entirely true

i miss the way you supported me

and saw me for all the things I could be

i don’t miss how we were

i miss the way you made me feel secure

- insecurity

And once again she catches me
trying to impress her
and I admit it.
We could be bonded a hundred years,
old and gray,
and I would still
climb the tallest mountain,
slay the fiercest dragon,
write the most heartfelt song,
I'd sing it all day
and night long,
to show you I care,
and hope I'm enough.
The past is the past,
but everyone left
when my spectacle dimmed,
and time and time again
was forgotten.
Set aside.
Left to dust.

Don't take much to shatter,
what's already bruised & battered.
Cant say "no offence intended"
Cause the content of the next sentence
you spew,  you know wont flatter.

The intention is to hurt.
Grind your target into dirt.
Passed off as a joke
****, felt my self confidence just broke.

Putting in all that work
takes courage to believe in your self worth
only to have people on a mission
sharing all their criticism
non-constructive just destructive
making you question all decisions
till the mind can only think in tunnel vision

brings you to the point when your alone
all those affirmations become monotone
cant draw inspiration cause all feeling has turned to stone
Some take it to heart till all they long for is to turn into bone

Too insecure to just be me
Longing someday to be set free
A four, wing five I.N.F.P.
I am my own worst enemy
A prisoner trapped inside me
Wishing I could be happy