Every time i hear the word soulmate i hear her name every time the wind whistles in my face it reminds me of the way her hair melted across my cheeks i clutch my eyes shut thinking im dreaming to open and see its a dream come true, her love makes me forget how it feels to want my life to be through forget how it feels to feel alone even now she is away i still feel her i still smell her i still crave her the way she makes me feel beats any drug i dont want anything but her love

I got mad,
made suicidal tweets on twitter,
then I get a notification.

You, a friend who I haven't talk to for a long time,
direct messaged me,
and ask me if I was alright.

I felt happy in that moment,
that someone cared.
And that someone was you.

You called me after,
assured that I do not harm myself.
We talked for an hour and i never felt so happy.

Thank you,
for calling me,
Thank you for listening.

If you hadn't,
I would have scars and,
My demon would have been dancing in happiness tonight.

my inner demon tells me,
that if doesn't want me to die.

my inner demon is not a friend,
it enjoys seeing me suffer.

my inner demon laughs in joy,
at the cuts and scars I have.

my inner demon pulls me back and forth,
the cliff of misery.

my inner demon smiles in amusement,
when the people I know leave me.

my inner demon pour alcohol on my wounds,
when I'm crying.

my inner demon consumes me entirely,
and I to surrender to it.

my inner demon holds me captive,
and I to to be inflicted of pain for it's happiness.

little devil,
when will you leave me?

consume me,
fully.

eat me entirely.

*I don't want to suffer anymore.