I know, I know
I know, I know…

My best friend calls it a lie. Whether that is true or false I know it's worthy of a try. it's unrealistic, it's impossible, it's weird, “or so they say”. could it be a trick? I know my feelings aren’t exactly as clear as day.

I always have the need to be with said someone, whose name I can't even disclose. It’s my affection that I need to decompose. But I just want to hold her tight and never let go. tell her how I feel, how I really feel.
Why is it that this thing I can't let go moves so slow? Is it just an endless pit of sorrow? Is it even real?
so I guess

I know I know
I know I know…

love is not real.

“or so they say”

The hours stretch, a silent ache,  
Each minute trembles, each breath I take.  
The phone sits still, no message bright,  
As I wait through another lonely night.

I wonder if you think of me,  
Or if I'm lost, a memory.  
The world moves on, and yet I stay,  
Hoping you’ll reach out today.

I watch the screen, a glimmering glow,  
But it’s empty—no sign, no show.  
What is it that I’m waiting for?  
A voice, a word, or something more?

Maybe I’m just a fleeting thought,  
A dream you’ve left, a love you’ve sought.  
But still, I wait, despite the ache,  
For your call that never wakes.

The air is soft and warm
Each breath in
Is like a hug to my soul
Each breath out feels fragile
Like I’m letting you go
Is this the scent of love
Freshly bloomed and new
Scared to exhale too hard
At the risk of losing you
If this is what love smells like
I want to hold my breath forever
So I’ll breathe very gently
While I write my love letter


The sun warms the world we share
Every breath is honey-sweet
Each moment is ripe
Like fruit from a tree
Is this
The scent of love
Soft and golden in hue
Wrapping itself around me
Enlightening every moment with you


But as the seasons begin to change
I guess feelings do too
Does the smell of love fade
Like the autumn leaves do
What once felt like life
Feels like a breeze whispering doubts
The warm air that once held us close
Is cooler and distant now


The aftermath of love
Feels like I’m breathing in snow
My lungs
Now cold and dry
Feel empty and hard like stone
I miss the scent of your love
The sweet sweet bloom
Even the fading
Was something to hold on to
Was this the smell of love
Or just four seasons of lust
Was this something real
Or just a long winded gust

I don’t share often because my walls are so high up
I fear that if I bring someone too close they’ll stab my sensitive heart
Trust is a delicate thing
Something my heart thinks irrelevant
If you ask me if im loveable I’ll tell you “I hope so”
My mind says no
But my heart screams against the metal bars that “My love will come down like a Tsunami, just please don’t leave me”
I’m begging you to stay
Don’t be another person who will walk away
I want to love someone who will at least look my way
I tell someone I like them and they say “I like you too”
What a fucken liar
You decided to leave me anyways
I fear to utter the words again
To either be rejected or played
So I’m looking at you and thinking will you do the same?