That day i woke up
and felt like shattering
in the vastness of the universe.
That day i slept
and felt like losing my existence
in the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind (name of a beautiful movie).
That day i ate
and felt like dying by that venom
in the never ending anxiety of my heart.
That day i ran
and felt the distance unceasing
in the infinity of my laziness.
That day i loved
and felt like disappearing a little more
in the ridiculousness of fate
so thin
so fragile
like a drying rose petal.

up, down, drop, and roll
weigh your life and take control
let God be your guide.

So many acquaintances on social media,
But no friends in reality.
All alone in this world.

I check my phone to see zero messages,
No one checking up on me,
No one wishing me "Merry Christmas."
Everyone enjoying in their own world, be it with blood or be it friends.

Loneliness is the only thing that I'm surrounded with.

I'm all alone.

All alone in this world.

Always forlorn.

No one knows me; no one cares about me.

I'm just a lonely person with a phone in hand crying over pointless things.

would you love me
if you lived inside of me
because i hate it here
you’ll never see me
i used to hide
in fragments of myself
often i want to hold back
sometimes i think it’s the only way
to keep you from leaving one day

if so,
we’ll always have may