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Amanda Kay Burke Mar 2021
You get my hopes up just to slash them back down
Yet for some reason I still want you around
You play games with my heart
**** with my mind
So why am I unable to leave you behind?
I know in my head I am better off alone
But my soul is convinced that you are its home
So no matter how many times you leave me broken
All it takes to gain forgiveness is a few sweet words spoken
By now I have learned that your recycled phrases are lies
Yet they somehow still retain the power to make feelings rise
It's like you are an expert at getting under my skin
I try so hard to stay strong but when it comes to you I never win
My worst addiction
My sweetest crutch
I hate the fact that i need you so much
That no matter how bad you treat me my love never wavers
Each minute of your attention is sixty seconds I savor
But its apparent that you don't care about me the same
This on-off routine is driving me insane
I wish for just once you would open up to me
And be honest about everything you are scared to let me see
I love you unconditionally although I dont why
So you can trust me with vulnerable parts you hide
I thought I was your ride or die but now I realize that's not true
Because if it were it would still be me right next to you
You threw away our relationship without a second thought
Now you think it's that easy to waltz back in my life
Well it's not
You have hurt me too much for me to put myself through it twice
You claim to love me but how can you?
Your heart is made of ice
I would have never done you like you did me wrong
But I am grateful you did because it's made me strong
The pain I have suffered at your careless hand
Has given me room to grow and understand
You just miss me when you are lonely
It isnt fair
You have no intention on actually being there
But it's my fault I guess for giving you another chance
Fully aware that you are now involved in a completely new romance
I dont know if I am stupid or if you were right when you said
That I get off on sadness so I amplify it in my head
Why else would i make choices that i know will lead to bad?
Any rational person would be done with you but i am simply mad
So i endure more torment as you manipulate and deceive
I cannot any longer put the blame on me being naive
I've grown wise to your tricks yet I still participate
Because deep down I believe we were brought together by fate
We had something special and something truly rare
I dont think it's possible for anyone else to compare
If you are happier with her than you were with me
Than I won't interfere
I'll let you two be
But if you cant stop thinking about my face
Then go with your gut and return to my embrace
Sigh
Nylee Feb 2021
No one catch up to me
I am far too gone

There is no map to place I go
There are no lingering footsteps to where I am

You'd miss me
for a day or two
but then, time fixes it
and I'd be a distant memory
Maria Mitea Feb 2021
it's sad. but happy.
lonely. but not the only one,
a spark of calmness. but a blister of days.
light waiting for the ****** night.
the joy of. what also grows life. to be meaningless.
Nylee Feb 2021
Go
Jet set
Let's leave
Leaving no trace behind
Like we never existed.

Let's escape to another world
It is not strange
If we stayed any longer
We'd bleed out
sweat, dreams and blood,
eventually like all others do.
And now our story has ended.
We've said what had to be said.
We just went around in circles.


The world kept spinning and so did my mind.
I loved you but now I just hate you.
We just kept spinning in the same tangled lines.
Like we're constantly stuck in each others minds.


I let go not because I wanted to.
I let go because I had to choose myself this time over choosing you.
Circles that's what it felt like with you.
Stuck in a never ending nightmare of unloving myself just to love you.


You said my feelings are temporary, that I always ended up pushing you away.
What you didn't see was that it was you that pushed me away, when you hid and darkened parts of you just to show me the sides you wanted me to see.


I opened up my doors to you, gave you the keys to the doors that I've left locked for a long time.
But we just went around in circles, because your words and promises never materiliased.


And in the end... we were really just strangers, with memories best left locked up, because we never really knew each other.
Go there where you wanted to be,
Where your heart is,
Where you can find your happiness,
Where your soul matters,
Where you can feel free…

Go there where the sun can make you feel good
About your existence,
When the moon plays her sorrows with the finest grace,
Where the gifted are loved and not hated,
Where all promises won’t hurt.

Go there, where you deserve,
Go there, where you can handle all thing well,
Go there, where your soul matters!
For you to decide what all this means to you...
I may only wish you well...
Enjoy your lives! _ and have a beautiful afterlife
Lo Jan 2021
For the girl who stays
Up thinking too much,
Clear your tears and
Kick your worries to the curb.

For once
Exhale the heaviness you carry, the
Emptiness you try to fill with
Little things that don’t matter.
Instead, wear that bumble bee hat, with
No cares about who likes it or who
Gives a **.
Simply let go and live.
Cardboard-Jones Jan 2021
You would tell me “Everything’s better with time.”
That everything’s gonna be fine.
But I’m still waiting.
The truth is time has forgotten about me.
I can’t recognize anyone I see.
Anxiety’s invading.

So I ask the stars to show me where I belong.
I’m so tired of being strong.
No, I cannot stay here.

You remind me of everything I said back then.
I was so naive back then.
Oh how I’ve learned.
But I’m barely put together by glue.
I don’t know if I’ll make it through.
Anxiety’s returned.

So don’t ask me where I belong.
I’m so tired of being wrong.
So don’t ask that of me.
I just know I cannot stay here.

No, nothing about this says home.
I cannot stay here.
No, I’m just a stranger, I’m just alone.
I cannot stay here.
No, I don’t know where I will go,
But I cannot stay here.
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