shut up! i have more friends than you!
and we always get along.
i just sprinkle some sugar and watch from my window
and hear them sing their songs!
now they don’t stay very long,
but it's a small price to pay.
real friends sacrifice, plus
their hearts would burst if they stayed.
but it's okay, really!
i could never let them die.
they say distance makes the heart grow fonder,
and i know they’d never lie.
they just love me so much…
what?! i’m not alone, what do you mean?
i have more than i could ever want! in fact,
they say that i’m their queen.
Boys like you are evil
I swear loving you is lethal
Wear a caution sign, since your so deceitful
Boys like you draw me in with your lies
But then you shove me away, I vaporize
I just stand and watch
Boys like you think that I’m a toy you can play with
Just someone to remind that they are sht
You took the key to my heart, now I have to call a goddmn locksmith
Boys like you always twist the knife
You take my breath away, this is close from losing my life
You just sat there watching with no strife
Boys like you always pull my strings,
Pinning together my wings,
Counting girls like me, like wins
Boys like you always kick the bucket
I’m just your little puppet
Am I supposed to love it, because I don’t like this
Boys like you have this ultimate power over me
I’m stuck in prison, I just want to be freed
The walls are high up and no one hears my plea
Boys like you think it’s okay to f* with my feelings
But don’t you know it’s not okay for you to be stealing
Swiping hearts, watching them try healing
When you say my name that way - I want to hear you say it over again
When your smile that goofy smile of yours - I want to do it along with you
When you brush my skin - I want to touch you more
When you talk to me - I want to hear you more
When you walk near me - I want to come near you
When you're with me - I want my heart to stop beating soo fast
I love the things you do
Don’t say my name - cause I know I won’t hear it often
Don’t smile - because I know I’m not the reason you’re doing it
Don’t touch me - because I know you won’t do it more
Don’t talk to me because they aren’t the ones I want to hear you say
Don’t walk near me - because I know you don’t want me by you
Don’t be with me - because it hurts
I hate the way it makes me feel
Ha. If you think that this poem is about you... It's not. The person this is about wouldn't even care about this or even be reading this anyway.
We are like skew lines
We are not parallel
But we can't intersect as well
In three-dimensional geometry, skew lines are two lines that do not intersect and are not parallel, because they lie in different planes.
No one is here
It's empty, she said
It's cold, she whispered
It's dark, she thought
"Forever alone" they laughed
"Forever alone" she cried
She's a viral joke yet to be said
She's a mystery yet to be solved
She's a safe yet to be discoverd
She is Jane Doe
You are drifting, for you have given up on swimming.
There is nothing tied to you, although the red-string maidens are weaving.
You sang with your heart, but there was no one to hear your frequency.
And such is the fate of the loneliest whale of the sea.
And they will never understand the glory of your surrender,
For in their eyes, one is always destined for another.
The acceptance of your fate, they call it misery,
But to you, 'tis only pure, sweet liberty.
Journal Entry #7
I have a beautiful one year old, harlequin, Great Dane and she's huge.
I'm use to people staring but I was not prepared for today.
So they we were, walking in the snow.
I had my headphones on.
Minding my own **** business and these two very attractive guys pull over and yell, "hey" loudly at me.
I stop and turn and they say to me,
"what's your baby's name?"
(Mind you, I am awkward as **** when it comes to interacting with men in anyway, and this entire interaction caught me completely off guard.)
So I smiled awkwardly and replied, "Sawyer."
They both smiled widely at me and the driver leaned forward and yelled "Hiiiiii Sawyer."
All I could do was laugh because to me this was just hilarious.
Still smiling at me, both the driver and the guy in the passenger seat finally wave and say bye and all I could come up with at the time was the words,
Which brings me to the conclusion that if you're dog is getting more attention than you I should just assume the title forever alone.
Sawyer is currently single and accepting boyfriend applications.
Please inquire within.
Sadness is like sipping sea drops drowning down the trench
Sadness is the stain of rain glazed moonbeams on a bench
Sadness is my soulmate; sadness she's my willing *****
Softly singing spirits sleep when sorrows are all spent
Learning to love myself through pain
I woke up
Today (so tired)
Not sure what
I’m doing (so very tired)
But I think,
I am thinking?
Am I thinking?
What’s my name?
Who am I?
What’s the point?
Why am I here?
Can I leave now?
Hours till escape
A necklace of rope
Too many down the hatch
To be kept
In the dark
Safer and Quieter
Safer but Colder
Safer but Alone
Can I go to sleep now?
A path of words
Millions and Millions of doors
Which to go through
Put me under the stars
And see me
For who I am
Take off this mask
This suit of armour
One’s own mind
Has anyone ever wondered
What lurks inside?
I am a breathing contradiction
I am here but
I am insignificant.
I am alive but
Hiding in the dark
Living in the light
I'm broke and wondering where all my money went.
Questioning what was the last thing I bought and if it was money well spent.
I had to work for what some of my friends already had for years.
Kind of a ****** reality but then again, who cares?
I'm watching all of my heroes become human.
Free balling life while trying to take the next step, yeah, I'm cruising.
Working hard for what many had all along.
If you think there's someone answering your prayers then you're all wrong.
Opportunity and equity are two very different things.
We all can grow but where we go can affect whether we're winning or losing.
I'm so consumed by my desires sometimes it burns me.
Taking the next step is hard but we're all forever learning.
My life is just one big broken machine.
I need tools and parts to fix it and I'm still searching.
All that time I spent waiting and wishing for some to rescue me.
The only person who can answer my prayers is me.