I love the idea of someone will be there for me
Yet in reality, I doubt it to be.
Truth that I knew so well
That I am hard to love seems no one can tell.

I bathe in milk
The Ripples along the water are as fine as silk
NO! This is not something I fancy
In life, sometimes you just want to try
In the end we just have to stop the stupid lie.
To live or die
To breathe or just drown
Seems everybody wears a crown
NO! I lost mine a long time ago.
Perhaps temporary is all I could have, so I dare go…
Grab what’s on hand
Never expecting high demand
Then I get lost, soaked
And a little broke
To start a new beginning
Is still out of reach, I’m screeching…
Not in pain but in the cloud that blocks the way
Wishing the fear will stay at bay
Never reaching my awful screeching
Oh CHOICES! I wish I ACTED ON YOU differently
NOT fearing disappointing those who support me.
But hey! What is done cannot be undone
I stand in what I’ve chosen, I never run…
I tried my best to stop my mouth
From reasoning-in or reasoning-out
For your choice is your own responsibility
So I stop blaming others for my problematic probability
I bathe again, in warm water this time
Hoping to wash away the disease that struck me
Faults of my own neglect
Laziness and Tiresome – and its ripple effects
Now I fear I’ll drown…

It hurts to love you
because every breath I take
marks a moment you
are closer to your last one
and my lungs can't take
that truth. It hurts to love you
because my arms lie
aching at my sides every
moment they could be
holding you, and the weight of
that is somehow more
than I can take. It hurts to
love you because my
brain is leaning so fully
on something that is
not even mine that I both
long for and hate who
I might have been (Who was I?)
before.

I was lonely
With nothing to do
But an acquaintance said merrily:
Come with with me, I need you

I trusted and followed her
Hesitated a little
Until we got to where
Stands a tree you cannot belittle

At first, I thought it was boring
But as time passed, I found out it was special
She introduced me to the tree so mesmerizing
Together, we made memories with the tree so special

Everyday with her and the tree
Is like spending days in heaven
Until one day, with her and the tree
I hurt her deeply for I was mistaken

She was my best friend
And I hurt her so deeply
But I didn't make amends
Because I thought she would forgive me so easily

Alas, I was wrong
Silence is what I got
I treasured the tree so strong
Than the girl who helped me find the happiness I sought

I knew the tree wanted to help
It tried to help fix the friendship I broke
I knew the tree tried to yelp
But my friendship with her already choked

She never came back
It's only me and the tree
But other people saw the special tree and attacked
Now they stole the tree from me

The two things I held in my heart so dearly
Was taken away from me, without further ado
Now I'm once again lonely
With nothing to do