If I was there,
I'd whisper to your ear how much you mean to me
If I was there,
I'd take you on dates so you'd be reminded of how true the first verse was
If I was there,
I'd hold you close and never let you go
If I was there,
I'd laugh with you at our silly jokes and goofiness
If I was there,
I'd show you how proud of and happy I am for you whenever you achieve
If I was there,
I'd hug you whenever you feel depressed
If I was there,
I'd wipe your tears, and comfort you whenever you cry
If I was there,
I'd be able to tell you how sorry and hurt I am for hurting you

Oh if I was there,
You'd realize I'd fall apart without you

Oh if I was there,
You'd know that you're the best **** thing that's ever happened to me

I know, its hard to believe
But one day,
I'll finally see you and be able to hug you tight, bearing the weight of those days just missing you
And I wouldn't have to say
If I was there

Why is it that if it rains and it's sunny the devil is beating his wife
Why is it that when I'm listening to music in the zone people accuse me of missing out on life?

Why is it that by 35 I have to settle down, have kids and a wife?
Why is it that I'm excited to be older than I was but not truly prepared for life?

Society is weird like that, but that's a solid inspiration to write
Because all of our ills won't be solved
Unless we ask the question why

Everyday I fight my loneliness.
Everyday I tell myself I am strong.
I can survive on my own.
I don't need anyone.
I don't need you.
I don't need you, I want you.
I want you next to me.
I want my heart to stop hurting.
I want you to tear down my walls.
Storm my castle.
Take me over.

I know it seems like my life's not rough
But why is it I'm never good enough
Why can I bust my **** and nobody is proud
I can write all day, but I can't erase this cloud

When I learn one song, I have to know three others
When I'm down and drained mentally I can't recover

So I place on a brave face and try to remain tough
A nagging doubt remains. "You aren't good enough!"
No matter what vice I avoid, or pain that subsides
I want nothing more some days than to lay down and cry

Even though my life hasn't been too rough
It always seems, I'm not good enough

I said to you the words he didn't say.
I did all the things he didn't do
Every day I told you how beautiful you are
I reminded you how special you are
Yet I still don't measure up

Now here's a little story that I got to tell
about what got me to start writing you don't know so well
it start way back, in history when I lost something very close and dear to me
When I was still a kid about the fifth or sixth grade
I loved music my action figures and kung fu movies like the raid
it was a lovely spring day that I lost this something
and changed my life forever and got my notebook thunping

I was sitting at the table eating dinner as it was the nighttime
and as sure as now that I'm writing this rhyme
I fell out from the table, and seized on the floor
I woke up tired and queasy along with sore
so that's the story of what inspired me to write
what did I lose? I lost my old life

It's a strange sensation to try to describe
A condition that can't be cured by any medicine prescribed
When the mind wants constantly, like an aimless drifter
Only to be suddenly thinking of greatly useless information, like how to access software that filters

When you start out humming stickerbrush symphony
Only to be doing ****** backup vocals to the trees
My brain is a child that can't sit still but maybe, one day soon it will.