i can feel it,
you’re slowly going your own way.

you’re going to leave,
but that’s okay.

i’ve accepted the fact that you’re not always going to be with me,
i just didn’t expect it to happen this quickly.

i love you, though,
no matter what.

it’s okay for you to go,
no matter how deep it cuts.

I pray to whoever gets you next treats you well.
I hope she makes you laugh and smile like crazy.
I wish you the best in life.
my love,
i want you, but you deserve better.

It’s been raining all day

To spaced to care about
my whereabouts

Been floating on this mattress,
drifting between yellow lines

The time on the clock glows brightly
At 9:17

Dark, but I can see them

Wet, walking, they're on the sidewalk

While I drift on a sea of gray and yellow

She is wearing a frown and it makes me sad

What is her life like, walking in the rain?

It's coming down hard

Sadness

Maybe they’ll vanish out of my view,
but not out of my mind

I am sorry

11-4-18

They kept up their banter

Pouring words on my screen

Losing yourself
in the living room
lost its cool months ago

I decided
to join them

Bundled up
to
walk

The lights grow brighter
when you're walking alone

Made it there,
late

Something started,
hot tea possibly candles?

They talked, but I felt more isolated
with them than in my living room

I would leave their alienating conversations
and walk around their house

You notice things when living alone

Like a woman's touch on their decor,
something I cannot represent

Leaving them, I left more hollow than
when I arrived

Walking in the wrong
direction home

The lights always seem to get brighter

In the dark spots
I looked up and saw them
in the sky

My long lost
brothers and sisters

All shining at me

With them I am not drifting
or empty