Kindest boy with a library that
reached the ceiling and
the same personality as
my best friend, they would talk about
movies in the middle of the street at
three a.m.
Everyone wanted us
to end up together but
it would never work out
in the end.
Moody boy with dark circles
that rimmed his eyes, always
wanted to talk about romance.
He looked at me with the softest eyes
but couldn't hold a conversation to
saves his life.
I don't know why but
I always think about him
when I'm feeling bright and
blue.
- dates at seventeen.

In the moments before she leaves
When her hands sweat bullets
With full anticipation of the future to be
She looks in the mirror, worried.
She looks out the window, he isn't there yet.
She looks back to the mirror,
Her hair is a mess, she fixes her bangs to one side,
She looks again outside, he isn't there yet.

She's pacing, wasting time in anxious
She notices her make-up smudged
While he's driving down the road
Looking in his side mirror to judge
Why she agreed to an evening
Leaving him self-conscious of his soul
His eyes meet his eyes and in his own gaze
He feels he could swallow himself whole.
Pulling into the driveway,
He inhales deep and says
"Don't let this one get away"

He walks to the door feeling his pulse
She walks to the door trying to breath slow
He thinks she's going to look perfect
She thinks he's going to look perfect
She turns the **** and pulls
The ending, time will only show.

Did I chicken out or was it not the time?
The moment was so fine but not right
The fight within me ceased
It was a feast of joy and of song
Nothing could go wrong
Maybe next time i'll see if with her I belong.

September 25th 2018
You decided it was finally time,
Time to see if we worked.
We sat and watched baseball for hours
And then went on a walk.
That was the day you let me in,
The day I knew you were different.

November 13th 2018
Our first official date.
We met each other at the school dance,
It was late and chilly.
Red on black,
A first kiss.
The world stopped for just a second.

February 14th 2019
Valentines day,
You surprised me at school.
You were concussed,
but still came across the city for me.
Hot chocolate, heart shaped home made cookies, and a rose.
I trusted you.

March 16th 2019
The day after your birthday,
It was a party and I came late.
The basement was freezing,
but you stayed awake to make sure I wasn't shivering.
I stole all your body heat that night.
You said you'd never let me go.

March 25th 2019
You decided I wasn't enough.
Out in the courtyard,
We were drifting a part.
I cried twice that day.
I loved you

April 15th 2019
My birthday.
You said you missed me,
but it wasn't worth it.
I cried myself sleep.
I knew I lost you.

You left several times,
But,
You came back each time.

Are you worth it?
No.
Will I still give you a chance?
Always.
A photo cube of memories.
Me & you.

i imagine myself with you, b.
i can see myself,  happy with you.

i can picture us on our first date,
laughing so hard we hold onto each other for support.
i can picture us walking together,
admiring all the local shops and galleries the town has to offer.
i can picture us holding hands,
and you holding me as we gaze out at sea.
i can picture us snorkeling together,
and how you'll laugh when i inevitably breathe in the ocean.
i can picture us kissing for the first time,
how our eyes will meet,
and how our hearts will explode with excitement.
i can picture us kissing,
and how our bodies will melt into one.
i can picture myself falling asleep next to you,
and how peaceful i will feel when i wake up beside you.

but,
most importantly,

i can picture myself falling in love with you.
truely.
so let’s break the distance.
oh, how wonderful life will be with you.