My head is everywhere BUT in the game
Existin' and livin', my very own ball and chain
I walk the walk, a strut of shame
I wouldn't recognize a day without a cripplin' amount of pain
Physical or brain
Far more damaged under this fleshy terrain
I've lost the safety line between insane and sane
I'm lost beyond what I could not contain
Low to no visibility, can't see through the fog and rain
Not a chance in hell I'm coming out of this the same
A constant strain on this average Joe camouflage membrane
One I've made to hide what I'm made of, keeping the real me out of frame
I'll take the skill, you go ahead with the fame
If it's destiny who needs a strategy, why train?
What happens to the rest of me when there's no more life force to drain?
If I knick a main artery vain would you then know that I am not playin' around when I say all pain, no gain
Don't need no stupid prize so I won't play your stupid game
It's rigged anyway but that's why you came

©2023

You can try to fix it
Or just live with it
But dont fix it
Til its damaged

Carbon steel can be easily damaged.  The human heart is so much more fragile.

you used to dream in moody lit bars
raise your glass
higher
and higher
each time.
you used to live in tricolors
gleaming across the atmosphere
all
at once.
you used to shine brighter than the sun
but your light dimmed
darker
and darker
every time.

i know you aren’t ok anymore, but i really wish you were

Laws of the universe teaches that
like attracts like
so this is why
everytime i attract someone
they're just as broken as i am
Damaged people attract damaged people
we try and fix each other
using pieces of ourselves
and in the end
when it all goes bad
both of us are left
I N C _ M P L _ T E

Am I broken or defective
Nothing seems to be effective
Wish I could be good enough
But instead I feel rebuffed
Lost and lonely broken hearted
Laying here a tortured artist
Longing to be loved and held
This loneliness to be dispelled