Commitment.

Who says it’s going to be easy?
It’s not, and never be easy.

When you commit to someone, that means the world is not about you anymore. You’re no longer the main character. There will be him.

When you commit to someone, you don’t wake up to scroll Instagram, you will have someone to be updated.

When you commit to someone, you will arrange your schedules, there will be no time for you to be selfish for yourself, you will share what you have with him.

When you commit to someone, you will try hard to connect with him, and that means you need to adjust things, and maybe you lose yourself in it.

When you commit to someone, you will not jog by yourself, maybe he will accompany you or busy in your kitchen, making you a breakfast.

When you commit to someone, you will feel love, but you need to return the same amount of love to him, or even bigger.

And that hurts.
That’s not an easy job.

I feel like a clown
makeup running down
my face, from the rain,
the pain of feeling clouds
blocking my sunshine dreams

The values of our relationships
and the commitment to our virtues
inspire and open our eyes.

No luck with love
I'll admit it.

I commit and dive in,
sort of stuck.

All in or not at all,
that's my premise.

Awe-struck always,
if it's not working.

She has commitment issues.
So she'll wake up one day, shaky hands and all, and tell you she doesn't need you, much less wants you.
You can't fathom this idea and won't want to leave
But she will pick at your insecurities until all you want to do is get away from her

But don't fall for it
Don't listen
Don't give her more reason to be angry at the world

You need to reassure her that you didn't hug her broken pieces back into place
Just to let her fall again

You need to remind her that you don't want her "falling" in love with you because everything that falls breaks and you've been there before.

You need to show her that you love her and remember that she feels the same way. She wouldn't be with you if she didn't. So when she tells you she hates you, calls you an idiot and laughs at your attempt to be sweet, don't forget that's her way of saying "I love you".

She is a bird that hates feeling tied down; so let her fly, but make sure to always be there whenever the wind is too strong.

And when she throws all your clothes in a suitcase and tells you to get lost, empty it out all over the living room floor. Tell her to pick a hoodie, let her put it on,
and cuddle her fears away.