Darling:

I once
was small.

I fit into the thinnest cavities &
festered

Now
I sip on vitals till
My vials are full
baby you
make Me whole

I am in love
with life
so much
I cling
all nails & teeth

I'll sprawl my feet out
on your tables
I'll scribble my name
on your letters

Now
I am BIG

BEATING RED

I'll leave the light on
All night:
no sleep
while I'm busy
loving you

I'll even
Refurbish your skin with glass, but
Careful
You'll bruise easy

No need for windows
My dear:
I'll see for you!

No need for clocks
My love:
I'll count down for you!

& soon
your body
will love Me
too!

Sincerely,
C

My knuckles are white,
From holding on too tight,
To people,
Who never belonged to me.

I am afraid to let you in, not because I am afraid of you hurting me,

But because I am scared of hurting myself, by loving you a little too much.

Call her needy, clingy, and pathetic.
Laugh at her for needing reassurance,

But know this:

You are laughing at the little girl
whose mother never picked her up from school.

The girl who waited by the phone
for a Christmas call that never came.

Laughing at the numerous
unanswered letters and cards.

The girl who taught herself
about her body and boys.

Laughing at a tearstained face
when she got the voicemail again.

Laughing at the woman who got herself ready
on her wedding day because her mom didnt come.

The woman that waited at the hospital
but gave birth alone.

So call her what you want,

But know this:

You are laughing at the issues
following the abandonment
of a girl who just needed her mom.