its not the way you hurting me
its the reason why you hurting me
u used to be my medicine
but now you are the one who causing the wounds

Jatuh,tersungkur
Patah hatinya, pikirannya entah kemana
Berselimut kenangan
Sedih, sakit, dan juga pilu
Pasalnya aku selalu berpikir bahwa yang patah akan tumbuh
Yang hilang akan berganti
Tetapi kenapa bayangan mu masih terus datang dan mengunjungi?

i hope one day
you will look back and
you will remember
remember how you had me
how i did everything for you,
and gave you all the love i had to offer
and how you
let me go
i hope you will regret
                                    and regret
                                                       and regret
that you gave
nothing
back to me.

you're probably dating someone right now and you have no idea that you're just wasting your time 'cause you are going to be mine anyway,

I'm sorry.

but thank you, for not coming too soon, for giving me time to grow, to be better, to deserve you

don't get me wrong, love.
I'm dying to know you
I'm dying to tell you how my day went
I'm dying to tell you stories—I always have a story to tell, I hope you won't get tired of listening
I'm dying to hear your voice
I'm dying to feel your warmth
I'm dying to feel your love
I'm dying to feel

I am just not ready yet
I am broken, and I do not want you to fix me
I am lost, and I do not want you to find me
I want you to meet me halfway, love,
when everything falls back into place

“How are you feeling these days?” they asked. “Your heart is broken, isn’t it?”

Drowning. I feel like I’m drowning. I’m trying to catch a breath. I’m trying to live. But no matter how much I want to stay afloat, my body just keeps on sinking. No matter how much I want to live, my body just can’t seem to cooperate. I’m just waiting to be saved. Waiting for someone to rescue me from these waters. Waiting for something to hold on to.

smoke a cigarette
gulp down a whole bottle of *****
hook up with a random lust
scream
cry
run down an empty street
try to feed the demons, intoxicate them with filth
repeat.

nothing ever works.