You told me to help you forget about him...
All the kisses
All the soft and gentle whispers of love
You wanted to forget his touch…
How it felt to be in his arms
And the feeling of his lips brushing yours.
So I did -... and then I fell in love with you.
I fell in love with your gracious smile.
Your smooth porcelain skin as if i was brushing a marble counter
And you perfect pinkish lips that were made by God himself.
But it was all a lie.
I fell in love with a demon , disguised as a angel
I can’t describe the amount of pain you have brought upon my soul.
You gave me false hope, as I believed we would be together forever
The smile and the kisses were as if you loved me
I fell under your spell as you made me believe that being with you was perfect
You butchered my soul and pierced my organs
Twisting ,crushing , and stomping  my heart until no more blood dropped.
I gave you my all, my heart and soul because I loved the way you treated me.
You were the end of me
You were the meticulous angel that sent the hellhounds to eat my soul away
And even till now, I can still look you in the face and say “I love you”.

I had you in my hand
and was given the cheat sheet
I’ve read the script
and the costume fits
Memorised how it played out
and
Saw the ending when they turned the page

Yet unbeknownst to me,
carefully hidden was a back-up scene
Leaving me aghast
and the play crumbled

You slipped off my hand, just like that
Like how a tornado
destroys in an instant
What was once
such a beautiful house

Yet for you,
I called up the Writer
night and day
Gave Him 3 dimes
to re-write a new ending

He refused but I kept bargaining
back and forth for 12 days
He finally agreed
and told me to sign the agreement,
insisting for 11 dimes as the final price

12 dimes were all I had
But
I still decided to settle with this agreement
I was prepared to throw away everything
And risk myself for another broken-heart

So I said deal,
as long as I can have you
Even if it’s just for another while
.
Before I lose you again
when the wind comes
To take you away from me
forever

You told me how you wished you were holding me in your arms but behind my back you had let go of my heart and smiled as you let her fall from your brittle hands. You promised to protect her. You promised to hold her for the rest of our lives. And now here she lay face up on this bed staring blankly at the ceiling with tears of second guesses and regrets flowing for anyone to see. She is numb and homeless, strong but trying to keep going. You broke her.

I wish I was able to wave a magic wand
Take all our broken pieces
Put us together perfectly
Without cracks, chips, and creases.

I wish I was an ancient shaman
Who could heal with just one touch
Caress each and every wound and fracture
Soothe pain so doesn't hurt as much.

I wish my muscles could bear both our burdens
Not falter under their weight
Peace the impossible destination
When we carry baggage we hate.

I wish we could rise high above
Small opinions of close-minded folk
It seems perfect until someone makes a comment
Reminding me our relationship is a joke.

I wish the day would come where we walk hand-in-hand
Without obstacles in our way
Across this beautiful atlas
Not stopping until far away.

I wish for a paintbrush
Large enough to paint the sky blue
Tried different shades of navy and indigo
I never could find the right hue.

I wish I had the ability to sculpt
A duplicate of your heart out of clay
Savor these wild emotions
Relive your love day after day.

I wish I was cold enough to make time freeze
But precious minutes and hours won't bend
When will I discover that love never lasts?
Time destroys all things in the end.