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The grief has its birthday ahead of time
nothing, but the fears can throw us a line
Sometimes the worst is the best!
Mia Kuhnle Dec 2018
You didn’t meant it.
Your gifts, consolations, plush saccharine petals.
You used their precious implications to hide
Your disposition.
It was my birthday.
I sank into my seat,
Driving towards the expectancy of consistence,
Home, away from
Your wonted constitution.
Silverflame Dec 2018
22
22; i'm 22,
still don't know what to do.
Roaming around in my mind,
chasing dreams that aren't mine.
Lost in circus - lost in perfection,
something's turning;
changing my reflection.
Smile mirror, smile
dance with luck for a while.
Down the drain it goes,
dripping failure flows
from the eyes to the toes.
Kieran Dec 2018
What is it like?
The fields of Elysium I mean
Today I should be sneaking you wine
After all, today is your Sweet 16
16 years ago on this very day
Our aunties answered the phone
Breaking the silence with sobs of sorrow
All I wanted was to hold you at home
But now you hold me
You soak the ambience with hope
in my lowest moments
the force of your existence cleanses my scope
My heavenly brother
When times are tough and I am not around
I know you take care of our sisters and our beautiful mother
You showed me in that dream
Vivid and clear
I walked into our bedroom
Our sister was asleep but something else was here
A child's curiosity led me
So I peered through our window
To see skies dancing
In a twinkling orange and yellow
Our sister was still sound asleep in bed
That's when I saw you for the first time
A light blue warmth with a cherub's head
You were cuddling our sister
I was in awe, not a single word said
Years have passed and I remember your visit
Anyways I just want you to know
When my eye's of this realm closes in death
I want to see you beside me Bro
One day we will all be together
In our circle of Heaven, as light as a feather
Can I ask perhaps to see you again?
In another dream?
Cheeky of your big brother to ask
On your bittersweet 16
On 25th December 2002, I was at home with my aunts on Christmas day whilst my mum gave birth to my still brother Jamal. It was my first experience with death and marks a pivotal moment in my family's life. I witnessed my mum slowly lose herself to depression and Christmas day became a birthday but also an anniversary of death. I remember having that dream I speak of when I had fallen asleep in my living one night a few years later as I now had my little sister. I told my mum and we cried in joy.
She was having a good time in heaven
When a tear dropped from both eyes of mine.
Anyone on earth would have caught these tears, stopped them from falling and perhaps given me a smile.
But nobody cared
For I was alien even in my own body and didn't know what made me feel so lonely.
I felt my heart was missing something
This dull expression killed the world like an epidemic disease and no one had its cure
I guess that's when an arrow reached out for her heart and caused her the same pain I was going through
She would have loved to teleport but had no magical powers
She would have loved to catch a flight but there were  no airports in heaven
Much as she is an angel, her wings weren't strong enough to fly
So the only way she'd make it to earth was living in the womb of an adorable being I refer to as her  mum and being born on that beautiful day
Happy birthday to the love of my life
I'm brimming with happiness like I've seen the gate to heaven same way I felt the first time I saw you all because this day has finally come
Today ain't a day of reminiscing but one of celebration so i'll keep the memories to myself
I'll stick to seeing you dance, seeing you laugh and seeing you happy always
Happy birthday love
A year added in your life is a year added in mine
Live to forever be my miss Universe
E B K Dec 2018
and that
was the last time
I wished you
Happy birthday
Jessica-Amaya Dec 2018
I know I'm not old.
But I am older.

Older then I use to be.
but some days I still look in the mirror
and wonder if I'm still sixteen.
I still feel sixteen!

Last month I turned nineteen.
Just yesterday I was six years away from being nineteen.

and now I'm in college
and expected to know how to do everything.

Next year I'll be twenty
I don't think I'm ready

Life's going by too fast
Someone hit the breaks
before
I


crash.
دema flutter Dec 2018
I wish I can go back home,
borrow a blanket from the living
room that was once filled with
me and my cousins' dancing,

gather four ****** from the street,
the same street I used to steal flowers from,
that now steals people's blood and lives,

borrow a branch or two from the berry tree
that my mom used to make juice out of
and give to our neighbours,
they only reside in my head now,

build a tent in my parents' backyard,
the same backyard where
I held my 6th birthday party at,
that birthday had to end early as
there was a more important event happening;

the Americans were bombing
the area I used to run so free in,
with all of my friends,
whom I never got to say goodbye to,
never get to see how puberty hit them,
or even know if they're still alive today,

today,
I live under a stable roof,
I run away from the thought of home,
because it kills me that
I left the land that once
gave birth to me,
kept me warm,
warmer than I would personally like,
once.
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