This bone-tired body is a battlefield
where I keep returning
to bury the same soldier,
over and over.
His face shifts like seasons—
familiar and foreign,
the line between my lines,
fading into fable,
floating into folklore.
He’s died here a hundred times,
and I survived every one.
But I keep coming back,
thinking I might unearth
something softer.
My hands tremble from holding too much—
soliloquies, symptoms, scapegoats,
saltshakers, semicolons, starry-eyed sighs.
My knees buckle under the weight
of a history I can’t rewrite.
No matter how many poems erupt
from my shell-shock,
how many mornings I crawl from trenches,
listening to the sound of birdsong—
I always return, ***** in hand.
He stares up from the dirt,
his mouth unmoving but full of accusations.
"You never let me go,"
he whispers without sound,
"and I’ll keep rising until you do.
Don’t you get it?
You buried yourself here too."
How many deaths does it take
to make a ghost let go?
I’m running out of shovels,
but never out of wishes.
Some wounds are wars,
and some wars never surrender.
If I stop digging, will the war finally end—
or will it bloom
in the silence I leave behind?
