I remember when you walked in with your guitar;
I tried reaching you but you were standing too far,
I tried screaming your name;
but I was afraid that it could be the end of this game.

I locked my eyes at you and you fake me a smile;
I sigh and lost my mind for a while,
I turned my eyes off hiding my shame;
and got lost to decide whom to blame?

At the end of the day you said goodbye;
boy; it was so hard to leave and I sigh,
I can’t forget those 3 minutes when you came;
against my will I am going home again.

Now you are a part of my every dream;
soon you’ll conquer my realm,
what do I do with my heart?
I can’t go back to the start.

I look for you every time, and I try to work;
but every time I fail and I feel like ****,
and I just can’t stop to keep myself from thinking of you;
and the tragedy is that you have no clue.

But I love it when you pass next through me;
I feel butterflies and you just can’t see,
I can’t forget those 3 minutes when you came;
against my will I am going home again.

© Shreya ♥

If you’ll ask me how is life?
I’ll say everything is just fine;
though there is something to be fixed,
something, I just cannot define.

If you wanna know what it takes to be me?
just walk into my shoes down the lane of memory;
read those torn pages wrapped in blues,
all about my ecstasy to win and fears to lose.

All the pain hidden under the scars;
that resides still silent in my core,
this is a small piece about me;
though there is so much, more.

I am a missing puzzle piece;
of a picture to make complete,
or may be am an incomplete picture;
with which nobody can relate.

I cannot define myself;
and I guess nobody can,
‘cause I am still looking for;
what the hell is my plan?

I am trying searching my existence;
all about what when and how?
this is a brief about me;
I wanted y’all to know.

© Shreya ♥

It’s dark, hard enough to see;
am lying drunk in memories,
the flashback stabbing me;
they said love is a disease.

I was scared, never believed;
know you had insecurities,
but you never said honey;
and we've missed opportunities.

How many times did I die?
wonder if I and you were we;
lost in abyss of nothingness,
walking the streets of uncertainty.
Being lost in abyss of nothingness;
I know there’s nothing to worry,
it will be fine; heard through grapevine,
promises echo in eternity honey.

Remember something?
when you said believe,
I did, I was in every word;
never knew you’d leave.

There’s no dream to dream;
like I've been drunk in misery,
was I delusional enough;
to not get it out of me?

So how many times I've to die?
wonder if I and you were we;
lost in abyss of nothingness,
walking the streets of uncertainty.
Being lost in abyss of nothingness;
I know there’s nothing to worry,
it will be fine; heard through grapevine,
promises echo in eternity honey.

~Shreya
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Coming home late at night;
playing music of my choice,
feeling all alone but its alright;
and repeating favourite lines twice.

Though the weather is nice;
but it rains all the time inside,
I gotta swim outta my sorrows;
and hope my regrets to divide.

Call me stupid for all I’ve done;
I can’t scream loud for this pain,
its just gonna be okay, I know;
I wanna have a cup of novacaine.

No one is here to break the silence;
time seems to be the last grain of sand,
what the hell they gotta do of all this;
all we’ll need is a few feet of land.

Why to complicate things around;
why to run for what won’t exist long,
it grieves me to the core to think;
they pretend to be right when they’re wrong.

So many time I’ve been broken;
I just wanna go back to be seven again,
take me to the flashback of joy;
or get me a cup of novacaine.

© Shreya ♥

You swore you’re not lying;
expected me to believe you,
and every time I tried;
you made it so hard to do.

Like a house of cards;
my world just fell apart,
you continue to be the same;
and I gotta go back to the start.

All your lies; I built my world on,
yeah I was so stupid, so wrong;
Still wonder; if the time has gone,
So am writing you this last song.

You claim that you love me;
and I know this ain’t true,
and every time you say;
I feel you are not the one I knew.

You sold all your promises;
we ain’t friends anymore,
said you’re sorry in the middle of night;
but I know you’re not so sure.

All your lies; I built my world on,
yeah I was so stupid, so wrong;
Still wonder; if the time has gone,
So am writing you this last song.

© Shreya ♥

Died a little being without you;
wasn't alive being with you though,
so I wear enigmatic smile, for a while;
you can never decode.

You changed but haven’t changed I;
love; you neither accept nor deny,
I am stuck in middle, an unsolved riddle;
am I supposed to cry?

You’re in your world, hope doing fine;
am here alone crashing into whine,
but I’ll always be there, so close;
doesn't matter if you win or lose.
You’ll always find me near;
to fight all your fears,
that scares you to the core;
I’ll give you all of me, even a little more.

Somehow I make myself to dare;
find out the love that no more we share,
am I crazy, is it so easy;
to know you still don’t care.

I won’t dream about you anymore;
you’ll be the one I’ll always adore,
am moving on, gotta be strong;
but I know am gonna be back to sore.

Truth hurts and lies heal;
did you ever care the way I feel?
but I’ll always be there, so close;
doesn't matter if you win or lose.
You’ll always find me near;
to fight all your fears,
that scares you to the core;
I’ll give you all of me, even a little more.

~Shreya ♥
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After a long time I joined my hands;
and went on my knees,
made a prayer to Lord;
followed by an Amen and a please.

The flashback runs me through;
my whole life for what I have done,
missed opportunities and regret;
locks me in the chains of its own.

It chokes me deep to the core;
I wonder if I can get an Amen once more.

I donno where am going;
temme which way to choose,
for I know I gotta miles to go;
and I have no option to lose.

Everything is gonna be fine they say;
I donno how, for I am feel like Zombie,
if you are not drunk, answer it all;
or let me whatever I gonna be.

It bleeds my heart so sore;
I wonder if I can get an Amen once more.

© Shreya ♥

We haven’t talked since long time though;
I miss you bad and you don’t know,
what I feel inside, I don’t show;
‘cause I just can’t afford to let you go.

You come in my dreams every single night;
like sunshine making my world so bright,
I feel like everything is gonna be alright;
but I wake up to reality, I have to fight.

I know you don’t feel the same;
and I have to take all the blame,
for all the time you run me through;
so I am gonna find another you.

Oh! Yeah another you;
Someone who loves me too.

You might think I am going crazy;
you might be right ‘cause I may be,
but you don’t know baby;
letting you go isn’t so easy.

I know am gonna be fine;
though it may take some time,
since you are no longer mine;
I’ll tryna live sublime.

I’ll carry on laughing out loud;
I’ll pretend like am on ninth cloud,
‘cause I have to choose somebody new;
So I am gonna find another you.

Oh! Yeah another you;
Someone who loves me too.

© Shreya ♥

Its been so long I enjoyed rains;
I don't remember now how to make paper boats,
I kinda lost my childhood somewhere in time;
seems like, on the sea of time those memories floats.

I donno when was the last time I made wishes;
pretending airplanes as shooting stars,
I love to be too stupid to count them on fingers;
rather being a victim of the rat race and political wars.

Those were the days when a single tear was my only weapon;
to get whatever I want and a new toy was enough to make me smile,
now there is nothing that can replace all that;
I wish I could get a fraction of that time for a while.

I donno what I am or what I've done;
all I know is, I wanna get back to square one.

I love to sleep with my teddy;
for I don't wanna grow up anymore,
I would love to fall and learn to walk again;
rather healing my heart hurt to the core.

So am gonna walk the paths of past to my childhood;
where I was as happy and satisfied as kings,
am happy in dolls and paper boats and paper planes;
so don't try to convince me with material things.

I wanna live those days again;
so bring me back my childhood,
I just can't survive in this cruel world;
I would love to be kid again if I could.

I donno what I am or what I've done;
all I know is, I wanna get back to square one.

© Shreya ♥

Its 2 a.m. and the world is sleeping; so quiet,
I can even hear and count my heartbeats;
I am still awake; watching the stars dazzling light,
moon is peeping inside my window like everyday it greets;
Its a beautiful night telling me I am not alone,
and these are the beautiful moments I own.

I am lying on my bed; holding a pillow so tight,
empty streets and dancing trees are beautiful to see;
it lands me in the realm of delight,
and its the best place I’d rather be;
Its a beautiful night telling me I am not alone,
and these are the beautiful moments I own.

Fireflies are dancing like stars in the sky,
and trees are playing the background music;
making me feel alive with every moment passes by,
gifting wonderful scenes to click;
Its a beautiful night telling me I am not alone,
and these are the beautiful moments I own.

Cold wind kisses my face and I sigh,
it blows off my candles like it is asking me to sleep;
trees dance for me and sing me a lullaby,
taking away all the reasons to weep;
Its a beautiful night telling me I am not alone,
and these are the beautiful moments I own.

It takes all the bad memories away,
making me feel life is not that bad;
I will thank Lord for gifting me this day,
and for taking away all the reasons to be sad;
Its a beautiful night telling me I am not alone,
and these are the beautiful moments I own.

Moon is sitting by my window in a silver dress,
like it is going to tell me a fairytale;
all about those 7 dwarfs and pirate ships and princess,
till I sleep and forget reasons to wail,
Its a beautiful night telling me I am not alone,
and these are the beautiful moments I own.

© Shreya ♥

Hey temme do you remember me;
how is your life been since am out,
do I cross your mind even for a while;
do you still care what love is all about.

I saw you today passing by;
you were busy laughing on phone,
I wanted to call you once but;
I thought the time has gone, long gone.

You have become a stranger in my life;
I just donno what went wrong,
there is nothing left between us;
still your memories cross my heart all day long.

You donno but I try to follow you;
no matter where you go I’ll be around,
I may pretend I don’t recognize you;
but I can find you even in the crowd.

If by chance, we can talk;
I’ll answer all your question you have,
and you gotta answer mine;
and decide if you still wanna leave.

I promise I won’t spill the beans;
I’ll pretend to be a stranger to you;
it will all be between us;
all your secrets old and new.

© Shreya ♥

Darkness is all I can see;
in and all around me,
as I open my eyes there is nothing to find;
as I close it, all I am is –blind.

All I can feel is to cry for all my confessions;
with bloodshot eyes I look for all my lost passions,
for there is no more to give away;
I am a puppet of skin no meaning left to pray.

Numb is all I can feel even when I fall;
all I look like is like a picture on the wall,
lost in darkness, crawling towards light –so weak;
screaming all my sorrows out, dragged to black.

Tears don’t fall, am choked within;
looks like am paying for all my sin(s),
counting my days left to pass;
closing my eyes, putting my fingers cross(ed).

What do I do, where do I go?
darkness around passes by so slow;
looks like it will take lifetime to fade;
and I long for light –so bad.

I crawl every single inch towards light;
so weak but am trying to fight,
I wish I could get a chance to sneak;
but the shades of dark drag me to black.

© Shreya ♥

I wish I could get a guy who make me smile,
the one who never leave my heart fragile;
the one who make me feel juvenile,
who stay loyal with me right from the start;
and I will call him the captain of my heart.

I wish I could get a guy who could sing me a song,
the one  who make me feel so strong;
the one who accepts me even when I am wrong,
the one who never break me apart;
and I will call him the captain of my heart.

I wish I could get a guy who lend me his shoulder to cry,
the one whose presence make me feel fly so high;
one who save all my roses even when they turn dry,
one who don't count my success on the chart;
and I will call him the captain of my heart.

I wish I could get a guy who don't ask me a change,
the one who perfectly fix my broken heart and arrange;
with whom all my sorrows and happiness I could exchange,
the one who is master in this art;
and I will call him the captain of my heart.

I wish I could get a guy who could buy me happiness;
who is a charming prince and make me his princess,
the one who takes away all my stress;
the one who love me till death do us part,
and I will call him the captain of my heart.

© Shreya ♥

You walked into my world bare feet;
don’t know when you knocked my door,
and out of the blues I've realized that;
it’s you who has occupied my core.

How did you reach there?
I wonder when you got the keys;
to unlock my heart, and mess it all,
making me go down by my knees.

You’re master in stealing hearts;
leaving the owner clueless,
of when you swept it away;
no sign behind, no guess.

Since you've got two now;
must be on cloud nine,
the one, which you own and;
another you've stolen mine.

You've done an unfair deal;
I could actually sue you,
but am not gonna do that;
I gotta wait, remarking it as due.

Expecting you to return one;
and badly longing for caress,
sometimes I wonder how;
I can be so clueless.

© Shreya ♥

Every time you make me madder than I am;
and expect me to be nice,
boy I’ve figured out your game;
so am gonna play it wise.
No matter how much I try;
but my best is never enough,
dunno what you’re expecting of me;
whatever, it makes me feel so rough.

When I am alone and no one nearby;
I can find someone in my head except me,
dunno if it is cognitive damage or;
something I am losing but I can’t see.

Worst part is that you don’t give a ****;
and all you think I am is naïve,
so to prove you am not the one;
I better have a decision to leave.
that’s how it is gonna be;
but I am not sure,
neither I wanna get this over;
nor I want more.

When I am alone and no one nearby;
I can find someone in my head except me,
dunno if it is cognitive damage or;
something I am losing but I can’t see.

© Shreya ♥

There is a part of me I gotta explore;
it resides in me but yet so unknown,
some where it exists I don’t know;
I wonder if it is a shadow of my own?

It takes me to the untrodden paths;
making me walk on broken glass,
with bleeding feet I travel the road;
losing count, how long left to pass.

Tears refuse to come out;
smile refuses to make the curve deep,
it hurts to the core to act neutral;
I am so complicated, away from sleep.

I have fallen thrice but who is counting;
I am busy in walking too fast,
can’t see anybody around me;
am I the first or the one who came last?

Mood swings have become neighbours now;
they knock my door now and then,
I just pretend I am not home;
I know they’re gonna leave, don’t know when.

I feel like having albatross around my neck;
chocking me deep to the core,
I don’t know what else to wish for;
for I am so complicated, hurt so sore.

© Shreya ♥

Come and stand on my side;
count those missed opportunities,
and wonder why should I stand still;
being a victim of cursed calamities.

Walk with me those untrodden ways;
lost in the shadows of misfortune,
put your hands around my waist;
and dance on that echoing solitude tune.

All this is just a dream;
like those floating azure skies,
could it ever be real or;
its gonna be a part of compromise?

Why I gotta be the one;
whose happiness walks on broken glass?
and bleeds as the wound of expectations;
of which the pain seems not to pass.

Could you wait for me;
till all my wounds turn into scars?
or I gotta join my hands;
and make a wish on shooting stars?

All this is just a dream;
that keeps growing in size,
could it ever be real or;
its gonna be a part of compromise?

© Shreya ♥

No matter you are with me or not;
about the time I’ve spent on you,
I’m sure never gonna regret it;
time is a misleading thing though.

Today or tomorrow, night or day;
or how long the pendulum may swing,
one thing that’s never gonna change is;
love you forever, time’s nothing.

Unfolding the conspiracy of time;
back in time when we met,
was it a chance or destined to happen;
whatever, it is to name yet.

Looked beyond the grapevine;
like you’re never stranger to me,
never read your mind though;
all that is still a mystery.

Seems like you have a spell on me;
forgot; all of my rescues are gone,
have few fading memories;
that I never wanna lose to oblivion.

Unfolding the conspiracy of time;
back in time when we met,
was it a chance or destined to happen;
whatever, it is to name yet.

© Shreya ♥

There is something that makes me feel sad;
I donno what but it hurts so bad,
I just wanna be alone and cry out;
I guess this is what life’s all about.

Tears do cover my eyes;
they come from where my pain lies,
it completely drains my tears;
and surrounds me with unknown fears.

I donno what is wrong;
is it something I shouldn’t but I came along?
I know I’d promised I’ll smile forever;
but I’ve to ask, cry me a river.

Bring me back to the life again;
all my joy away from the pain,
I donno what to do of the promises; I kept?
so make me cry out till no more tears are left.

I keep rolling in the bed;
nobody cares about the tears I shed,
why then it bothers me?
I feel stupid for all this to be.

What do I do?
It tears my heart through,
every time I think I’ll never;
but I’ve to ask, cry me a river.

© Shreya ♥

While learning to walk countless times I fell,
you picked me up and wiped my tears;
made me stand and watched me run;
stole all my unshared fears.
Witnessed many fairs on your shoulders,
on those arms I swung many times;
slept every night on your lap,
having you beside me whispering those rhymes.
Chocolates, balloons and teddies,
dollhouse and those toy guns;
I used to cry only for broken toys,
and you used to get me better ones.
Miss watching cartoons and sports together,
and cheering for favourite team;
miss that race between us,
and that winner’s scream.

I grew up and left home back,
with some cherished memories I got;
will be back soon dear dad,
‘cause nothing can replace you, no matter what.

Taught me to ride the bike,
with bleeding knees I came to you;
you kissed my pain away,
and I started to begin all new.
Your love-turned-anger,
when I used to come home late;
was again a sign of care,
and a symbol that you are tired to wait.
Every scream followed after nightmares,
you heard in the middle of night;
did not know to sing but sang me lullaby,
till I forgot them and felt alright.
Got me everything I pointed my finger at,
sacrificed your dreams to pursue mine;
how much it takes be the one like that,
I shall hear through the grapevine.

I grew up and left home back,
with some cherished memories I got;
will be back soon dear dad,
‘cause nothing can replace you, no matter what.

“Listen to me, kitten. Win or lose, you’ll always be a princess to me.” ―Kiera Cass, The Selection

© Shreya ♥

Eftsoons* at my door someone came;
I eagerly asked the name,
I listened the name as death;
I feared and paused my breath.

She quoth* don't fear;
oh my innocent dear,
I am not thy* foe;
I have a great woe.

I asked but what thou* woe is?
replied she; just guess,
I was unable to know;
she wanted something to show.

She quoth please tell me why;
when I am near; people cry,
she quoth please tell me why;
people pray when I am nigh*.

I quoth they fear of thou;
but they don't know,
that thou are just a phase of life;
but they don't want to strife.

© Shreya ♥

When I close my eyes;
and slip into the flashback,
I lose myself into the darkness;
where old memories attack.

I got my heart bleeding;
losing my thoughts to oblivion,
all I can feel is numb;
holding a vacuum within.

It gave me the deepest cut;
gonna be the darkest scar,
as the legacy of pain;
its gonna reside in my heart.

Its gonna turn into a hollow spot;
of all the pain that I never talk about,
yeah, it’s something that breaks me down;
but am gonna rise again, gotta cut it out.

Like it was never a part of mine;
that I have tried so much to hide,
its gonna fade away along with time;
won’t be haunting me anymore inside.

But it gave me the deepest cut;
gonna be the darkest scar,
as the legacy of pain;
its gonna reside in my heart.

When I close my eyes;
and slip into the flashback,
I lose myself into the darkness;
where old memories attack.

I got my heart bleeding;
losing my thoughts to oblivion,
all I can feel is numb;
holding a vacuum within.

It gave me the deepest cut;
gonna be the darkest scar,
as the legacy of pain;
its gonna reside in my heart.

Its gonna turn into a hollow spot;
of all the pain that I never talk about,
yeah, it’s something that breaks me down;
but am gonna rise again, gotta cut it out.

Like it was never a part of mine;
that I have tried so much to hide,
its gonna fade away along with time;
won’t be haunting me anymore inside.

But it gave me the deepest cut;
gonna be the darkest scar,
as the legacy of pain;
its gonna reside in my heart.

When I close my eyes;
and slip into the flashback,
I lose myself into the darkness;
where old memories attack.

I got my heart bleeding;
losing my thoughts to oblivion,
all I can feel is numb;
holding a vacuum within.

It gave me the deepest cut;
gonna be the darkest scar,
as the legacy of pain;
its gonna reside in my heart.

Its gonna turn into a hollow spot;
of all the pain that I never talk about,
yeah, it’s something that breaks me down;
but am gonna rise again, gotta cut it out.

Like it was never a part of mine;
that I have tried so much to hide,
its gonna fade away along with time;
won’t be haunting me anymore inside.

But it gave me the deepest cut;
gonna be the darkest scar,
as the legacy of pain;
its gonna reside in my heart.

© Shreya ♥

You make sense, everything else is insane;
dunno since when I am part of this game,
as long as am there to exclaim;
you need not to find out a name.

Since I dunno whom to blame;
but can count you for the same,
you’re wind, am struggling flame;
seems to be fading out as you came.

Lost, as memories don’t understand my pain;
devoid of you as empty spaces haunt,
seems like nothing else could explain;
so am telling you, you’re all I want.

You said everything else is insane;
and I've all the reasons to exclaim,
oh, for what it became;
let’s not give it a name.

Time is certainly not the same;
remember; when you used to be the flame,
I still dunno whom to blame;
for we have been part of this game.

Lost, as memories don’t understand my pain;
devoid of you as empty spaces haunt,
seems like nothing else could explain;
so am telling you, you’re all I want.

~Shreya ♥
“That’s the worst way to miss somebody. When they’re right beside you and you miss them anyway.” ―Pittacus Lore
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I had a world of my own;
and everything was almost fine,
then you came out of the blues;
and now am no more mine.

You told me you’re sick at home;
and I just came to see,
I caught you with her;
still you’re lying to me.

Am done with all your excuses;
it is not the first time you’ve done,
please don’t say you’re sorry;
don’t fool me ‘cause am not the one.
don’t say sorry if don’t mean it;
no matter what, this time I won’t believe it.

Why don’t you temme the truth;
why I have to be the last to know,
how many times I’ve gotta excuse you?
how many times I’ve gotta let it go?

When I call I find your number busy;
but you told me you are at work,
please don’t say you’re sorry;
for all the time you kept me in dark.
don’t say sorry if don’t mean it;
no matter what, this time I won’t believe it.

© Shreya ♥

You are such a nasty *******;
people like you are meant to ditch,
what else I can expect from a **** like you?
you are *******, faceshit; get the hell off here.. phew!

I remember the time when we drank and fell;
we played all hard rock metal songs and drove to *Del,
we broke the signals at every cross;
and the hangover took so long to pass.

I don’t want you back, ‘cause its over now;
and am gonna make myself okay somehow,
don’t explain me all your secrets now;
‘cause I'm tired of being last to know.

Still we were on and party all night;
we danced like nuts till we see the Sunlight,
next day was already over;
when I caught you with a *****-typo lover.

You were after a D-cup hottie;
and every time you made me feel like zombie,
so I decided to make you regret;
in a way that you could never forget.

I don’t want you back, ‘cause its over now;
and am gonna make myself okay somehow,
buzz off, I don’t need a dork like you;
‘cause I don’t wanna be an option among few.

© Shreya ♥

I wake up in the morning with bloodshot eyes;
the Sun peeks inside my window and wakes me up,
birds sing dawn chorus  and trees dance for me;
and I gaze outside my window, holding a tea cup.

I take shower and get ready for work;
wearing fake expressions of satisfaction,
and walk the crowded roads, where I get lost;
and work whole day with speechless action(s).

There is a weird feeling that conquers my soul;
some call it peace; some call it emptiness,
I am still a slave of destiny and it rules me;
I feel  fragile when tossed between no and yes.

I walk back to home and emptiness waits for me;
I play my guitar and it listens silently; sitting around a corner,
I lay down in my boudoir and lost in imagery;
but emptiness awakens like a strict owner.

I feel insomniac, and emptiness runs me through;
I put my hands back-head and travel the paths of flashback,
when I used to be the owner of happiness and;
now it seems like those days won’t come back.

I twist and turn, and night passes by;
and I wake up with one-minus a day,
I feel handcuffed with laziness but I welcome my morning;
but emptiness still has so many reasons to stay.

© Shreya ♥

Blood shot eyes and sleepless nights;
am crawling back to loneliness,
in those dark streets of memories;
choosing to dump myself in silence,
where I go numb or feel less;
and figure out this enigmatic sadness.

Yearning resides in the darkest corner;
empty spaces haunt me to the core,
as it yawns in the middle of night;
and echoes loud at my door,
it absorbs me like a demon came alive;
leaves me paralysed yet unsure.

All alone, on my own;
with my shadow walking by my side,
isolated thinking filling up my mind;
I reveal my scars; don’t wanna hide,
yeah they are somewhere still alive;
they are deep, hidden inside.

Yearning resides in the darkest corner;
empty spaces haunt me to the core,
as it yawns in the middle of night;
and echoes loud at my door,
it absorbs me like a demon came alive;
leaves me paralyzed yet unsure.

© Shreya ♥

They mould me into a human of clay;
under the layers of dust I lie,
and I envy the Almighty;
to Hell or to Heaven I signify?

Referring to eternity;
am I crafted to praise?
all the wonders I come across;
or to curse missed yesterdays.

Time spent goes to oblivion;
brings me enigmatic sorrow,
do they favor me;
gifting me another tomorrow.

No count of how much I owe;
how much do they bless me,
moulding me into a mortal being;
of unknown eternity.

Do I really belong;
to the universe of dust,
to live once they say;
I should die first.

So how many times I have to die;
and go through such enigmatic sorrow,
to feel immense pleasure;
and owe no eternal woe.

~Shreya
P.S. My creation, please do not copy | © Protected | Image: Google
P.P.S. Work Of Oblivion

Dreaming of you seems to never end;
imaginary romance and the time we spend,
you and I somehow still make sense, my friend;
whatever happened; was a perfect crime,
being together, we lost the track of time;
against my wish it changed, still sublime.

Can’t imagine my existence without you;
started wishing; you could break the clue,
I couldn’t forget till forever is through;
over me; now you can rule,
I surrender, countless times you’ve been cruel;
oh I; how could have been such a fool.

Like you are everything;
no; the happiness you bring,
am so addicted to you that I;
should confess, for no more I could deny.

You’re the voice all over in my head;
could forget you, chose to remember instead,
time again; was the one that misled,
not again, not anymore;
misleading expressions all the time I wore,
now I, have been lost so sore.

I've got this feeling somewhere deep inside;
I die not to express; try hard to hide,
what you could do of the pain that’s pride;
you are the desire deep within,
unsatisfied, as long as the chances grin;
kills me little to know am not gonna win.

Like you are everything;
no; the happiness you bring,
am so addicted to you that I;
should confess, for no more I could deny.

~Shreya ♥
P.S. My creation, please do not copy | © Protected |
P.P.S. Work Of Fiction

Pick yourself up;
fix your bleeding knees,
wipe away your tears;
look up for opportunities.

Even if you fall again;
fix your stumbled feet,
elbow out your fear;
begin again and repeat.

Every time you fall;
ignore the people tease,
set your sight on the goal;
let your insecurities release.

Take your steps ahead;
the goal is not so far,
don’t waste time looking back;
just believe in who you are.

Cross every hurdle with hope;
there’s less left to go,
make your faith stronger;
more than you ever know.

Every time you fall;
give a **** to your pain,
its all about blood sweat and tears;
give yourself a chance to try again.

© Shreya ♥

Can hear the echoes of silence;
shadows are stealing the light,
walk me home, I am alone;
lost in the middle of the night.

Don’t know which way to go;
losing sense of control,
no one to tell what to do;
opposed by my own soul.

Leaving no proof of existence;
am fading like a shadow,
this world seems not enough;
wish could escape outta window.

Sleepless nights that haunts;
scary long wandering hours,
deepest thoughts; never expressed,
that passed while staring at the stars.

All I can sense is numb;
can feel nothing at all,
wanna pretend am flying;
for a while, when I fall.

Leaving no proof of existence;
am fading like a shadow,
this world seems not enough;
wish could escape outta window.

© Shreya ♥

When you have a broken heart,
And you can't go back to the start;
When it hurts to move forward,
And you can't go back to your world;
Then put all your faith in Lord,
And all your wounds will be cured.

When you wanna sleep but you can't,
When you don't get all that you want;
When you find your dreams shatter,
And all your friends begin to flatter;
Then put all your faith in Lord,
And all your wounds will be cured.

When you lose something you die for,
When you lose all the reasons to adore;
When you work and it doesn't work out,
When you have to face the fall out;
Then put all your faith in Lord,
And all your wounds will be cured.

When tears cover your face,
When to wanna win some race;
When you wanna make your dreams,
When you are drowned in the streams;
Then put all your faith in Lord,
And all your wounds will be cured.

When you wanna confess something,
And you are afraid of the shame it will bring;
When you feel like albatross over your neck,
And it hurts to look back;
Then put all your faith in Lord,
And all your wounds will be cured.

When you have a broken heart,
And you can't go back to the start;
When it hurts to move forward,
And you can't go back to your world;
Then put all your faith in Lord,
And all your wounds will be cured.

When you wanna sleep but you can't,
When you don't get all that you want;
When you find your dreams shatter,
And all your friends begin to flatter;
Then put all your faith in Lord,
And all your wounds will be cured.

When you lose something you die for,
When you lose all the reasons to adore;
When you work and it doesn't work out,
When you have to face the fall out;
Then put all your faith in Lord,
And all your wounds will be cured.

When tears cover your face,
When to wanna win some race;
When you wanna make your dreams,
When you are drowned in the streams;
Then put all your faith in Lord,
And all your wounds will be cured.

When you wanna confess something,
And you are afraid of the shame it will bring;
When you feel like albatross over your neck,
And it hurts to look back;
Then put all your faith in Lord,
And all your wounds will be cured.

When you have a broken heart,
And you can't go back to the start;
When it hurts to move forward,
And you can't go back to your world;
Then put all your faith in Lord,
And all your wounds will be cured.

When you wanna sleep but you can't,
When you don't get all that you want;
When you find your dreams shatter,
And all your friends begin to flatter;
Then put all your faith in Lord,
And all your wounds will be cured.

When you lose something you die for,
When you lose all the reasons to adore;
When you work and it doesn't work out,
When you have to face the fall out;
Then put all your faith in Lord,
And all your wounds will be cured.

When tears cover your face,
When to wanna win some race;
When you wanna make your dreams,
When you are drowned in the streams;
Then put all your faith in Lord,
And all your wounds will be cured.

When you wanna confess something,
And you are afraid of the shame it will bring;
When you feel like albatross over your neck,
And it hurts to look back;
Then put all your faith in Lord,
And all your wounds will be cured.

© Shreya ♥

Day before yesterday I bet my life;
one fine day I’ll win this strife,
so I kept my fingers crossed;
and in this hope whole day passed.

In unpredictable thoughts I was lost so deep;
I rolled all night and it kept me away from sleep,
yesterday I found my hope wasn’t real;
it tore me apart with no chance to heal.

Oh.. it wasn’t real and it broke me through;
but still it seems so hard to let it go,
and I was stupid to have fantasy hope;
like I was watching through kaleidoscope.

I can see my hope fading away;
like rainbow fades into the sky,
but still I’ll try to hold it back;
no matter if it gets me off the track.

I am scared to hope again;
‘cause once it broke me into the pain,
it aches like pulse of blood under the wound;
and I just can’t take it anymore around.

Oh.. it hurts when it heals too;
but it gets me little hope; so new,
may be I am stupid to have fantasy hope;
for I have reached to the end of the rope.

© Shreya ♥

Its 2 a.m. in morning and I;
wanna hug my teddy and cry,
looking at your photographs  in my phone;
lost in your memories, left all alone.

It hurts to know that you;
love her and she loves you too,
do I ever cross your mind;
or it was only me who got blind?

I wish I would have never met you;
I could forget you like I never knew,
it cuts me to the core the way I feel;
for I fell outta love, never gonna heal.

I must walk outta your life;
am gonna give up this strife,
I can’t take this anymore;
‘cause you were never mine to adore.

What should I expect from you to be;
you don’t even know this part of me,
we talk out of the blues like strangers do;
for me its like a beginning –so new.

But I know its not gonna work;
I will continue to act like ****,
its hard to pass these love sick days;
for I fell outta love, gonna part my ways.

© Shreya ♥

Some are angels some are demons;
guess angels possess flaws too,
and like everyone else in this world;
why couldn’t I possess few.

A heart broke and no one heard;
but they complain for all I broke,
how uneven to have no count;
of the promises that faded like smoke.

Guess that’s the accepted law;
they magnify it when you are flawed,
though I accept it with dignity;
for I believe, so is the God.

They forget the favors that are due;
they pretend they’ve got no clue,
I witnessed some dreams come true;
I believe world’s not that bad though.

Let your fears scream loud;
hear ‘em echo all around,
forget your scars, attempt to fly;
lift your feet off the ground.

‘cause guess that’s the accepted law;
you can’t be perfect unless you’re flawed,
reveal your scars, let it heal;
for I believe, so is the God.

“Being flawed is original, remember –this world dies for original”.

~Shreya ♥
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P.P.S. A Random Thought

There is sky out there;
painted in blue so bright,
it’s endless, all yours;
give up the fight.

Grow above the boundaries;
dare to see the other side,
break the chains of insecurities;
that scares you inside.

Set yourself free; lift your feet and fly,
world ain’t that bad, look that azure sky.

You may stumble;
it may knock you down,
but you gotta start again;
to rise from the ground.

There gotta be people;
who will laugh and stare,
for every time you fall;
gotta get up and shift the gear.

So set yourself free; lift your feet and fly,
world ain’t that bad, look that azure sky.

© Shreya ♥

Its 2 o'clock in the morning;
I am staring at the phone and rolling,
but you hasn't called and I;
sit by my window and sigh.

Now am staring at the moon;
hoping you'd call me soon,
but its getting so late now;
imma try to sleep somehow.

And my mind goes into the flashback;
when you said you'll be with me forever,
but forever never comes baby;
so don't say forever, don't say forever.

I am crawling into the loneliness;
I donno what's on your mind and I can't guess,
I hold your memories so strong;
and I think of you all day long.

I wish you'd sweep in like before;
and make a soft knock at my door,
and put your arms around my shoulder;
I've got my cardigan on 'cause its getting colder.

And my mind goes into the flashback;
when you said you'll be with me forever,
but forever never comes baby;
so don't say forever, don't say forever.

Am sliding your pictures on my phone;
am lying on my bed and I feel so alone,
I wish you'd wake me up in the morning;
and I'd pretend that I am sleeping.

Putting your thoughts aside isn't easy;
'cause they play in my mind like symphony,
Am tryna sleep with all your dreams;
keeping phone near and gazing moonbeams.

But my mind goes into the flashback;
when you said you'll be with me forever,
but forever never comes baby;
so don't say forever, don't say forever.

© Shreya ♥

I saw you today laughing with her;
I know you caught me staring you,
you’ve moved on and I am still there;
This ain’t no surprise you’ve got somebody new.

Must be happy with your girl;
for she is beautiful; ‘am happy for you,
don’t care ‘bout me, am gonna be okay;
‘cause I have some of my friends who care me too.

Would have been stupid to think;
we’re gonna be together again,
how stupid of me to think this way;
I gotta forget you, getcha outta my brain.

I’ll buy a ring and flaunt it;
to pretend I am happy in my world too,
for some stupid reason I gotta do this;
so that it doesn’t anymore bother you.

I can feel the emptiness around me;
that grows everyday around,
I gotta learn live with it;
and get my feet back to the ground.

Sounds stupid to tell;
I imagined two of us to be again,
I know its not gonna work now;
so I gotta forget you, no more insane.

© Shreya ♥

Directionless and I wanted to be alone;
said you'll follow me no matter where I go,
lights misguide me, darkness is home;
we're clueless little kids not so long ago.

Words heal like nothing else would;
said all my thoughts you understood,
felt like am out of the woods;
but words stab like no knife could.

Nothing stays forever but;
general outlines of memories stay,
and it runs right behind you;
all those colors of promises fade away.

Telling the truth and lies too;
swearing like we never lie,
believed lies more than the truth;
love so blind, can’t deny.

Cried over mindlessness;
every time you tried to let it go,
hard to find good in goodbye;
‘cause you know healing is slow.

Nothing stays forever but;
general outlines of memories stay,
and it runs right behind you;
all those colors of promises fade away.

© Shreya ♥

I might be sad for you have been gone;
oh! it was hard but am trying to live alone,
‘cause I know I have to, somehow;
may be tomorrow or may be right now.

So am trying to erase all the memories;
saved somewhere in my heart; yet to release,
all those letters and diaries am gonna burn;
along with the photographs I gotta return.

I just don’t care ‘bout what people will say,
yea you heard it right; am gonna be okay.

Here is all your stuff, do hell with your keys;
I won’t come back; no matter if you go on knees,
its over now and I won’t let it start again;
so don’t come to me, acting like insane.

Go after those ******* like you have always done;
I  bet I’ll be happy in the world of my own,
I wish stupid Cupid won’t catch me anymore;
‘cause I have just locked the door.

I’ll be happy as I was, for sure one fine day,
yea you heard it right; am gonna be okay.

© Shreya ♥

In late seventies when bones refuse to support;
when eyes couldn't identify the object,
when most people plan their retirement;
I travel in flashback and regret.

All that time I've given to my children;
whom all my savings I’d spent on,
and loved them unconditionally;
that time has gone, long gone.

Now I've grown old;
with no more strength left,
they've left me alone to die;
with all my resources theft.

Grey hairs and missing teeth;
wrinkled face with eyes so deep,
fading memories that never sleep;
under which I hide and weep.

Looks like a nightmare came true;
and all I am left with is this stick,
on which I dare to walk my way;
with stumbled feet, so sick.

Now I've grown old;
with no more strength left,
they've left me alone to die;
with all my resources theft.

© Shreya ♥

Everybodys' heart has been broken at least once;
I am sure it was of those who took chance,
its better to live with a broken heart;
rather than waiting for something to start.

Heart ain't a glass to replace when it breaks;
its something made of feelings it takes,
its a corner to submit all feelings;
some play with it and some save it like diamond rings.

I wish I could get two hearts;
'cause mine is broken into many parts,
I didn't bleed when it was shattered;
few tears were out but for no one it mattered.

There is no market where hearts are mend;
it will still have a scar no matter how much you spend,
its something that runs with feelings not material things;
people play with it but can't heal the pain it brings.

Heart is heart, it was made to be broken;
and people leave it unspoken,
oh, its a tragedy and it kills no end;
whole life goes searching a chance for it to mend.

© Shreya ♥

Oh it feels like love has finally found me;
and I find myself unable to escape anymore,
but am still tryna walk away from it;
with bleeding knees, hurt so sore.

You are there in every thought that passes by;
like a cruel king you conquer my mind,
I wanna travel oceans with you but;
I donno I'll follow you or I'll be left behind.

So temme what to do with this heart shaped box?
where once you lived but now where nostalgia knocks.


Come and see it floating;
and tossed between violent waves of calamities,
will it ever swim outta it;
or it will be a victim of missed opportunities?

I scratched your name, as it belongs to you;
am gonna give it to you without anything in return,
and I want you to make it work like before;
or else fire it and let it burn.

Or temme what to do with this heart shaped box?
for no longer its mine, as after you it walks.

© Shreya ♥

When I fall, nobody comes to pick me up;
people stare at me and laugh and laugh,
they elbow me out but I pick myself up and stumble;
and still people expect me to be humble.

I just pretend to be good;
why shouldn’t I if they could?
they play games, they lie, they flatter;
and every time they do, I shatter.

I don’t wear heart on my sleeve;
even when I tell truth they don’t believe,
So I stay quiet, I stay alone;
and they think I am a heart stone.


I can’t be sorry, for I donno how to flaunt;
I just can’t be the way they want,
I have no regrets for the way I am;
So I chuck it when people start to blame.

Don’t temme what to do;
‘cause I already know,
all I ask them is to mind their business;
but they just can’t, I guess.

Let it be, I just don’t care;
now it doesn’t matter for me if they stare,
they won’t understand me till am gone;
so why do I care for such heart stone(s)?

© Shreya ♥

If you ever wanna know;
how it feels to miss somebody so close,
I will sing you this song;
and ask you to walk in my shoes.

I dunno  how, but it’s true that;
deep in my core you occupy a space,
you might not know but;
there is nobody who can replace.

You are an ache deep inside;
that lies in the middle of my heart.
it grows bigger and bigger;
like a scary hollow spot.

Everything is almost fine;
but there is a silence around;
I guess it is supposed to be there
and echoes so loud.

There is a vacuum down here;
which you haunt into,
and it scares the hell outta me;
do you feel the same I do?

You are an ache deep inside;
that divides my heart
it grows bigger and bigger;
like a scary hollow spot.

© Shreya ♥

If I can dream then I can do it,
for those who say I can't;
get the hell off here; 'cause I can,
Yeah am gonna make all that I want.

So imma pull my socks up,
and gonna chase all my dreams;
yeah you have heard it right,
imma row down the streams.

There is no mountain I can't climb,
nothing that can break me down;
'cause I have hope that runs me through,
and its the only best thing I own.

Yeah I can do it, I can do it,
and I do a ******* salute;
for those who discourage me,
'cause am headstrong and gonna get my route.

I can never be alone,
'cause my shadow walks with me;
so what do I fear for,
success is around, yeah I can see.

I'll keep walking on my way,
no matter what it* brings;
'cause those who have passion in their veins,
for them success waits & happiness sings.

I know I am just a few miles away,
from my destination, I wanna reach;
so am not gonna give up this soon,
c'mon I know it all, don't preach.

Yeah I can do it, I can do it,
and I do a ******* salute;
for those who discourage me,
'cause am headstrong and gonna get my route.

© Shreya ♥

I don’t know why I keep on thinking about you,
Why this world seems to be brand new?
Why I miss you even if I meet you everyday?
Why you seem so far even if you are a call away?

I don’t know why each dream is about you?
Though I know you ain’t my beau;
Why it feels great to see your text?
Why I save yours and delete the rest?

I don’t know why it hurts when you don’t reply?
Why I get down whenever you say goodbye?
Why I always want you to be with me?
Why I write about you in my diary?

I don’t know why I wait for you to come?
Why all your chats make me feel awesome?
Why are you so special for me?
Why your presence makes me feel happy?

I don’t know why I am afraid to lose you?
Why do I find you in everything I do?
I guess I am in love with you;
n I know you don’t and why would you?

But boy no one can love you the way I do,
Cause no one can write poems for you as I do;
I know all this is like a pipedream,
But I promise I will try and redeem.

© Shreya ♥

An empty space and unsaid words,
I hold somewhere deep in my core;
I donno what has happened to me,
'cause I was never like this before;

I see you laugh; I see you go,
and I feel myself so low;
I donno how to say those words to you,  
I think of you and you've no clue;
and all this makes me feel so blue,
but what to do, you donno somebody loves you.. oh no!

I write for you, I sing for you,
and the days are left so few;
oh boy temme what to do,
you don't wanna change your point of view.. oh no!
and I can't get my eyes off you,
you make me feel my world so new.

But I feel so blue;
so blue.. oh no!

You are someone that something can't replace,
you are the one whose memories ain't gonna erase;
I feel so blue and tears cover my face,
and I want you to come and embrace.

Oh.. I see you laugh; I see you go,
and I feel myself so low;
I donno how to say those words to you,  
I think of you and you've no clue;
and all this makes me feel so blue,
but what to do, you donno somebody loves you.. oh no!

I write for you, I sing for you,
and the days are left so few;
oh boy temme what to do,
you don't wanna change your point of view;
and I can't get my eyes off you,
you make me feel my world so new.

But I feel so blue;
so blue.. oh no!

© Shreya ♥

The echoes of silence around me;
and my hopeless mute scream,
am gazing outside the window;
and wishing if it could be my realm.

An empty chair next to me;
reminds me of my loneliness,
a corner table full of pills;
makes me feel of my weakness.

Here is my life, I gotta return;
so I gotta depart before my guts churn.

There is peace and white light,
now I can feel no pain;
I can’t feel if am alive or,
am gonna die again.

Here I lie warm in the deathbed;
holding the memories in my heart,
flashback and tears follow;
as I decide to depart.

Here is my life, I gotta return;
so I gotta depart before my guts churn.

© Shreya ♥

Whatever is there between us;
but it’s not love that’s for sure,
you are just a friend to me;
and I guess nothing more.

Though I manage to miss you;
dunno what kinda bond we share,
of which you have a clue;
and am also not unaware.

Though I caught you staring;
you pretended like you’re not,
and I guess I knew it;
yea, right from the start.

I've figured you out boy;
no matter how much you act,
yea I know it all;
as a matter of fact.

So let’s wait for who says it first;
for we both know;
and you’re gonna be the first, I bet;
‘cause I know you won’t lemme go.

May be am wrong but it feels so right;
may be you are not the one,
and I guess I knew it;
yea, right from the day one.

© Shreya ♥