My twin flame here I am
Do with me as you please
I surrender to you
Other women complain asking
you why do you love me more then them and you replied...
"why do I not love any of you like I love her?"
"If a blind woman and one who sees are together in darkness, they are the same.
Light comes, the one who sees will see light. The blind one
stays in darkness."
I am yours beloved I see your light my teacher my guru Sage twin flame my everything!
Caress me dance me oh sing me
Lay with me among the wild
flowered fields and bunny meadow prairy land
Spread you my wings I am
in full array near our nudist hill
My Adam your Eve
Or skip this previews
just take me now
Touch me taste me
Climbing becoming one we do our Macchu-picchu mountain each time we touch
many a mountain we shall climb
I won't ever let you down
Reciprocate my lover
I am your true love
I've been waiting for your scripted promises of old for decades to manifest.
Help me bridge this old gap bridge the chasm with
a leap of faith
Help me come out of this world of unreality our old prenuptial script lets jump into life
Let me spill my heart to you
Spill yours and play some nice music no more sad songs
Its sunny and beautiful outside
What a wonderful world
Loving the outdoors
Loving you loving me
Lay me down under the sunny
blue sky by day, let the pine tree aromas after the heavy rains to heighten and sharpen our senses
the evenings long.
Let's lay us both down
under the pomegranate trees examining their sensual hanging fruits that get us so high
Feed me your ripe fruits
I so hunger for you love.
Embrace me gently or grab me
download yourself into my hybrid vessel your inter galactic antivirus, lets wait untill dark falls for the stars to blanket us all night long I am your star seed
ENTER ME the evenings mornings long.
You raise me up like mercury on a thermometer pumping me
Earthquaking me
Fireworks crackling us
Volcanic booms exploding
with each pump fly me higher and higher raise me up, and up
You are the perfect lover
Protective husband amazing father
To this truth I surrender to you
Mate with me jump into Karijinis's hole fly us a honeymoon trip to Australia.
Protect me from the wild beast there here guide me make me into your own image God of love heart of gold like me!
King of hearts
here I am your Queen bee 2
glued together baby two
plus eight more!
There isn't a tree a rose a
Hilton hotel a Travelodge
A Laundry's restaurant
a garden a mountain
Paris Egypt Australia Africas starry sky
Not any place on Earth
Where I can't find you
You are omnipresent in my world even crossroads and street lights define you
You love like I do your eye moves are my own!
your smile is my own!
There isn't a Space Center rocket
Not any Star System
That won't remind me of you:
looking at me, waiting
Longing praying
for me to understand you.
You were the only one who
truly loved me just for me!
Everywhere I look I see you
I died amnesic in Greece and Veracruz there I wished I was never born
we all have our ways
of jumping off cliffs.
I fell into the abyss and I died again when Nasus answered phone in our home in Kemah
saying you two had a son!
I believed her lie
Lover of  life!
Giver of life
Love of my life
Lord G* heaven i missed you all my life
I sing and dance for you
Lord son of G omnipresent
miss you my E.T divine
I surender to you
do with me
as you please.
rdd/pjc I'm bba/asg
remember me as
something very
dear and precious
you promed me
my true love
I love you adore you forever yours in
mind heart body spirit soul.
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By: Karijinbba
All rights reserved:
excerpts from my first memoir

I will never give up on you.
No matter how hard the tide pushes,
no matter how strong the wind may blow,
I will stand with you,
strong and tall.
You,
are afraid and brave.
I,
am terrified and resilient.
Together,
we are in love.
Together,
we will overcome.
Together,
we are one.
Nor hell or high water,
will tear us apart.

Waving my tattered coat among
the waves of anger that floods
                                               past me.
I surrendered before this even began.
           homeless lullabies filtered though
my sleep the screams and echoes of
           a singular piece of lead silencing others.

But the azure bleed cerise on the pavement.
            Taking identities of fallen heroes,
never questioning but shaded beyond morals.
A tide was crashing upon the pavement of
                                                                     society.


There didn't seem to be a life of Black & White.
           but the fact that I seemed to be less
of worth than others pigment.
I held my tattered coat visible to those who
                          where dressed as if for war.
I was the first causality of the night,
                                   hands up in surrender

But as bleed on the floor I thought
                                                           "Why me"

My heart started shrieking when she said love could not save us. “How else can you explain this?” I protested as I pulled my bleeding heart out of my hollow chest. “This old thing swears to be yours, and yours only” I said with a lump in my throat. “Here is my heart, it is fragile. Break it anyway, if you must.” I cried.

The flowers she picked for me still haunt me. “How cruel of her. To **** a blooming flower for a lover she soon will ****, softly” I thought, but my dancing heart did not agree with me. “Yield” Pleaded my heart. “Yield! Surender yourself to her”. And so I did.

Surender your sorrows
And save yourself
Set your sights
And sing your song
- Zachery Wylie

My heart started shrieking when she said love could not save us. “How else can you explain this?” I protested as I pulled my bleeding heart out of my hollow chest. “This old thing swears to be yours, and yours only” I said with a lump in my throat. “Here is my heart, it is fragile. Break it anyway, if you must.” I cried.

The flowers she picked for me still haunt me. “How cruel of her. To **** a blooming flower for a lover she soon will ****, softly” I thought, but my dancing heart did not agree with me. “Yield” Pleaded my heart. “Yield! Surender yourself to her”. And so I did.

Over by the lake in thought, I sat and I  pondered.
Wondering of a love that would wash my sins away.
To be made a new in such a drenching sensation.
To be bathed in the ways of a beating heart.
With every smile, every word spoken.
I feel that she's near, Over by the lake in thought.
I would give anything to confess such profession.
My body; a nibble of bread in her everlasting thought.
Baptized in the blink of her eye.
Should the wells of her eyes ever dry I'd refill them with whatever tear I can provide.
To what tide do I offer such communion.
To find myself awaken in her eyes.
Every smile that flourishes across her face.
To imagine heaven with every step that she takes. The way the sun caresses her face,
Would this be considered blasphemy,
Becoming one with every breath that escapes her chest, caught by my lips.
This euphoric happening of any time, any place.
This mental elation, elevated with each throb of her heart.
I sit and I ponder,
Would she believe such testimonial.
The fear of an dream ending too soon.
Struggling to go to sleep and place myself where I saw her last.
With words unspoken
The total embodiment of total surender

I can't leave
Because I am waiting for God to come
And kiss me at midday
That kiss sweet
Who cares for me my God
I know you care God
The air feels fine
Here outside
I am dealing with God know
Can't you see
I am busy with him?
Once I open my ear
I heard your gentle words
The little flowers that
Are planted in the neighboors garden is called daisy
I haven't got a woman yet
I am not interested in it
Deep down I am a good person
I am a good hearted man
The answer that you always give me is
Don't worry
Everything will be fine
As long as I am here walking with you
Guiding you along with me
You tell me you have nothing to fear
You assure me that nothing bad is going to happen to me
When your gone
I will love you the right away
I believe that somethings are better left undone
When you are just too tired to do it
The rain fals like water from the sky
Hear, soul and song is what I am hearing
somebody playing that tune in the guitar
I recognize it because I heard it a thousand times before
I never run wild
I am too old for that
My younger days are over
I want to know what I am doing wrong
Please tell me God
What kind of man I am?
A man with feelings
A man who thinks of others and not only himself
I am gaining control of my life God
I am not loosing it
God is my empire
My home is like heaven to me
God
If you could just understand that
It is where my heart is
I am not always brave God
You have to understand that
I never lied to you
I never lied to you
I have to plan for my future
I have to stop feeling sorry for myself
And take some action
The nights are cold now
Amd when I sleep I think of you
And every day when is midday I know I will see you again
Having a good friend is important to me God
And that good friend is you
The next day at middday I heard the rain
It was coming down hard
I quess we just have to stay inside today
It is fine with me
Saturday I am going away
And I will board the midnight train
And when midday comes no matter where I will be
you will always be there with me
And by your side I will always be
In the morning I look out of the train window
And I see that the train
Is passing by the indian shores
Moving skies I see
They are bright today
Not a clooud in the sky
God I might be fooling myself
Sometimes I don't think I am being honest to myself
Inside my eyes I see that bright light
It is called the sun
The more I see it the more I like it
I am wearing my silk shirt
And my dresspants
And my dress shoes
I do it because I want to feel good and be presentable to others
I will lift up my hands towards your comamdmemts which I love
And I will meditate on your statue
Teach me oh God the way of your statue
And I will keep to the end
Give me understanding that I may keep your law
And observe it with my whole heart
When I think on my ways
I turn my feet to your testimonies
At midnight I rise to praise you
Though the cord of the wicked ensnare me
I do not forget your laws
I long for your salvation
I will sing a joyful song to you God
God I know that my eyes don't lie
To you
You see me
A tired man
God please take my anger away
Please don't tell me where the sun goes
I demand a better future from you
Please make sure I get all this pain and all this sorrow
Out of my life
How many thoughts must I think?
When will I learn to laugh again
And be me?
What can money bring me?
Only comfort
What violence can bring me
Pain and shame
I am the one that have to live with it
What Loneliness brings me sadness
What Issolation brings me
No hope
God I carry no gun loaded with bullets
I don't owed one either
There is a whole new wide world for me
Waiting to be discovered by me God
God your so good to me
Music can heal me God
And put happiness in me
God I have no strings atached to the mobsters
I will show the world that I care about God
I had finally arrived the next morning in Montreal
It was early in the morning and the sun was shining in my eyes
My eyes was getting sore from the sun light
I boarded the taxi and drove to the hotel
When I got there into the hotel I checked in
And went to sleep
I needed a rest badly
I didn't even unpacked my suitcase
I am having more faith in God now
Shadows shadows
Stop me from being a mad fighter
And turns me into a man
Step step up
This is the change
For step up
And be a man
And stop the brutal fight
And learn to control my emotions
I know God that you will help me with that
My heart quivered with a silent of anxiety
Even if I was banished to the darkest place
My love will never let be a lonely spirit
Because God will brighten my world
And the darkness would end
God I will give a chance to life
To pray
To listen to your loving kind words
To listen to the sound
I will give myself a chance to see the flowers that you made it grow
In the parks for everybody to see
You have grown it with your holly hands
God today is the day for me to built a better tomorrow
It is my only chance and hope
That you have given me
And I am going to use it
I am not going to waste it
Because God I want to built a better tomorrow
I will not think about my failours
But I will think about my acomplishments
God
I won't put myself down any more
God thank you for this day
And this day you are here walking beside me
At Night I enjoy looking at the stars
It takes courage for me to be the best I can be
It takes strength for me to conguer the world
It takes strength for me to surender when a bad tought enters my mind
It takes time for me to decide in what I want
It takes time for me to fit with the crowd
It takes strength for me to surrunder to my anger
What lies before me are small matters
As it is promised by the wind
As it is tender in my heart
As it is written in the sky for me and everybody else here on earth to read it
Love makes all things possible
Love is hope's shining star
Faith sees my day shining through
God a song is no song until I sing it
God yesterday was history
God tomorrow will be a mistery that waits for me
Today God is a gift that you gave me
Precious memories tender memories
Could comfort me next time I am in sorrow
Giving me a reason to look towards tomorrow
I can recall a word or deed
From an anuxpected source
That helped uplift my spirit
As I travelled on life's course
So I will never dwell on my troubles
Of a cross I had to bear,
Search deep withim my heart
And find sweet memories there
My life is full of mixture
Full of sunshine and rain
But memories of sunshine I can keep
Memories of rain I can let go
because I find it so sad
I will not quit even if things didn't work out for me God
Because there might be something that is better for me
I will wait for something else to come
It won't be the end of the world

A little tweak to the imagination and we're off on a flyer to another dimension and all without leaving the comfort of home.

The mirror looks at me as if it wants to fight me
I put my hands up in surrender,

funnily enough
I knew someone called Surender
a Sikh from the Punjab
which is just an aside
to fill up this poem
because now I'm fed up
and want a coffee.

The End.